When life delivers tomorrow's newspapers.

view my new blog

2004-09-28T15:42:00.000+08:00

hey! to view my new blog just click Login on this page http://fortisolitude.mindsay.com and use fortifriends as uname and sherocks as pword! YAAY! Haha. Ok lame. But well.. YuP! Try not to abuse that account ok? Hee. Okies will go. Bye alL!

new blog!

2004-09-21T15:13:00.000+08:00

i've moved to http://fortisolitude.mindsay.com and trust me it's much better than blogger! arghs! though right now i don't think you can access that site without being a mindsay member.. i'm trying to see how you can view it without being a mindsay member. yups. see y'all there then! love ya all loads.

word to mich: things will work out fine dear... trust in God's power and mercy~ He will guide you! also to check out my secret blog mich, if you haven't read the second entry..

love all!

the 2nd last one...

2004-09-10T09:24:00.000+08:00

wah... finally can blog.. I'm now searchikng for a new blog system that i can use that is private and quite good so that i can move soon. Yes I'll be moving soon don't worry my final update would be to tell you the new blog url :D

yep. i'm really quite fed up with blogger now. it's been causing so many problems for me. I'd actually blogged a lot more but they never got around to being updated. Argh! I might just use Greymatter and host my own blog and to tell you the truth i'm quite tempted to go back to manual blogging again, though i would miss the automated date and time thing, and all the formatting.. oh wells. okie will go now. Am at mobile club now. heh

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2004-09-08T20:55:00.000+08:00

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argh. hai. bleah

2004-09-01T23:18:00.000+08:00

ok everything's pretty much fine now.. I'll get on with bloggin abt what I wanted to blog abt.. Here's a list I got frm Val's blog:

1. Copy this whole list into your journal.
2. Bold the things that are true about you.
3. Whatever you don't bold is false.
4. My personal add-ons are in blue
5. Got this from Val's blog.

01. When I was younger, I made some bad decisions -- like pooing on the floor and eating paper
02. I don't watch much TV these days -- yea pretty sad huh. not much time nowadays
03. I love broccoli -- like EWW get away frm me!
04. I love sleeping -- hoo boy i sure do! I woke up at 3pm today!
05. I have loads of books -- oh yea. I dunno what i'd do without my books:D
06. I once slept in a toilet -- not only once... :D aiyah sometimes too tired la
07. I love playing video games -- yea! if and when I do get to play them
10. I watch 'One Tree Hill' -- erm. wassat?
11. I like sharks -- oh YEAH baby bring 'em on! As long as i'm a safe distance away:D
12.I love spiders -- AARRGH! Get away from me!!! *swats*
13. I was born without hair and I still have no hair -- i'd be sad if that happened to me
14. I like George W. Bush -- erm. no. not really
15. People are cool -- YEA! I have to agree! Without people, the world would suck:D
16. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year -- yea I think so..
17. I have an Envoy and a pool -- sadly, NOOO
18. I have a lot to learn -- definitely.. in all arenas.
19. I carry my knife everywhere with myself -- I wish i had a knife to do so. but no..
20. I'm really, really smart. -- yea how could you know that when you're nowhere near my level of intelligence?
21.I've never broken someone's bones -- erm... yea.. not even my own. I think:D
22. I have a secret -- DUH! Everyone has at least one
23. I hate rain -- Nahhh... I quite love the rain unless I'm trying to keep something dry
24. I drink health juice -- ew, no.
25. Punk rock is awesome. -- I'm objective on this
26. I hate Bill Gates -- no way! bill gates is pretty good.:D
27. I love Vietnamese food -- some types
28. I would hate to be famous -- noooooo :D:D I'd love to be famous for the right reasons:D
29. I am a morning person -- ABSOLUTELY NOT i can't function in the morning and usually by the time I wake up it's late afternoon
30. I have semi-long hair -- erm i think most people consider my hair long
31. I have short hair -- ditto above
32. I have potential -- DUH! Look at me! I'm full of potential! :D
33. I'm pure Afghan -- erm. no
34. My legs are two different sizes -- NO. I'm not a physical freak no matter how mentally freakish i am
35. I have a twin -- Yea! My imaginary twin rocks my socks she looks just like me!:P
36. I wear those long ass socks -- erm. if you do, i think you need help
37. I can roll my tongue. -- nooooooooooo i can't!!!! ARGH!!! i can, however, twist my tongue backwards and touch my tongue with the tip of my tongue:D
38. I like the way that I look under certain lighting -- hoo boy, yea:D
39. I'm obsessed with Italian food -- not obssessed i quite like it though:D
40. I know how to French braid -- again, NOOOO!!! arghs
41. I can be pessimistic or optimistic whenever I want --yeps:D can't you tell?
42. I have a lot of mood swings -- oh YEA.. and I'm POSITIVE you can tell
43. I skateboard/snowboard -- nope. I ski though:D
44. I think that skateboarders are HOT --erm. ok. it depends
47. I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have -- haha. i'll leave it for you to say. OF COURSE LA
48. I think that I'm popular -- no....
49. I am currently single -- hee hee. :P
50. I can't swim -- NOOOO I can swim the frog style, the free style, the butterfly stroke and the dragonfly stroke. I can tread water too!
51. My favorite color is either blue, red, or white -- no favourite color
52. I practically live in sweatshirts -- nope.
53. I love to shop -- oh yes! I love to! Hahaha think you can tell too:D most of my allowance goes to shopping:D
54. I would classify myself as either punk or goth -- nope
55. I would classify myself as ghetto -- what's that?
56. I'm a prep, shop at abercrombie, and ADMIT IT. -- none of the above
57. I'm obsessed with my xanga. -- ditto number 55
58. I don't hate anyone -- some people i really dislike but i don't hate them. it's too strong a word. though i may SAY it..i don't really MEAN it
59. I know how to square dance -- if you mean dancing in a square, yes. but otherwise, no:P
61. I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mom -- NO! I love being seen with my mom:D she's funky
62. I have a cell phone -- yes. what kind of silly.. though i know of people who don't own hps...
64. I watch MTV on a daily basis -- wish I could..
65. I know how to play the tuba -- ditto above
66. I love coffee. -- no. caffeine is evil. i hate coke too
67. I have had a girlfriend before -- helloo. i'm a girl... i have female friends but not the bgr type of girlfriends
68. I've rejected someone before -- erm yes. though i don't think it really counts
69. I currently like someone and they have no idea that I like them -- hmm. yes. just don't ask who
70. I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life -- not a very detailed idea but i kinda know what i want
71. I want to have kids when I get older -- ABSOLUTELY.. I may adopt though coz I'm afraid of the whole process of childbirth
72. I have changed a diaper before -- yea. When I was young I helped change my younger cousin's diaper:D
73. I've called the cops on a friend before and I'd do it again -- erm.
74. I bite my nails -- nooooooo that's quite disgusting really
75. I am a member of the Hilary Duff fan club -- ditto above
76. I'm not allergic to anything -- nope.. am allergic to bactrim, erithromycin and augmentin. bet you dunno what they are:D
77. I love broadway plays, and have been to at least 3 -- I love broadway plays but haven't been to 3.. i confused this question with Broadway Musicals though
78. I have no idea who the 38th president was. -- the 38th president of..?
79. I plan on seeing Mary Kate and Ashley's new movie -- yea. sounds promising
80. I am completely shy around the opposite sex -- haha. okay...
81. I'm online 24/7 -- nope.. try as i might
82. I have at least 25 away messages saved -- ditto above
83. I have tried alcohol or drugs at a party -- NO!!!
84. I loved Rush Hour -- aw yea! it kicked ass!
85. I've read all of the Harry Potter books -- DEFINTELY! All at least 100 times each!
86. If I were a dwarf, I would be dopey -- erm. whatever gave you that idea?:P
87. I don't mind country music -- yea.. I don't mind it.. some of it's actually quite nice:D
89. I think that Juicy Fruit is the best type of gum -- yea! it's nice and delicious:D
90. I watch soap operas whenever I can -- not whenever i can.. but I do watch some though:D They're quite good:D
91. I'm obsessive and paranoid and extremely jumpy -- haha I may seem so but I am not! honest!
92. I would love to be demi moore because ashton kutchers is a major hottie -- I wouldn't wanna be 40 years old yet
93. I love the Beatles.. they're classic -- I prefer the Bee Gees.
94. I know all the words to 'Barbie Girl' -- I used to:D
95. Halloween is awesome because you get free candy -- yea! And dressing up rocks!
97. I watch Spongebob Squarepants -- whenever I can! Spongebob ROCKS!
98. I want this damned thing to be over! -- i'm fine with it.. but it's getting late:P
99. I'm happy -- ok i'm quite fine..
100. I noticed that number 96 was missing. -- yea because I read this on val's blog first:D

Whee! All done! hhahaha. Ok am so tired now.. Will see you guys soon ciao!

---together. in special contexts.---

topsyturvyworld-- I can't BLOG!!! sth's wrong with blogger the textbox can't be typed in! HELP!!

2004-09-01T21:21:00.000+08:00

ARGH WHATEVER THE FUCK

lalala

2004-08-27T12:54:00.000+08:00

heyhos all! hahaha guess what? history was cancelled, PE was cancelled, and now we're cancelling Lit so basically I can go home NOW.. it's like 12+ la. Hahaha First time me can go off so early! Hahaha. Oh wells:D No use anyway. Got to wait for someone to finish his physics pract then go with him to Singapore Poly. diao. Hahaha

Yesterday went out with Val to get Teachers' Day stuff... Hahaha was pretty fun coz we were like lookin all over for bimbo stuff for stacy tan hahaha. Then she was obssessing over what to get for Ming Zi... Hahaha. Then later he came to find me at heeren then Val left and we walked around. Hee. So yeps ytd was our first time going out. After getting *...*ed. Hahaha.

Hmm what else? Not much lo... Just after that walk around liao then go home hahaha. So stupid right? Okie okie... Dunno what to say liao. So, take care all and bb! Tata

let's smile

2004-08-26T00:21:00.000+08:00

hai. feeling so.. hai. think sometimes being bigmouthed is ok, just tt you don't say the wrong things in front of the wrong people can liao. still. he didn't tell me he liked an sc girl before. hai. dunno la why do I care so much. hai. i feel all.. weird inside. hai.

diaopengzpingpongpiang.bullibullibullibullinittonittopottipotti hai. dunno what i feel like doing. can't even do history now:(

had a fun end to the day, laughing like mad all over sch

can't bring myself to laugh now. Hai. why..?

---together. day8---

life's good

2004-08-24T12:59:00.000+08:00

hahaha val's right behind me now *turns around and waves* and she said I"M LAME hahahaha anyways we've got history in the library in two more minutes (thanks val) haha

so well... just wanted to update that life's good :D haha. My parents know abt *ahem* yep. And being the liberal-minded parents they are, they don't mind la. Hahaha. so yeps. I'm quite fine. KWC just screamed CAN YOU JUST SHUT UP YOU IDIOT. hahaha kwc must learn to shut up:D the irony.

Anyways. yep. Will update more laters~

---together. in special contexts.day6---

hoo boy

2004-08-23T01:48:00.000+08:00

k. it's officially monday now since it's already past midnight.. "ve been up trying to do history and at the same time catching up with friends! Spoke to shirin:D Miss ya hon, and don't worry darling, nice things will come your way! Liwen! Miss ya loads and dun worry, hnl outing will go on! Philianna!!!!! Wah! You're in canada, babe! Lucky ass~ Zhonghong.. Good luck la. You have to tell her.. Ah gou gor! Haha i love yang yang! And the usual few people... Mich, wen-ci, shumin.. etc. Hee was fun talkin!

History research was futile.. Couldn't find anything of use. Lucky he found a page for me that had about 3 sentences of relevant information. Couldn't find shitznitz else myself. Me and shumin pia-ed some lousy thesis statements out and then she left. I'm here.. still pia-ing (ok maybe it's just to talk to him haha). Lol.

He promises we'll go out soon:D Haha.

Anyways, back to peishan! So well, she needed to dress up formally for Colours right, and she decided she was gonna wear skirt and put on heels "to be a good example to the other people" since she was in the organizing committee.. So we went to the LT5 toilet and told her what to wear. I was like trying on the clothes too la heh. Then finally got her into the skirt and top and heels then trained her to walk in heels. Hahahahahahahahahhahahaha damn damn damn damn damn damn damn funny la! She was so paiseh and stuff and walk like a man lor! hahaha then we brought her to the stairs at the ta block and it was like, chao funny! hahahahaha. Damn funny la hahaha.

Anyways, Saturday was pretty fun. SC rocks! But left early coz... Sitong arh.. Hahaha. Saw all the wonderful 4GY peeps as well as the library peeps. V happy:D Then after tt sitong stomped off and so me and eunice headed into town where I collected our photos at paragon, then we went to heeren so that eunice could buy her earrings and I bought hair clips. Yea. Just realised tt the hairclips arh.... Zhong kan bu zhong yong. Hai. I'll just stick to my current hair clips. Hai. Haha. Then we went to the BK at cine to eat and talk. Haha. Yea.

Today was largely boring:D Watched a really funny show called Hypnotized! on channel I. Try and watch it people! Dunno whether or not the stuff is all fake and rehearsed, but well. Haha.

Okies will go now. Back to pia-ing history!

---together. in special contexts.day5---

wireless jam!

2004-08-21T12:48:00.000+08:00

now in mobile computing lesson in CS21. Heh. Cool my ringtone is so funky it's gonna be the most popular ringtone in singapore soon! hahaha. Anyways, yesterday was awesomes funny. It was like, photo taking but then it rained just when we finally got settled down...

Wait. gtg will be back later. I mean, Monday

:D

ok am bACK on the same day. Am now at SC library! Hahaa it's the open house. So embarassing everyone;s screaming "Cherlynn has a boyfriend!!" Haha. Yup. Damn embarassing. Saw people like Li Siying, Hui tze, Viv, Huiyu, Kaiwei, jojoy and MELIA just came haha. Yea. And all the library peeps julianne, peirong, lihuan, shefong etc.. Haha. Saw the teachers liao also. Anyways gtg. Will blog later about ytd. See ya

with the blessings of the Lord

2004-08-20T11:08:00.000+08:00

heh. now in bytz using the sls comp. DLed the Impacts and Evaluations and let hl see. Haha it's approved liao! Whee. Maths test was ok:D Shd be can pass heh. But I did the darndest thing and went to change my answer for the graph thing, which was correct in the first place la! HAIYO.

dang. i think i need the toilet. hahaha will brb later. see ya all

PS tong. dun angry la. dun be pissed. i know you're sad in NY and I would really love to join you and take you out of your misery, walk around sch with you like we used to in SC. If there was a way i would really do that. Please. We'll be best friends forever, no matter what. Don't let this kinda thing affect our 8 years besfriendship k. Love ya

Mich, eunice, val, shumin, anne, reena, everyone else.. Thanks for your support. Really value it and love you guys loads:D

---together. in special contexts. day2---

day one...

2004-08-20T01:44:00.000+08:00

hmm.. was a happy day today.. yea. Can't think of much tt made me upset. :D Apart frm... Later then i say. I begin frm start. So in the morn, met val then we had a talk. I talked a bit abt last night and she talked abt her stuff. Then we realised we got our bums wet!! Haha. Then spent rest of time fanning our skirts. Then pe was bball! Fun! Apart frm getting harassed by hl haha. My specs flew off and got beaten out of shape la. The lens flew off lor. But it was fun la huh.

Walked into GP classroom abt 25 mins late to discover that majority of class had turned into ghosts. They went for photo-taking *reminder phototakin tml at 2pm* la. So we had a basically slacking gp class. Yah. Then Lit. Heart of Darkness again. Then lunch I worked on the Impacts and Evaluations for PW in class while the guys danced their stuff as usual. So... weird...

Then after tt was maths and econs. Miss Tan didn't turn up so we had Miss Ng substitute for our econs class. Was good coz she was quick and clear:D finished abt 10 mins early:D yay. Well done miss ng haha. Left with Val to go town (she go funanctr for piano) the dhoby gaut mrt to meet my friends SITONG AND ELEPHANT! Yea. Hahaha then we bought this voucher thingy from this really nice lady. Then I went down the wrong escalator while they laughed at me then we walked to Paradiz Centre. Then did our stuff and over. Then after tt went to LJS at PS to eat. Hai. They are like, not happy with me lor. Dang. Hai. So upset.

Then left lor. Sitong was acting angry hh. Haha. Reached home, bathed, had dinner, then decided to do PW before going to church for interview. Then bloody hell! The thing screwed up!!! Hai! My laptop is chao ji laopok!! Haha. Yah Then Church interview went well.. Spoke to Esther and she shared her experiences as well as the experiences of my other classmates. Really really awesome stuff. The beauty of God's grace is so profound!

Hai. Sitong not happy. She make me not happy lor. Hai. Why can't she.. hai. And she used my msn acc to log in and talk to him. hai. sitoooooong... hai.

shumin: Oh you evil bitch! Wah! I still d founder k! Haha. Got events must invite me:D Thks for your support! Really appreciate it

bf: don't be upset la. I'm still your best friend, you're still my best friend (eunice dun get angry). Please. I need and want your support lor. You like tt I really not happy one leh.

mich: Thanks darling:D I won't ever forget you guys la. Abt interview.. hahahaha. He not free. apparently he got A Levels huh.

val: you take care k babe? Yup. Miss ya:D

Anyways, after comin home, ended up doin pw till now. Supposed to pia maths now. Yah. BB then tc

---together. in special contexts---

together:D

2004-08-19T01:50:00.000+08:00

hee. very very very very very very happy now. Tired but happy:D erm hmm. yea just erm got attached:D

k as you can see I'm not in the "making sense" state of mind..

have to resign as NENS prez. But I'm still the founder k. Hee.

happy happy happy:D:D

Can't rmb what else to blog abt. See ya all!

---together. in special contexts---

happyyy haha:D

2004-08-17T20:32:00.000+08:00

hey all:D i'm feeling happy now.. Though this is really a horrible week what with history research essay due, pw first draft of final report due, lit lect test, math lect test etc... Hee. Just went out with reena. Miss that babe (the pig) hahahaha. Walked around paragon for her to get her gargantuan pencil case.. Sent the film i kept forever for developing.. Then walked here and there trying to buy stuff. Remade the ring that i lost (the cher bf one) at wisma. Walked around and talked. Damn fun la. Had a great time man. REENA ROCKS! heh.

Before that hmm... had pw stuff. Coz the pw stuff is due tml.. So everybody like rushing.. What else huh. Oh. Saturday and Sunday were the Technoquest competition days. On saturday, we completely screwed up both the quiz round and the programming rounds. Heh. Then Sunday we did well luckily.. Because the website was so good la. Thanks a lot to *ahem* our seniors.. Hahaha. It really rocked know, the "Build your guitar" page. Wonderful. I did a really lousy presentation though. Heh. Then bloody hell.. Had diarrhoea the whole day and the day after that.. Bombed this toilet in Boon Lay, then the toilet GOT JAMMED AND COULDN'T FLUSH LA! Omg. I was so shocked I closed the lid and sneaked out of the cubicle. Luckily no one noticed... But I feel very sad for the cleaning lady.

Then after competition went with yi chuen and shin to buy stuff for zh to thank him for al his help and being such a great senior la. Went round and round JP but just couldn't find the right thing. Ended up getting a card. Hee. Then after that rushed off to Jac's house for pw. Hehehe. But wth. It was really my lucky day lor. On my way there genna struck by bird shit and at the most impossible angle at that! Wth! Hahaha. So i rushed into Jac's house screaming "There's shit in my hair!" and basically pretty much ruined the meeting. We had loads of food at the meeting:D I wolfed down some curry chicken, an Oreo Cake and an durian cake. :D *yum!* Hee.

then got a ride from val's parents to mrt station and went back. Oh speaking of mrt station!!!! Reena was so stupid today! Hahahahha it's like, we ran across the platform to the train, and I ran into the train but then the door was half closing and she gave out this squeal and then the door closed. Hahahah lousy bitch! Hahahaha

Okies will go now.. Dunno what to blog abt liao:P

***happy:D***

competition mode

2004-08-14T04:44:00.000+08:00

so i'm still awake and it's now 4:42AM. Like bloodyQM says, might as well stay up the whole night liao.. But I can't help but lust for the deliciously cool aircon waiting for me downstairs in my room.. Hai.

So why am I up so late? What else.. Competition lor.. Hahaha. Technoquest tml at NTU. Dammit NTU is going to become my third home la. Wth. Heh. So I've done my bit of the work so now can blog abit while waiting for my work to come in so I can do sth useful and constructive. Ok it just came in. I'll just finish up here.

Stayed in Bytz till about 915 just now.. Then reached home at 10plus.. Didn't eat a single shit the whole day and so gobbled down what mom kept for me. Chicken rice and baked chicked with potatoes and cheese! :D Hee. Then bathed and after tt on comp till now.. Prolly will stay here till abt 5..

Today was wacky.. Paid attention to most of my lessons.. Free periods were spent in Bytz pia-ing history essay. Had a lot of fun with the courier service thingy... Sorry if I'm not making sense.. Feeling sleep-deprived k. Had a fun PE lesson. Then rushed over to Bytz. Heh.

Thanks muchos to ZH and bloodyQM for all the help la. Alrighties, will go and work on the debugging now. See ya all!

feeeeee!!!

2004-08-11T18:35:00.000+08:00

hahaha just saw reenanana at tjc... went there for some history field trip thingy:D Hahaha miss ya loads la reenananan baby. Hope you tag to say you saw this k.. Coz I'm really sure you read this. Love ya loads reenanana-pie! Hahaha.

Anyways, now in bytz la. Yup. Hmm.... what else to say? Nothing la... Just sorry val babe, i got held up leh... So... i'm still in sch now and it's hmm... 1838hrs... Yup. Anyways ciao all. I'm a bit.. constipated:P

miss you like crazy

2004-08-10T17:10:00.000+08:00

hmm.. my title refers to a whole bunch of people, including certain people I really wish I didn't miss. Haha.

Anyways, watched mean girls just now with val and *ahem*. Hai. Feel so lightbulbish. heh! Before that was doing research at the WRL. Cool huh! I did some work y'know!

Before that, tried on some daniel yam gowns at metro.. OMG I have a figure la! Hahaha never knew:D Really love that gown.. figure hugging and complimentary man! Haha.

Hai. The whole word walks in pairs and I stride alone.

eh...

2004-08-07T14:56:00.000+08:00

hey! so yup.. here again to update. Blogging is becoming more and more of a chore now.. Heh. Anyways, what happened thurs? hmm.. can't quite remember.. i only remember at the end of the day I went back to SC for SF's farewell party.. Yay! Miss SC so damn much... And library and all the juniors and stuff! Then went back to nj to get my bag and stuff. (was supposed to go back for pw meeting but.. Hai.. everybody left liao. Heh)

Yup.. Then at home Thurs, broke the news about my CT results to parents.. Got scolded pretty badly (explains my lack of updates recently) Then had to rush PW stuff as well as get together the costume design for the ndc on Fri. So didn't sleep the whole night

Then Friday morn went up to computer and printed pw stuff. Rushed to sch to rush the costume. Put it together very slipshoddedly (*?) and then went to watch the stuffs. The dances are all very nice (the ethnic ones.. not the western one). The western dance, in my opinion, was not up to standard la.. Prolly because I watched roo many SC's dance performances already, and in comparison the NJ western dance sucks. Yea. SC's dancers synchronise their movements and everything is crisp, graceful and beautifully fluid. Well yea. Then we had inter house games, sang two national songs (that was fun:D) and had sparklers lighted up.

Then went to rushedly print out pw stuff so that we could hand in our file... Then went to meet sitong at Raffles City convention centre.. Yea.. Saw a lot of people.. weifen, jo lee, guan sin, nadya, this girl frm my yj chinese class, john.. etc.. Then went to orchard.. had some cheese fries at PSKFC and had a chat.. Then got msg frm Mich that she heard from Deborah Lim that IRENE TAN HAS A BOYFRIEND!!! Then we got so shocked we called Irene, and found out that she was at Taka, so we rushed down toTaka (on the way we informed eunice and reena about this latest development, and I felt very shi bai, zi bei etc... ) Then found her with her friend Joan at the Macs at Taka.. Popped the burning question and she said no, but apparently a guy likes her. WTF!!!! OMG OMG OMG I FEEL SO SHI BAI LA! Wahahaha. Yea. Then sat down with them and talked, then decided to meet mich at heeren so walked to heeren.. Did mild shopping, then decided to go to Bits and Pieces at Cine to buy rings for 4 of us (me sitong mich eu)..

Eunice turned up at last and we bought a ring each and engraved our names in short and (after much deliberation) the letters "BF" which stand for best friends(for me and sitong) and buddies forever (for all 4 of us)... Can also stand for other stuff. We thought it would be cool to put BF since if our friends saw the engraved letters they would thought we had boyfriend, which would be nice but sadly wasn't true. Yea. Heh. Then sth happened and sitong went all stony as usual so we decided to go home (lost Irene and Joan on the way liao)

Today had ITC meeting.. Quite funny la huh. Heh. First time meeting without the seniors. Feels odd. Feels odd not being part of exco and listening in, I felt like an intruder. Heh. Anyways, then went to kap for lunch.. Watched Yichuen play FF8.. yea. Then took bus home.

That's about it! Heh. I'm now working on a new layout now.. For Soliloquy I suppose.. And I desperately need to update s-e.org.. So yeps.. Will be pretty busy for awhile. A03 people, can anyone kindly remind me what homework there is and any tests comin up? Thanks muchos.

Will leave you with these lyrics, which till the end of the first chorus completely sum up how I feel:D

I wonder where you were
I wonder what your thinking about tonight
I wonder

Maybe your alone
Maybe you've been crying just like me
I wonder

I don't know why I lost your touch
Maybe I wanted to be loved too much

Too serious, too soon I wanted you to love me
I wanted to be there for you like no one else before
Too serious, too soon I wanted you to love me
It's been a rainy afternoon
Now I'm staring at the moon
Thinking we got too serious, too soon

I told you every day
I told you every night in every way
I love you

Maybe you got scared
Maybe I have nothing else to say
But I love you

So baby now my life's a mess
Cause I couldn't love you any less

Too serious, too soon I wanted you to love me
I wanted to be there for you like no one else before
Too serious, too soon I wanted you to love me
It's been a rainy afternoon
Now I'm Staring at the moon
Thinking we got too serious, too soon

It's not right It's not fair
It's in you baby cuts like a knife
What if you were the love of my life

Too serious, too soon I wanted you to love me
I wanted to be there for you like no one else before
Too serious, too soon I wanted you to love me
We got too serious to soon
I wanted to be there for you like no one else before
too serious too soon
I wanted you too love me
It's been a rainy afternoon
Now I'm Staring at the moon
Thinking we got too serious, too soon
"Too Serious Too Soon" -- Gareth Gates

Ciao all!

girl all the bad guys want

2004-08-04T16:14:00.000+08:00

hahaha that song's in my head now:D Anyways... Just finished teaching HTML to the Taiwan people. Was quite ok la... Some people had attitude problem but.. Anyways. Yap feel happy:D Heh. Now in bytz waiting for the exco handover to take place. But it doesn't concern me! Whee. squee. Heh.

Yap. See you guys later then. MISS YOU GUYS SITONG EUNICE AND MICH! :D

poetic lessons

2004-08-03T12:36:00.000+08:00

spent the past few lessons writing poems. Now in bytz making course outline. Heh. Will show you the poems later. GTG. what the hell

[edit at 1512hrs] hey i'm back! Haha. Back purposedly to blog! :D be happy. Just came back from econs tutorial, which was hopelessly and mundanely boring... I almost fell asleep and with real determination I managed to stay awake, but I was completely NOT listening. Die le.. Dunno how I'm gonna continue passing econs.

Anyways, here are the poems as mentioned above (in order of when I wrote, starting frm first):

For You
Across my dreams you lightly flutter
Not a trace you left behind
Yet my heart you stomped upon
Now you're always on my mind

Pretty lights that brighten the dark
Are, in your wake, fires raging hot
Dank, cold and sad, my heart
Is now submissive to your wrath

Do with my heart what you will
It has no the strength to refuse
But if one day you embrace my love
Pinch me thrice so i know it's real.

Hairy Armpits
Please bear in mind the title!

In a champion's moment he raised his arms
Black forest we saw
On the bus clinging for support
Long black hairs peek out
Swimming the freestyle in the pool
Bushes from the side view
He wore a singlet the other day
Hair like clumps of hay
The old man sitting at the roadside
Balding underarm
And the boy who just hit puberty
One sole hair stands up

aaand...

Shattered
It broke into pieces
The crashes reverberated
Deafening in silence
Yet no one ever heard

Gather them together
Pick up all the parts
Give me the strength I need
To mend my broken heart

No glue is strong enough to
Make it stick firmly, thoroughly
The wholeness on the surface
Is a shell for the hollow beneath.

The second one and third ones are weird... But I like the first one:D Heh.

Anyways, was wondering what i wanted to blog about then realised there was loads... So I shall begin with Saturday.. I find myself endlessly repeating what happened during this weekend la.. Coz I've been trying to blog at home on my that laptop... So i've been talking about the weekend over and over again. I'm not gonna say much now.. Went to Ngee Ann Poly to support the NJ team for the competition... Then went back to school to pee, talk a bit to miss tan, meet up with seniors then went hc together for carnival.

The carnival was an interesting affair. Met a lot of familiar faces and people.. Cool! Haha. Yeps. Surprisingly Lisa greeted me, so that's nice. I mean, I thought my reputation wasn't that good. I mean, it isn't, but well..

Anyways, then Sunday right, in the morning went to KAP to rehearse the skit for Monday. It was quite ok la.. Just very sian and dead. Yap. Then after that took 67 in the hopes of reaching newton mrt and getting on a train to city hall mrt station. But then... Didn't know that 67 does NOT go to newton mrt, and ended up going all the way past little India, past lavender.. I finally realised I was really pretty lost when I saw the Kallang river. Luckily went there for the track and field meet.. If not I would have thought that might have been a giant canal. Yah. So got off at kallang mrt hurriedly and then boarded a train THAT WENT IN THE WRONG DIRECTION. I kinda freaked out when I heard that the next stop was aljunied. I was like.. "hUH??!!" big big shock. Then got out and changed train so finally made it to city hall safe and sound

Then met shing and walked down citylink towards suntec. Saw alvin getting his hair cut in qb cut and were thereupon informed that the event was going to start at 1145... It was then 1050 thereabouts. We thought we had to be there by 11. Yap. So went walking around.. Yea. Then met qm and dom and can't remember who.. Then went for "lunch-thing" where everyone sat around and watched Dom eat. Supposed to meet the other bunch of njitclubbers, but they left before we reached the food court, so... Yup. I couldn't resist the temptation so I hopped over to Olio bites and grabbed a single scoop of Rum&Raisin icecream! Heh.

Then the stuff started and boy was it torturous. The emcees really sucked and the coordination and organization of the whole event simply sucked BIG TIME. Yeps. Then after everything ended (there were many breaks in between while the horny bitches of ITC had loads of fun gossipping., giggling, cackling, sucking and joking around. Haha. Yeps. Then we went off to eat (the whole event took 5+hrs, so don't go calling us pigs) and walk around and stuff. Ended up in arcade and had quite a helluva fun time... Lecherous qm spotting the most ludicrous differences (resulting in him touching the screen RIGHT IN THE MIDDLE OF THE BOOBS OF THE GIRL IN THE PIC) hahaha. Hahaha.

Left after arcade.. Walked really slowly back to MRT, stopping by at some shops like MPH and i think some clothes shops. Took train to Newton and with some brilliant direction giving by yichuen and qm.. I managed to make a left turn and take the bus from the correct side. Though I got a call halfway through telling me to turn right. -_-. Then got scolded damn badly by parents. Had pizza dinner at Sanyi's house. Yup. So that was Sunday.

On Monday it was declared to be a halfday. In the morning, rehearsed the skit again. Yup. So the whole day basically was cool. The skit was cool I remember hearing loads of people cheering for us. Aqua really showed true house spirit la. Haha:D I enjoyed the whole fiasco. :D.

Then went out with sherry, val, shu-en xuemei and fangwei to take bus. Xuemei was going home, the rest of us going out. Had lunch in LJS then shu-en and fangwei left. Me val and sherry watched Connie and Carla and really, it was an awesome movie. Moving, touching hilarious and yet sensitive, it really was a DAMN GOOD movie:D Go watch it! Heh. Then went home and had church. Father Yeo talked about the Bible. I read the Bible for the first time in my life yesterday and it was awesome:D I think the Bible is really damn interesting. :D

Ok ok my pee is really coming out now.. So that'll be all for now! :D

hoo!

2004-07-31T17:49:00.000+08:00

heh. Back from the hc carnival. Have to go though.. BRB

hai

2004-07-29T22:34:00.000+08:00

came back frm dinner at glutton square. Dunno why my father got this notion in his mind to go out to glutton square for dinner. AFTER IT JUST RAINED. like wth the whole place was soaking wet, there were leaves everywhere, the tables and chairs were grimy and disgusting. But well.. cool dinner. The food was good, but the sugar cane juice tasted odd, like as if it had soap in it. Haha!

After dinner, went to walk around a bit in John Little's... Not very nice to shop with my mother.. she can be damn embarassing la. Hai. Haha

Anyways, started the mesc blog. Haha. so fun. Can't wait for tml.. Free periods all the way.. Only going to school for like, maths and econs.:D

Ok will go now.. Not feeling all too right.

my declaration of independence

2004-07-29T15:12:00.000+08:00

heh! the title is from the ROCKIN song "Single" by Natasha Bedingfield. I wanna scream it out! Haha

This is my current single status
My declaration of independence
There's no way I'm trading places
etc..

Heh. Dunno the rest of the song ish. Anyways, something to show you guys:
You're the super-slacker!!
Homework?
What's that? Studying? Not in your vocabulary.
You hardly study and almost never do your work
and yet, by some divine intervention, you're
still surviving. And you come to school so
un-often, your teachers have pratically
forgotten that you even exist. Go, you slacker,
you!!

Lol. Too bad. it's in my blood yea. Hmm. today was bearable... Can't wait for the week to be over though. Henry JUST told us that the fashion design is due TOMORROW. and the script for the skit thing is like DUE TOMORROW too la.. So have to meet those people online at 9 tonight:( Heh. Ok. Bb all then

whee

2004-07-28T21:54:00.000+08:00

today was a cool day. civics. Horror of horrors, we were talked to by thenew vp about our results, then went back to receive our progress reports.funnily, my results are E, E 08 and 07.. And I'm around the bottom few percentilefor the a level subjects. B3 for GP put me at the top one percent for the level. It made me happy lol.

Then lit was crappy, because so little people turned up for lesson so.. yea. We wanted her to cancel lesson, but well. She flatly refused. But we ended up having a pseudo-gossip lesson. Then it was break, then history and gp. Both went pretty ok. Normal routine. Then lit lecture, which I wanted to pon, but in the end turned up for it. Miss Teo took attendace wtf. Heh. Heng arh i turned up. I think she'll discover that a whole bunch of people managed to get menstrual cramps at the same time man. Yea. Before Lit, went to Bytz to pass my stuff to bloody qm (for him to pass to the RGPS girls) ..

Then after that went to gather at parade square. Made mad rush for bus. Haha. Our class is damn funny la:D Then reached there, then the sngs people cheering like mad.. Blah blah. Met michelle, exchanged letters. SC disappointed me though. Won't go into details. Overall NJ did well. A div champs YAY. Heh.

Then left before prize presentation to have "dinner" with Mich at some zi cha hawker centre near Kallang MRT. Had shap jeng hor fun and orh jin. Yah. (Those are my pseudo-phonetics for cantonese words) Yea. And otah too! Haha. Before that, had little dilemma about whether to go with Val or Mich. Yea.

Then bloody qm played stupid trick on me. :( Hahaha. But now he owes me a dinner treat. Yay. Seeing as I'm left with $0 for the week, I need to squeeze as many people as I can:D

Then met val at mrt and stopped clementi for quick bite (for her) and walked around. MRT stank of guys' bo.. Haha. Yea. Then after tt she took bus home and I took the train. Yeps.

Then had dinner at home. Smallish one. Yah. Haha. Can't type much now coz not supposed to be using computer! Gtg see ya all *muacks all*

oh yahh.. hehe

2004-07-27T20:26:00.000+08:00

Power Rangers Movie!

What movie Do you Belong in?(many different outcomes!)
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FROZEN QUEEN/ KINGYou dont want love to come through to you. You like
it the way you are. To be unreachable, no need
to show feelings. Hiding everything inside you.
You are already used to it. You say yourself
that you dont need anyone, that you stand on
your own two feet or that you dont have time
for these things. But in reality you are scared
to get hurt. You feel save where you are: by
yourself, nobody can hurt you there. You
invent your own relationship in your dreams.
You just need to know that you COULD get a
partner.

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So cool right. Haha
Anyways...

MICHELLE I LOVE YA and SITONG and EUNICE I LOVE YOU GUYS ALL!

The reason I didn't mention you guys in my prev post is because you guys are already like, part of me, so it'd be weird to say I love you to myself right? I mean, you guys know I love you with all my heart so saying it out would be redundant. But in case you didn't know, YESH I LOVE YOU GUYS :D:D *muacks muacks muacks* Haha.

I'm feeling all the much more better now. After blogging just now, walked down the stairs to the grandstand in anticipation of walking out of the school gate when I realised I didn't have coins with me, and seeing as I needed to take a bus but I didn't have money in my ez card.. Yea. So went back up. Saw xm and terrorized her a bit then we took bus down together. Was damn funny laughing all the way in the bus. The people must think I'm a lunatic. Heh!

Anyways HEH! See the restricted code on my blog? Yea. Did this quiz thing. My blog's too vulgar for innocent young eyes so if you're below 16 and are currently unaccompanied by a parent, WHAT IN THE NAME OF THE WORLD"S MOST ALMIGHTY LORD ARE YOU DOING HERE? (note the absence of profanity in that sentence:D) So funny haha.

Anyways. Will be going for the bloody track meet tml. Wtf. Will have to miss the last session with the RGPS girls. *cue melodramatic violin-played music* SORBS! Heh. Will miss having them around in bytz. hhaaha. They created a lot of liveliness I'd never before seen in NJ, not to mention ITClub. Heh. But, as I'd already said in my prev few entries... NJITClub is really rockin the house down. Don't ask me why. Perhaps it's the mixture of cool funky people.

Hahah ok maybe I wouldn't go as far as to say they're cool funky people, but they're fun to be with, funny, erm.. Hmm. I'm just enjoying myself more and more. Of course, it doesn't take much to amuse me, but hey, at least I'm having a good time.

Oh and I think you guys can guess by now that I'm having mood swings. Yea. Hahaha wonder what's happening man. I don't care. As long as I can stay in this high that I'm in right now, I'm hippy hoppy happy about it:D Heh.

Yea. Gtg do GP homework and Econs homework soon. Yea and history tutorial due this Fri. *horror of horrors!* heh. See you guys soon I think I'll prolly up again very evry soon :D

something about you

2004-07-27T15:16:00.000+08:00

hmm. the title is actually taken out from part of a sentence in a song that's like, in my head. Y'know the song that goes : "Baby there's something about you girl.." etc.. Yea. It's very nice. Oh fuck I can't type properly now. Dunno what's wrong. Too pissed la i suppose

I got dissed by my econs teacher la, like wtf. She's really such a nice teacher yes. Hai. It's like, I asked her how to answer a question in class and she was like, "It's too easy", then later when another person asked it, she took time to explain it la like WTF what has she got against me MAN. Wtf. She's such a nice teacher, so sweet and caring.. I'm surprised there isn't a trail of mentally devastated students in her path la. Like wth. Hai.

Anyways. Enough about the shitty stuff. Later gonna meet sitong to catch up on stuffs. Ya so now at bytz killing time, coz she's gonna finish only at 4.10 so i need only leave nj at about 350 sth. Erm yea. Then the skit stuff is going on. Dunno la.. Feeling quite disoriented now.. Prolly will update properly later. In the meantime, asta la vista, guys!

[edit]Ok. Remembered what I wanted to update about... Last night spoke to darling reenanananana on the phone. Heh. So sweet reena. I didn't know you read my blog. Don't be my silent supporter! Be my loud vivacious supporter! Heh. Yahh. And what else? Oh ya. Peishan's blog is absolutely useless lor. I read it and i find it's like, WAH LIAO PEISHAN you waste my time and breath begging the url from you lor. Cannot view prev entries, then almost every entry only has one cyptic sentence. Like ahaha damn wth lor. Haiyo. Ok ok gtg la. See you guys soon. Love you load, people who read my blog esp REENANANANA and Val and Shumina etc. If you want me to thank you right, tag my board la. But if not, i still love you guys loads:D [/edit]

kenna saboed...

2004-07-26T12:40:00.000+08:00

hai.. hopes of ending school today at 1.20pm were dashed.. poured down the drain... We got news that History was cancelled today, leaving us with a helluva long period of free time today from the end of contact time till the beginning of econs, (from 1220 to 3pm.wtf) Miss Stacy Tan totally refused to let us have our lesson earlier la.. Hai. S'pose she's in a bad mood. Heh

Anyways. So sad. Now gonna have tonnes of free period. Bleahhh. Then have to go and do the bloody econs drq. Hai. Then just now for contact, genna saboed by class to represent aqua for some NDP skit thingy. It's like, they were screaming CHERLYNNN... and I was like, "Who's that? Who're they calling for?" Hahaha. Damn, couldn't get away with it though, coz they people on my left and right(shumin and val.. BITCHES! Heh) were like tapping my shoulder... Laughikng their a**es off. Like wtf. Haha. So yups. Kenna saboed. Dang. But can't say I'm too surprised ish.

And then just now, we were let off early for GP since there was a lecture stuff.. Then yea. Val banged into Wendy, spilling milo all over the place, and I shouted quite loudly and slowly "OH MY F**K*NG GO*" . Mann.. A bit too loud yes. But God, I'm sorry to have called out Your name in vain, especially with a vulgar expletive adjective behind. Sorry. :( So anyways, today looks like its gonna be a damn damn slack day la. :( Haha. Hai. Tomorrow gotta meet for the skit thing. Thanks a lot lor people. Haiz. And it's supposed to be presented next Monday. Wow. So much advance notice right. Thanks lor. :(

Hahaha i dunno why I'm putting so many sad faces. I'm feeling quite happy la actually. Hahaha. Yups tata all ciaos!

mania!

2004-07-25T15:39:00.000+08:00

woke up at 2pm today hahaha. Just had my pseudo-breakfast-lunch thingy which was this semi-dried prawn noodles thing with too much soup on the side. Bleah. Thinking of it makes me wanna puke. I wonder how i managed to swallow so much of it anyway. Heh. And yea. Woke up to find my whole family trying to dye their hair dark brown. My parents because they want to cover up their white hair, and my brother because his school wants him to dye it dark brown instead of the ultra-light-reddish brown it was. Lol. I thought I woke up in an alternate universe, really. Haha!

Anyways, yesterday was the last day of the ghz competition. Haha. The logic programming round yesterday was.. Hahaha. Cool, but I don't think I'll mention much about it, coz it wasn't really THAT interesting. I was wearing my fila sports skirt, and the weather had to be so damn cold. Wth. But it was ok, because my body temperature became an unnatural high. Yea. Then after the logic programming round and the "debrief" speech, we had our wonderfully sumptuous buffet lunch where we njcians sat at the corner together. Then we took photos and then left ntu.

So me jenn and shin were going to the arcade at JP to play timecrisisII and whatever we could play, while the others were still quite undecided. The guys were at the arcade the day before yesterday watching some people play the DDR Extreme and they were like, are you gonna play it? or sth. Haha. So at the interchange, they were still debating over where to go. And I was getting quite impatient, coz we didn't have all the time in the world, see. So I told jenn and shin and shing that we should just walk off first, and those that wanna follow us will just follow. So we walked off la.. And hahaha, as expected, some of them came strolling behind us. Haiyo. Guys are so predictable. Hahaha.

So the bunch of people that followed us were bloody qm, zhong hong, dom, wei jian and yi chuen. (yes yes, they're all guys, because apart from me, shing, shin and jenn, there was only one other girl, christabel.) Shing left to go home coz she was tired. Yah so the rest of us made for the arcade (zhong hong led the way, without realising we weren't behind him. LMAO) and stood outside watching the ddr-ers for awhile, before my itch got the better of me and I purchased a tapz card (seeing as I forgot to bring my wallet, meaning i had no tapz card with me) So me and jenn set off to play TimeCrisisII and we had quite a fun time:D When I died for the second time, shin took over then they played la. Then we walked around (the guys were still watching the ddr-ers) and I decided I wanted to play my favourite arcade game, PhotoFindIT!! Haha. Yea. So we went to one of the GamesMasters machines and played la. Then halfway through the game zhonghong appeared and then the rest of them appeared so we had a lot of help:D Haha. Very nerve-wracking, I must say, coz it became very difficult to look out for the mistakes and stuff. Hahaha. Very exciting.

Then we went of to play bishi bisha champ, (had to borrow $2 from zh to top up tapz *reminder: pay him back!*)and zh was like, wo bu hui wan ( i dunno how to play) but he turned out to be the expert la! Wth Hahahaha. It was damn funny coz you know... Bbchamp is always that funny! Hahaha. Then the others gathered around to watch and it was really very funny. You have to be there to feel the atmosphere man! Hahaha.

Then we were just going to leave when we stopped at the ddr machine and had a long debate whether or not to play. I was trying to convince them that playing one-player with 4 people, each taking one arrow, was going to be very very very fun. I mean, it usually is! Hahaha. The thing was that the machine was right at the entrance, so they were afraid to be embarassed la. Hahaha. So we finally managed to convince them and zh paid to top up shin's tapz card to play. Hahahahhaha. It was funny la. So paiseh. Again, I dunno how to describe. Just see it in your head: 4 people, each taking one arrow, playing the DDRExtreme. Hahahahhaa just the thought alone is enough to make me laugh la! Damn funny ! Hahahhahahaa

Then we went walking around JP, looking at all the shops there were... They kept getting stuck at computer games sections of whichever shops there were (itclub.. what to do) haha. But I think we spent the longest time in Toys 'R' Us. Hahaahahahah very funny la. We just went around looking at toys. Oh yah and in Kiddy Palace, zh drew this octopus thingy on the magnetic white board thing and we were like, oooh. Then I added some water and sun and clouds.. So we were like, Wah! Masterpiece. So after admiring it for awhile we walked off, then turned around to realise that some bratty kid just erased our work with a swipe of the eraser thing! Argh! We should have done what zh wanted to do: Remove the eraser thing. Hahahahah.

Then we were quite tired, so we went to Courts to sit on the sofa and rest our legs. So comfortable! But they, as usual, were so embarassed la. Hahaha. Walked around some more la.. Then decided to go home. Shin and Yi Chuen took bus while I took train back with bloody qm and zh.

Yah then after that right, went for dinner at Maude Road with my family la. Hahaha the food there is DAMN DAMN DAMN good man. Me and my brother fought for the lor mee. Haha. *funny battle scene incident* Hahaha. Yea.

Then went home and I was adamant about catching up on all the sleep i've missed the past 5 days so Yeps. Went to sleep at 10plus and woke up at 2. So shiok. Hahaha.

Okies will go now. Later have to go to some restaurant for Wei's birthday dinner. Haha. See ya all!

way beyond happy

2004-07-23T21:01:00.000+08:00

haha! you might realised i've deleted an entry that's titled I dont want to bottle it all up. Yea. Everything's over, the sky is clear! I'm happy! Hahaha. Thanks muchos to jac and shiwei for their valuable opinions:D

Anyways, didn't go to school today.. Went to NTU for Gigahertz Competition. Heh! Woke up and then stretched, which triggered off a muscle cramp. Dang. What a brilliant start to the day. Haha. Got up, got dressed after msging shingmin and then took off in a cab (which didn't take me long to hail) to NTU. Was there so damn much earlier than the rest of them, when I'd expected to be so much later than them. Wahaha. Anyways. Was feeling quite unsettled and all, coz wasn't sure whether other team members had completed our stuff. Anyways, went to LT2a after they arrived. I swear, that place gets more and more familiar as time goes by. I keep going there nowadays! Haha. So then, went to LT2A and registered before entering the lt. We had this short briefing thing after being split into groups ( like, voyagers, explorers and something else.) of different competing schools/instituitions. So I was in voyagers. Ya. Then we realised that our program wasn't even done and none of the basic functions were implemented yet! So i was freaking stressed out and stuff. Then we got our shirts for the competition, which we're supposed to wear tomorrow. Anyways. So we got our stuff for the competition, like user id and details and stuff. Then we set off for our first round, the Technology round, where we present our program to the judges.

Like wtf we were the first group supposed to present! So we were like, omg... Then we were rushed into the presentation, so like yea. I just presented. But it was really sad the part when one of the judges said: "So can I see your Copy/Paste function?" and I was like, "Erm sorry we haven't implemented that yet""
Judge: Ok, how about your Move Files function?
Me: That part is still under construction
Judge: Can you delete files?
Me: Eh, *clicks a file in program and hits del key. nothing happens* erm. There's a bug
Judge: How about memory space?
Me: Still developing. *sheepish smile*

But hahaha it was really a traumatic experience, though when i described it to the other members of itclub later, they laughed their hearts out. like wow thanks. Hahahah. That was ridiculous. So yea. Traumatic. Anyways, had to vote for some digital photography thing, then we went for lunch. Me and shing had duck rice, while yuh shin went on and on about wanting to do homework (there's a true njcian for ya) haha. Yea. Then after lunch, went back to LT2A to collect our goodie bags. Like wth they gave us like, magazines in the goodie bag, comprising of FHM, NEWMAN and stuff like tt. Of course, there was PC Advisor and HWM (Hardware Magazine), but i mean.. c'mon... FHM??? You've got to be kidding.

Hahaha. Then went back to the lab place for the quiz round. Was a really FUN FUN FUN FUNNY AND FUN AND MAD AND CRAZY BOMBASTIC HILARIOUS ABSOLUTELY BEDLAMATIC ASYLUMATIC EVENT!!! Wahahahahahahah It was really really really really awesome man. Damn funny. We were like. Hai. Damn funny man. Hahahaha. We resorted to rubbish methods to get to the answers, like flipping a dollar coin (which really worked!!!) and deciphering the english of the question, linking it to the options(ie, since it's about networks, then it should be interoperational. that one was correct k) Hahahaha so damn funny! I was pretty amazed at how my English deciphering method helped us get so many correct, and also how much I knew about C++(after not taking it for about half a year), and just how much I knew. Wahaha. Not a lot, but I could answer quite some questions! Yay! Of course our true saviour was Dominic, but dang! We had fun. And guess what. There was a live scoreboard being posted and our team was the ranked first for almost all of the time! But we were ousted during the last hour by the NTU team (ntu, we expect them to be the winners..) comprising of foreigners (foreign scholars, which shows u their standard eh?). So we're really quite contented with our score of 2880. (3000 is considered very very very very very very good)

hahaha it was so fun. Then after that, we went to Jurong Point to have some food and meet up with the people of the other groups (explorer, etc) . We had our "dinner" at LJS, where shin, shing and zhaoming got cheated by the LJS catch. Hint: When ordering your combo and they ask you if you want regular or large/medium, reply very assuredly, SMALL. If not they give you regular and you have to pay an extra 30C on top of the price of the meal. Yea. But of course, if you want a larger cup, then order regular or large la. Haha. Then shin took so long to eat, so me and shing went to look around (leaving shin with the guys... Haha), especially at shoes. I just want to say that I think Strappy Stilettos ROCK!! Hahaha. Yea I was trying on strappy heels. Hahaha nice man:D Can't wait to go shopping again! MICH! hint hint. Haha

Then took train back together. Had a nice chat with the seniors la. Haha.

On hindsight, without the disappointment of not being on the ex-co burdening me, itclub is really a funky place to be. The people are nice and helpful, friendly, certain people are really damn funny (bloody qm[zongyao], zhonghong[who put "cut nails" as a reminder in his phone's calendar], yi chuen [who makes lame but really funny jokes], mingwei [who's lame, period.]) yea. So nice. I just wanna tell you guys at NJITC that i really appreciate all of you. You guys rock and NJCITClub is the absolute funkiest around! We rock the world!!! Hahahahahhahahahahaha *big big big muaacks* Hahahaha. I mean it. When we turned up at NTU, we were the most bonded ITClub members there. Hahaha. So cool right? I mean, some of them really are nerds la, but they're nice nerds, funky nerds, really fun to be with nerds. I'm really enjoying ITClub and even though the opportunity for leadership ceases to exist anymore(that's my sore point), i'm gonna enjoy my days in NJITC and I'm going to start cherishing every day we're together as a club. I will definitely miss the seniors sorely when they leave, coz their knowledge is so powerful! And they're so damn nice:D *kiss kiss*

Yea. What else? Hmm. Dunno la. Hahaha but just know. I'm fine, healed. I'm over that incident. He's a mean jerk, a prig, a fucker basically. Note to all guys out there. Girls' emotions are things you shouldn't play around with. We do take things seriously. So don't mess around with our feelings ok. It's not nice. And it's immoral. Yea. Hahaha but see, I heal fast. I suppose coz the whole thing was like, so farced. Haha

PS: cousin's ex-girlfriend was also in voyager. Haha. she was so paiseh when she saw me. Haha

Gtg make the website. Nite all and NJCITCLUB ROCKS!!! And so do strappy stilettos. :D

dots and more

2004-07-22T23:22:00.000+08:00

damn tired. but anyways. i shall only be leaving the entry below for another 2 days because in awhile more I'm gonna forget about the whole incident. yesh. i have decided it was a mean prank. yups. so in a couple of hours, the situation will erase itself from my mind and I'll be happy again! yay. yup

see ya all ciao bella to all

Pretty Much Spent

2004-07-21T01:13:00.000+08:00

Yea. That's exactly how I'm feeling now.. Just about spent. Just finished the documentation for gigahertz competition (an IT competition) and minutes and preliminary conclusions and internet references and printing of everything for pw.

By the darned rottenest of lucks, we managed to get selected as the class to submit our files to MOE for the intermediate checking. Hai. This is so tiring. Anyways. Did I describe shopping? I dunno. But it was uberly fun, bought nice stuff. Nice top, nice skirt, nice hair clip.. All black! Hahaha gonna buy those killer heels I saw at paragon poa too man. Too nice to be true. Blew my bucks on the shopping trip with mich:D But happily enough, I told my dad what I spent it on and just showed him why I HAD to buy the skirt and top (coz I looked and felt so good:D) so yea.. He relented and gave me quite a lot of money back. And with the prospect of a shopping trip this Saturday with my mother (having told her what exactly I had my eyes set on), I feel really pretty good about life in general.

I've been feeling really positive about life in general recently. Embarassing events not included (like being moved to sitting in between the 2 best looking guys in class (prolly the arts stream too) for econs and falling down the stairs in LT2) . Just feeling very happy.

Church was on Monday. I'm feeling really happy I took the journey because not only have I bonded with my mother over these sessions, I've also come closer to God and I know now that He's always here for me. I can never say I'm unloved again. God loves me, Jesus loves me too and so does Mother Mary. I am so blessed. I'm feeling peace like I've never felt before. It's filled my life with joy and optimism, and light

Speaking of God, I read a book recommended by Sherry called Left Behind and boy was it good. It was about the Rapture, the day when Jesus comes back for us and it tells of what the people who were left behind do. A very very very interesting and engaging read. You should read it regardless of your religion. Please do. I'm gonna try and read the whole series. :D

Ok gtg. Eyes are closing. See you guys love y'all

Heh heh heh. ITCLUB

2004-07-19T17:44:00.000+08:00

My nick on msn right now: <> Hee. I'm feeling really rather optimistic about ITClub now coz it's really becoming more and more fun. I suppose when you can talk to people in your cca, stuff just becomes more fun! Hahahah yeap.

note to self: dominic_sim@hotmail.com, evozong@hotmail.com mark_ooi@hotmail.com jennifer and mingwei

Yups that's it for now.. My father gonna fetch me soon. tata!

Today. DONOTSWEAR

2004-07-16T21:45:00.000+08:00

Heh. Hello people! Hahaha today, a Friday. On Monday at Church, Sister Genevieve said that a way to pay penance was to refrain from doing something I always do that is bad on Fridays, since it is the Day that Jesus died for us. So i decided that today I wasnt gonna swear so much. And trust me, it was difficult. God tested me I'm sure about that, because I poured Milo all over myself and had some really infuriating times when i really couldn't help but spout obscenities. But i refrained and kept them to a bare minimum:D Heh

Went to KAP with Val today after PE since Lit was cancelled and we pushed PE an hour earlier. So yea. Had a great time during pe playing Cap's ball. Fun fun fun hahaha. Then at KAP, ate our hearts out then went to Cold Storage to walk.. Saw stuff that I was definitely going to buy for our house when we move out and live together. Us being me, mich, sitong and eu. LOL. And yea, me and Val *ahem* gossiped about *ahem* certain *ahem* very *ahem* good looking (in *ahem* certain ways) *ahem* guys in our class *cough cough cough* Wahahahaha. More like, *ahem* a certain *ahemahemahem* guy. Wahaha. No la. It's just somebody who has *ahem* a nice body. Hahahahaha. Don't worry man. I don't like him. Any of the people who knows my class probably know who I'm talking about la. Wahaha. You really have to agree lor.

Anyways. What else happened? OHHH! ITClub. Hahaha actually, itclub really rocks la. I was too harsh on them. It was like, an asylum on Wed. These RGPS girls came over for a Flash course and it was like, SO FUNNY! Wahahahah. The girls are really friendly and cute. My maternal instincts got a great big kick and I've decided I'm gonna adopt some kids in the future. Hahahaha. No in case you haven't realised, I don't intend to give birth. Not since that horrendously hideously terrifying bio video on Childbirth we watched in Sec3 or Sec4.

Anyways. It was utter bedlam in ITClub. Really very fun. I've never had so much fun in ITClub before!! Hahaha. Yah.

Hmm what else.. Ok.. Thursday, went to J8 to meet Mich and Sitong. Actually, me and mich met at the CJC bus stop first la. Hahhaa. Then met sitong at the j8 at the overhead bridge. Hahaha. Went pastamania to eat and chat. Was awesome. Really miss talking to them. BTW Mich if you're reading this, Sunday okay:D:D Lets hit the town man. I wanna go Borders. SHOP TILL I DROP THIS SUNDAY MANNN. Hahaha

Ehh.. Hmm. What else? I wanna watch Mean Girls and King Arthur and Ella Enchanted and 13 going on 30! Ehh...

Yups. Gtg then. Dunno what else happened. Suffering from temporal memory loss. OH WAIT! Hahaha

CT RESULTS:

GP: 69% It placed me 4th in the level for GP. Shows you how high NJ standard is eh?
Econs: E I passed!!!! AHHH!!
Maths: O8 Erm. That's like around average for the Arts stream. So i'm also quite happy!

Hahahhaa. Considering I did no homework throughout the year plus didn't listen in lectures plus didn't study for CT. I'm really ecstatic. Hahaha

V happy ok ok will go now Love you guys!

WOW

2004-07-13T22:58:00.000+08:00

MUCHOS MUCHOS THANKS TO EDMUND!!!

Hahaha thanks dude. You saved my computer and my life la. Thanks. Anyways people. Life has been horrible. My computer turned on me la. Haha yea. Anyways, got a lot to tell you guys but no time. Just a note MELIA I've ordered one for you already! Dunno how much it's gonna be but I'm sure the size should be ok for you:D Did you guys know that SC's gonna have a new petshirt? Yea! That's not fair! Hahaha ok ok gtg now. PW. See you guys! :D

PS Please go to http://spankyfacade.com/pwsurvey.html to help to a survey if you're from 10-25 years of age:D

sigh...

2004-07-07T23:11:00.000+08:00

I was really pretty disappointed today la. If you've been in touch with me lately, you''ll know what's bugging me. And I'm just so tired now and they (the authorities) wanna repeat the whole weary process. It's taking so much out of me to remain happy and smiley now. I don't want to carry on with this facade and pretend that I'm not disappointed with the way things turned out. I am. Disappointed and upset. But when at last I've managed to come to terms with the outcome, a turn of events presents me with the chance to change the way things are but. I'm really not sure if I want to go ahead with it. I'm tired. Let me rest. Please.

Anyways. Been discussing CT answers lately in lessons. Apart from Maths la. And History keeps getting cancelled so that's always a minor cause for celebration. I'm so tired. I can't update the Escape theme park happenings now. Just haven't got the strength. Had a fruitful and fun pw meeting (pw was cancelled, our group initiated our own meeting) that immediately preceeded the horrendous ordeal that has sapped the strength out of me. Hai. Upon reflection it was probably me that was the cause of it all. Maybe i came across too cocky for my own good.

It makes me miss SC so much, where my friends love me for who I am, teachers recognise me for the potential I have to LEAD. I mean, it's so deja vu... The incident during Sec 3 (eunice and melia and julianne, remember?) when the new heads were to be announced and Debbie the new bird was appointed head of English Cat and Melia remained as head of Editorial Comm. It was so shocking coz I think we were expecting Melia to be head of Eng Com and me to be head of Editorial Comm. But it happened and so I had to bear with it. And I did for a whole year, during which I enjoyed myself of course, because Melia basically is a fantabulous head. Then the next year came and everything repeated itself. She Fong, SEC 3, was to be named as the new head of Eng Cat Comm and Deb as the Editorial Comm head (Mel as head of pub com and overall head). This caused a considerable amount of uproar because by this time almost everyone in my committee was expecting me to take that post. I don't know what happened but I suppose Mrs Low and Miss Lee had a nice chat with Miss Ma (who I think really hates me) and finally sometime after that I was named as the new head of the Editorial Comm.

It's such a case of deja vu. Why does this keep happening to me? I'm sure God will let me know someday. I'm tired of such things happening to me. Sick and tired and weary and dreary. When will I find something that will be fair to me?? What especially irritates me in this whole incident is..... Argh nvm I'd rather bottle it up then tell you guys everything and have everyone shooting dagger looks at me or sth, seeing as bytz ain't a safe place and there are people i know who will read this. I'm just so.. Sapped.

Though of course I know i haven't proven myself in NJ yet. I've only proven myself in SC and YJ and Music Os... Organizing all those bloody events, coordinating stuff. But how am I supposed to prove myself when I'm not even given the opportunity to? Fuck why is this tear rolling down my face. Fuck it. I mean like what the hell. I hope my parents finally know how they've utterly and completely destroyed my life by making me come to some place where I can't express myself freely, where I can't take computing, where I can't develop to my fullest potential. Why can't I turn back time?

Tell me have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wish you had a chance to say I'm sorry
Can't you see that's the way I feel about you and me baby
ave you ever felt your heart is breaking
Looking down the road you should be taking
I should know. Coz I loved and lost the day I let you go.

Sometimes people don't know how much some things mean to me. My current cca means so much to me but. Fuck it. I always start out hating my cca but then loving it with all my heart and soul in the end. You would doubt my love for the library. But the very fact that i stayed on during my Sec 3 year (the debbieheadness incident) and suffering the indignity of it all is something. I wouldn't have done that if i didn't love library. Similarly, I wouldn't have given up the ROCKING AND ABSOLUTELY AWESOME CCA debate for my current cca if I didn't feel a certain vast and immense amount of love for it. But noooooooo. They can't see it. Fuck. I wish I hadn't lost my testimonial.

At least back in SC teachers recognised my effort. Miss Lee with her little gift, Mrs Low with her note and big present. And my juniors, my darling juniors, sent me those really nice msgs and threw me a wonderful farewell party (only person in library to get a farewell party) in the midst of the exams. All of this. Fuck why the fuck am I crying now. Fuck. STOP. God I miss SC so bloody much. It's so overpowering. Overwhelming. Engulfing me. Always an SCGirl is what I am. I felt truly at home, so comfortable so loved so UNLIKE NOW. I really hate the situation I'm in now. Even when I was in yj I enjoyed myself more. There were people in yj who rocked (not that there aren't any in nj) and the teachers rocked (not that those in nj don't). The environment is so...... Different. damn. Keyboard getting flooded.

Glad that I live am I,
That the sky is blue.
Glad for the country lanes,
And the fall of dew.

After the sun the rain,
After the rain the sun.
This is the way of life
Till the work be done

All that we need to do
Be we low or high.
Is to see that we grow nearer the sky.

SC, I'm forever yours.

best times of my life

2004-07-05T18:24:00.000+08:00

Aloha all! I just had a refreshing scrub with loads of dettol coz I feel really damn dirty some disgusting shit was all over me. Don't worry... I know what you're thinking.. Heh heh heh. I didn't do THAT. I'm not ready! *blushes:D* Hahaha duhh. I just came back from a really fun day at Escape theme park with mich tong and eu. Hahaha was helluva fun mann. I tried so many things I wouldn't have if not for eunice wanting to try them. In fact, i still feel as if I'm on one of the rides now. Let me elaborate. Heh

So first, we met at Pasir Ris mrt. My father very kindly sent me there after we had breakfast together. (I swear, my father can be the nicest man around) When I arrived at the MRT station, I met sitong and eunice. Hahaha so chio arh that LST. Hahahaa. Then we had to wait for Michelle, who was late, AGAIN. I suppose I'd have been late too if my father hadn't fetched me, but wth. Haha. Anyways, after meeting we took the bus down to ETP(escape theme park) and went in after paying. (before that I returned eu her $9, something I will talk about later.) Anyways, yea.. Upon going in, they (sitong and mich) were talking about all the rides that they wanted to take again, having been at etp before. But me and eunice hadn't, so we contented ourselves with looking around. I was really scared, coz I had this weird phobia of roller coasters and plunging rides. Actually, I didn't really have a phobia, it's just I get kinda scared when I haven't taken it for a long time:D Anyways, we started off with a warm up thingy -- The Family Roller Coaster, which was really mild and actually quite fun. It was so not scary, but we screamed our heads off anyways. Then we decided to try the Viking, coz we needed something to just help with getting into the plunging mood so yea, we took the viking. It was my first time on a viking, i must tell ya, because I never dared to before. I must tell you. THE VIKING WAS OMG SO SO SO... Well, just know that halfway through it my stomach was threatening to come out of my mouth, eunice's heart almost came out her a**hole, michelle almost fainted and sitong was at a loss for words. What a "warm-up" eh? But predictably, we screamed our lungs out and had fun together.:D

Then they decided they wanted to take the Wet and Wild ride, which was like, OMG towering over me and I was like, NO NO NO NO I don't want! Hahaha but in the end me and michelle went in one boat, and the other two in the one behind us. It was really scary, the first time. Mich started to rock the boat and I panicked, haha. Then as we climbed up the first slope we screamed and WHOOSH. Then the second one, mich screamed all the way up and I screamed right at the top and all the way down. Wahaha. I got like, drenched damn bad coz I didn't bend down at the right time and I think i might have swallowed a lot of water, but anyways. So after that, I was feeling quite fuelled (drenched to the skin and underpants by some really stinky liquid). (*flashback to time right after second plunge(the long one)* mich, this is damn fun!*end flashback) Hahaha yea, and they were quite happy too so we decided to go for another round. This was easy coz it was rather early in the morning, about 10 and so yea, we didn't have to queue much. So this time, i took with eunice(who sat in front) and sitong with mich(infront)yea then we went for our second ride. It was really some great fun because all we did was scream and scream even though we were not scared:D I have to say, I was feeling quite relaxed the second time around :D So anyways, after the second plunge this time, i had really got damn drenched by the bloody water, coz I bent down and then thought the coast was clear so I lifted my head and got a faceful of that murky liquid shit. Me and eunice started spitting and eunice was laughing coz it's like, i had this damn pissed look on my face for getting wet. Then eunice said she thought she had some water in her mouth and she spat this humongous glob of saliva into the river, which slid off the side of the boat. So, note to future Wet n Wild riders, do not touch the outside of the boat and try not to swallow the water. Yea.

So then we went to the toilet to dry ourselves (after retrieving our stuff from the money-eating lockers) and eunice and sitong changed into their dry clothes while I believed i could dry off. Plus, the other shirt I brought was bright red and it didn't match any of the shorts i brought so....... Yea... hahah. So after the wet n wild we decided we wanted to go to the Alpha 8, which mich and tong took when they were in sec 2 with their class 2/6 la.. And from what they told me, it'd be something reminiscent of Space Mountain in Disneyland, on which I had a great time, so I thought, alrighty then let's go for it, and put all my fears about roller coasters aside. I am telling you. It was DAMN HELLUVA FUN!!!!!!!! Sitting at the front of the "carriage" thingy was more fun because half the time me and mich were falling off, especially when we were turning round corners, and we gripped the handlebar till our hands blistered. And the plunges in the Alpha 8 thing were good coz we actually felt our bums leave our seats for about 2 seconds. It was so awesome that we took it thrice man. Hahahahahhaa we went mad at that one:D

Then after that we left the park awhile for lunch at the bk at the downtown east plaza or sth like that. Yea. Just.... Lunched. Then eunice and sitong went back first la coz eunice wanted to take some weird spinning ride which everyone was too afraid to take and sitong offered to accompany her, so me and mich went walking around first. We discovered this pool area and this arcade so we thought if we got sian later we could come here and play it. Then we went to help mich shop for sunglasses because the poor girl doesn't have a single decent pair so yea.. But couldn't find oen suitable for her la.. Then went to cheers for her to buy chocolate and i bought two bottles of water (only wanted one, but the cashier said it's BUY ONE GET ONE FREE SO YOU MUSSSST TAKE) and left to go back to etp.

Sorry guys gtg for dinner now.. will continue laters.. :(

we are the brave ones!

2004-07-02T21:12:00.000+08:00

Hahahahah that title.... has a long story behind it.. I dunno if I have the time to blog about it now.. Hahahha it was awesomely funny.

Rightos I shall first talk about today. CTs are FINALLY OVER!!!!!!! CTs = Common Tests.. Yup Hahaha today's paper, (the last, for me) was History:D Yea so then after the exam, me xuemei and sherry made our way out towards the side gate which was the most direct way to the bus stop. Me and Xuemei would be taking the same bus while sherry would be taking from the same side, so.. Yea.. Then when we arrived at the gate, we realized it was like LOCKED and closed.. So we were quite put out. We thought about climbing over it, but.. well.. Hahaha we decided to look for any safer routes first. (PS it'd just rained and so everything was really slippery)So we walked along the fence looking for the legendary "hole in the fence" that we heard of, so.. we walked on and then in the end, haha, we didn't find it and so we decided to climb the bloody gate. Sherry baby was like, the brave explorer, she dumped her bag with us and climbed rather swiftly to the top of the gate, slipped around the gap between the pillar and the barbed wire, and jumped off like spidey:D After she got out, we were like, so fuelled by her success that me and xuemei were like fighting to go first, but I went first la.. So after passing our stuff to sherry outside the gate, i started climbing. The climbing wasn't too difficult. It was at the part where I had to put my feet at the top of the gate and prepare to jump that freaked me. I got up quite high, but before I'd put my feet up, I was like OMG OMG this is DAMN DAMN high la! OMG. Then with encouragement from the people below (and getting weird looks from passers-by and passengers on the various buses that were stopping) I was actually shivering, it was so scary!!!!! I really dunno what to tell you.. It was just paralysing. I stood there fearing for my life and I refused to jump so after a lot of slips and gasps and encouragement AND embarassment, I finally managed to climb over, then down (helped by a dustbin dragged over from the bus stop)and tripped down. It was really an ordeal. VERY VERY Terrifying, i tell ya. If you know me personally, then u can get the full story from me. Heh. It's really scary. Then xuemei.. Well she had a worse time than me, and that's saying something, so yea... I will not embarass her on my blog... Hahaha!

Anyways, after escaping from (prison) school, went to sc to meet sitong eunice and weechiew(who was a witness at my climbing spectacle). Got into the usual "YOU OWE ME MONEY" tiff with her. Hahahah then went to cine and I changed out of the bloody grimy uniform I was wearing into my outside clothes. Then we bought the tix for SPIDERMAN 2(no less) haha and then we went to Kbox. But KWC didn't join us. :( haha. Then we just sang and sang but there was this problem with the computer at kbox so they compensated us by giving us this lunch coupon thingy. Heh.

After a while, watched Spidey 2. IT. WAS. AWESOME. UNBELIEVABLY AWESOME. You can't believe how good it was. The few of us are going to watch it again. It really deserves a second, third and even fourth watching. Anyone wanna watch it with me? It's really really very awesome. I'm gonna make my dad by the dvd. Heh.

Yesterday my parents and I watched this XU GUAN JIE (Sam Hui, an old-time singer) concert dvd thing. Haha it was really so good, Sam Hui's songs are really meaningful and beautiful (I sang many of them today at the Kbox) hahaha.

Hmm....... what else is there? not too sure what to tell you. There's a lot.. Went to Eunice's house after coillecting my O levels cert. Yea hahaha before going to Eunice's house, we went to talk to our teacher Miss Goh and Mrs Low and then we had a really great chat. Hahahh I really miss SC so damn much. It's like, my soul is forever there. Haha then went back to library to check out and order the new Library T-shirt, of which me and sitong ordered one each. Melia! You wanna order? Tell me I help you tell Ms Lee. I know your size, unless you want something bigger or smaller than your size la ok? Yea then after going to the library and paying my respects to Ms Lee, we went to the primary school holding school to eat the Uncle's Meepok again and I tell you, it was good seeing all the hawkers again:D heh, they remembered me and the yongtaufoo auntie remembered my usual order! (maggie mee and 2 fishballs) ahahahhaha damn. Then we went to the staff room in the primary school where we talked to a lot of teachers, mainly Mrs Vi, my p6 and p5 and p4 form teacher.. She kept testing our knowledge of the teachers' names, since we used to test her if she remembered our names. Hahaha. It felt good to be talking to her again. The everyone was like, SITONG SO PRETTY NOW ARH! Hahaha funny... She was blushing by the end of it! Heh! Love really makes a person look good huh? *hint hint* hahahahaha

Lol. Hmm i can't remember what else really happened liao. So gtg. See you guys!

PS Yah you'll realise I've changed the layout of the blog. Will be making one of my own soon yesh? Hahha take care

ooops

2004-06-23T16:46:00.000+08:00

forgot to mention just now that i watched troy last night. (dvd eh? eh?;)) it was an AWESOME movie, not to mention that Brad Pitt is hot and OMG OOOOOOOOORRRRRRRLAAAAAAAAANDOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOBLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOMM IS SO F*CKING HOT HOT HOT HOT!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. OMG. damn damn damn. Heh. Yea well Eric Bana has a hot bod and well yea. I should stop obssessing. I've recently been found to stone and zone off into space, drool collecting in my mouth. Hahaha j/k.. not THAT bad heh? Hahaha. Yea. See ya babies!

precatechumenate:D

2004-06-23T16:01:00.000+08:00

hahaha guess what the title means! Hahah i'll tell you about it later. First up!

Yup, go take the quizzes, heh! Well.. erm. hmm.. so yup. The Common Tests are comin up. dot dot dot.. everyone is mugging like mad. why? arghs. it really irritates the hell out of me. anyways. yesterday, we had PW meeting in the JE library. I was amazed to realise the existence of such and such a library in JE. And such a beautiful one at that! Heh. Me and val slogged for half the day and then when jac and huilin came back from their quickie *winks*, we took flight and headed for lunch and a minor bit of shopping. then we returned (it was already what, 4plus) and decided it was time to san hui (end the meeting). so yups, then me and val pigged out at this place called emicakes where they sold really good oreo cheesecakes and crépes (you say craps, not creeps). then pigged out more when passing by eu yan seng, where the heavenly aroma of the tea-eggs made us succumb and we bought 2 (hahah but in the end I didn't eat any! hurrah!). i smash one of the eggs into smithereens accidentally.LMAO. and then OMG at vals house we visited www.myvirtualmodel.com where we made models of her and a fantasy girl. we also made a fantasy hunk and OMG OMG he was SOOOO HOT. damn. hahaha.

the day before that, it was largely uneventful, except that at night, my mom and I went for our first RCIA lesson. RCIA is the Rsomething Christian Initiation for Adults. Yea. It was really cool and I'm very excited to be start my journey:D So, now that I'm starting my journey (to find God), I am termed a precatechumenate and then after I'm accepted (sometime August) I'll be a catechumenate and so on.. Yea. Brother Emmanuel and Father Yeo are extremely humorous people and the community at the St Joseph's church is really quite nice:D The people are friendly and the whole feeling is like a family. I'm quite glad to be a part of St. Joseph's Church. :D

on Sunday, hmm.. I can't quite remember what happened. I think it was just the official opening of s-e.org... Yea. Heh. Speaking of S-E.org, I've got some hostees coming up.. If you wanna be hosted, let me know by fillin up the form on s-e.org! Yea.
Ermm... what else? i really can't quite remember the events of EVERYDAY.. i only know that Father's day was really quite uneventful. We had a dinner outside at the Crystal Jade Restaurant, and really, the prices are unreasonably exorbitant and their servings are SO small! Hai!

Anyways, before that, i think Thursday/ Friday.. Friday bah.. me and mich went out. yeps. First we went back to nj to collect my homework. Bloody hell.. The teachers are so behind time.. tell us to look in their letter trays but there's like, NOTHING inside! wth. anyways.. collected my history notes then we left. Lucky the security guard let her in, my acting was damn good:D heh. then we went to town... you can look at the details at her blog la haha here is her blog, click here. Yea. Then by a twist of fate we ended up watching Agent Cody Banks 2 (my dear michelle, it's agent cody banks 2, not agent cody 2. yups:D:D) It was a good show, really, just goes to show how critics can really suck because they give such fake reviews. The thing with critics is that, they are usually MUCH MUCH older than us, so they get bored with watching the movies that us teenagers like to watch. Also, NONE of them have actually MADE a movie before, so they really don't know and most of the time don't HAVE what it takes to make a movie, much less criticise one. It is so damn irritating they way they bring down some movies which are, in fact, really awesome. Damn them.

And anwyays, frankie muniz is hot. yea. hahahaha. well, me and mich had a great time out that day. it was fun. I miss you hon, and I'm glad you've gotten over it. Nothing should bring you down like that again ok?

Erm.. Hmm... what more is there? ohhh... there's a lot of history i haven't brought up for this hols huh. I've just been awesomely bored. So i think i will leave now and let you guys digest this :D. See ya!

Ciao darlings. A finger severed is a finger lost; a friendship severed is love lost --Cherlynn

gawd...

2004-06-18T01:45:00.000+08:00

dammit what's happening? blogger's got a change of layout AGAIN.. damn it.

Anyways, S-E.org is finally up after about 5 days of downness for revamption. Yea. Go take a look http://silence-everafter.org

Okies me is tired. Will knock off now. Tata

here again i am

2004-06-16T13:51:00.000+08:00

Hello.... Life's pretty dull lately.. Dunno what to update about.. Haha.. Just wanna tell you guys that I signed up for some cliques.. And a celebrity blog crew in the name of LEE RYAN! He's the absolutely bestest. Of course, I wanted Tom Felton but then, he's taken so.. Haha. Yeps. Anyways Lee is like, mine is most major cliques like the Marriage Clique, and a lot more la so.. Hahahaha

Been going on at the S-E.org revamping.. Now upping content. So I won't be updating much here okies. See ya all *muacks*

PS Here's a little sneak at some new content on S-E.org

Ciao bella!

Let's get loud!

2004-06-14T17:22:00.000+08:00

Yo wassup people!!! Yea.. Was looking at my tag and decided to answer the calls of the public hahaha. Yea.. Time for me to update yes? There is really a whole lot of shit i need to update about.. Hmm first up. My PW group just left my house mann. We managed to finalise the survey questions. Wanna help us out by doing the survey? Only if you're a singaporean between 10-25 years of age. Thanks! Just leave a message on the tagboard and we'll see how we can get you to do the survey! :D

Another thing is hmm.. Oh yea! Hahaha I'm spending a lot of my computer time now revamping silence-everafter.org It really looked like shit and was seriously falling into disrepair la! So yeps. I think till now only Elephant has seen the preview of what the new S-E is gonna be like. When the new S-E is launched, please go and visit ok? Hahaha yes.

Well, pre-u sem is over now and I've collected loads of CIP hours! *jumps for joy* Hahaha yea. The Sentosa one was really quite fun in anticipation but in practicality was quite sian because the teams took forever to get to our station and at the end of the whole thing 14 groups hadn't turned up so it's like we didn't get the max amount of fun we should have. Then the IT services thing was not bad.. Just help out and stuff. It was quite ok la.. Hahaha played bridge during lunch break. Enjoyable man. Then got to know some seniors better. Hahaha :D Actually, seriously, I'm really darn glad I got to know the people in IT club better. People like YUH SHIN, SHIGNMIN, MINGWEI and SHIHUI. The seniors are actually quite nice too, ZhongHong, ZongYao, Yi Xin, Qi Hui, WeiJian, and so on.. Damn IT Club is really look fun now hahahaha :D

Oh since we're talking about IT Club I might as well tell you guys about the Ex-Co Interview yes? Hahahah Here's a lowdown. My thoughts at that time are in squared brackets, actions are between aster*sks. Then I'll tell you what I thought about it all.

WeiJian: What is your name?
Me: [like they don't already know] Err.. Cherlynn.

WeiJian: Your FULL name
Me: *rolls eyes* [omg they don't want to hear this] ___ ___ ___ Cherlynn (sorry can't give out my full name here. not safe)

WeiJian: It's pronounced loh or lao?
Me: Actually it's lao la but you can say loh if you want. Just say loh la.

Alvin (the vp): *looks up from my ex-co applicaton form* Are you a foreigner arh?
Me: [whatever gave him that idea?]Noooooooooooooooo

WeiJian: *scribbles some stuff on some paper* So what post do you intend to run for?
Me: [omg i SO want to see their reactions] PRESIDEEEEENT....

WeiJian: *more scribbling* Oookayyy... Erm, use 5 adjectives to describe yourself
Me: [this is SO not ITClub] Errrrrrmmmm... funny.... erm... optimistic? errrrrrmmmm *thinks really hard* errrrmmmmm versatile..... errrrrmmmm *more thinking* errrrrr.... responsive... and errrrmmmmm errrrmmm errrrmmmm *racks brains till they are swollen* errrmm.. female? [wow Cherlynn you've outdone yourself man, at least they'll think you're funny now.]

WeiJian: *a LOT of scribbling* Okayy.. So, are you a leader or a worker?
Me: *without thinking* Leader *smiles*

WeiJian: Why?
Me: [shit, should've realised there was a WHY coming up. DAMN DAMN shouldn't have said leader shit shit.]errrrmmm errrmmmm well of course I'd work too, but i'm more a leader because ... *goes on to crap a bit* and ermm because I'm used to it, having taken on leadership roles in secondary school and in the first 3 months. I think I can be a leader because what a leader should do is bring out the best in people, identify what people are good at and put that to good use. And I think I'm good at that *smiles* [damn shouldn't have smiled. it looks egotistical] *smiles some more* [shit i can't stop smiling now, it'd be weird] *continues smiling psychotically*

WeiJian: *nods and nods and then scribbles* So, what do you think of our IP batch?
Me: [omg we have IP people? oh yea we do. I think i know of like, 4 of them? i am so dead] Erm.. actually I think they're like quite promising?[oh right cherlynn, go on this way and they will SURELY give you the job. surely.] Coz like i think i heard like they won something right? RIGHT? *looks at interviewers for assurance and confirmation* [damn can't they affirm it?] Anyways, yahhh they're quite promising la.. Erm yea.. and erm. I think some of them are quite funny [FUNNY? is that the best you can do? omg are you kidding me? you're digging your own grave, cherlynn] Yea, you know that that guy? The one wearing the Lignum house tee? *looks around* [omg you're digging deeper. you don't even know who the IP people are!] that one! Just now that one, the quite friendly one.. [oh, friendly now, are they?] the Lignum house tee one...
Alvin: Orh, na ge _________ arh.. *tells WeiJian*
Me: ya ya wearing the same house tee as you(alvin)!
Alvin: orh the solaris house one
Me: [how smart of you, LIGNUM eh? you can't even tell the difference between solaris and lignum.-______-""] Er YA YA SOLARRRRIIISSSS *spitting all over the table with excessive use of sibilants* Yah.. he was like, quite funny. And that ganesh person too! [ganesh PERSON??? you need help.]

For more on my amazingly traumatic but stupendous interview, stay tuned to the next blog entry! I swear it was a traumatic and torturous experience.

Anyways, what else is there? Oh yea camp Itac was ridiculously fun. It allowed me to bond with the other NJ ITClub members and erm we really won a lot of prizes, me and mingwei. Coz Group 5 won two prizes and Groups 8 for the webdesign competition won second place so yea.. Loads of prizes. In all it was an enriching and wholesome experience! Something I won't forget! :D

Hmm right I think I'll go now.. Special shoutouts to:
KAIWAN MEI NU -- Thanks for visiting man Haha
Sherry baby -- LOL Was that interesting enough? Love ya!
Mich DARLING -- Hey honey cheer up ok. I love you take care and don't fall sick like me.. Hahah Love ya Muaaaaacks.
Shuuuuuumin! -- OMG I CAN'T BELIEVE IT GIRL I MISS YOU hahahaha

Yups! CTests are coming up but my lazy arse is so fat and saggy that i can't get down to studying. Cheers. I'm also slowly recovering from a really really really bad sore throat that's been plaguing me for the whole week so yea. Wish me good health okies? Hahaha alrighties will go now! See you guys next time! :D

time to update:D

2004-06-06T14:32:00.000+08:00

Yeps. It's already a week into the holidays and I can tell ya I'm so darn far behind on the updating of this blog! d0tz.. Oh yea.. People let me warn ya first.. My new kou tou chan(head mouth thing.. means sth i keep saying) is d0tz or d0t d0t d0t... So I'll definitely repeat it a lot of times in my entries k?

LOL. (wtf stupid brother just came in. FUCK HIM FUCKER)
Anyways.. Yups.. so, there's a lot to catch up on.
Hey stupid brother is on the prowl.. THE FUCKER. Anyways I'll up later.. Fucker is on the prowl. FUCK THAT ASSHOLE. SUPER FUCKER FUCKING POS FUCK FUCK FUCK

Iiiiii'm BAAAACK!! I'm sure you missed me

2004-06-03T23:11:00.000+08:00

Well yeps. Back at home now! The camp was uberly-fun.. Well, not uberly but pretty much good! Won so much stuff that I'm absolutely elated:D:D I really dunno what to say. Also made friends with the people from NJCITClub like SHIN and MINGWEI and XIAOSHIHUI. Absolutely spiffing, I must say.

Will give you guys a blow by blow soon. Am tired. Only had 3 hrs of sleep ytd. So nitey nite, all!! :D:D bye:D

dooo wap a dooo.. en campe

2004-06-01T09:16:00.000+08:00

Hey. At ITaC camp now.. so bored... Doing some .NET course so it's like.. yea.. Hahahah well there's this sucker in our class ... Bleah! Anyways.. I'm fine.. I wanted to blog more.. but I feel like I've run out of juice! *gasps*

Life's good and I'm doin fine... But people I miss you all so much!!!! So SO SO much! But anyways.. Hahahaha erm let's see...TWO MORE DAYS TO POA OPENING!!!!! will someone please go with me? Hahaha yeppers... LOL...

Anyways.. Here's a poem I typed yesterday while I was bored.. :D

fire fire burn inside
the world, polluted, left to die
still the people idly play
they waste poor Mother Earth away

water water how u flow
days of revelry come and go
for the people relax all day
they do not care they will not wait

flower flower your docile beauty
charming in its fragility
but the people they do not see
they kill you and the grass and trees

mother mother will i die
oh mother tell me, please don't cry
we other creatures not human beings
try very hard to continue living
but it is impossible with what humans do
they spoil our homes and our food, oh woe
they live in ecstasy oh they with their cars and homes and
televisions and books and things they got from killing my friends
oh momma oh i am angry i hate them oh i do
but i can't do anything i just oh i have to

I know, I know.. It's awfully weird.. But I hope you see what I'm trying to convey.. The animal talking is a little panda and he's dying.. And it ends off like that coz he died before he could say anything. Check out the rhyme!! Hahaha

Okies the teacher guy just walked in.. GTG NOW

Just who I am

2004-05-27T20:34:00.000+08:00

ENFP - "Journalist". Uncanny sense of the motivations of others. Life is an exciting drama. 8.1% of total population.

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Enneagram Test Results

Type 1	Perfectionism	\|\|\|\|	13%
Type 2	Helpfulness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	66%
Type 3	Image Awareness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Type 4	Sensitivity	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	60%
Type 5	Detachment	\|\|\|\|	20%
Type 6	Anxiety	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Type 7	Adventurousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Type 8	Aggressiveness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	66%
Type 9	Calmness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%

Your Conscious-Surface type is 6w7
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Weeelll would you look at that? I'm a JOURNALIST!! Yippeee awesome! Fits in with my ambition baby.. to be a journalist! Hahaha

Well sorry I haven't been around for sooooooooooooo darn bloody long.. Had to do research and stuff.. Life's just been really busy.. I really gtg now though.. History calls and well I promise to be back ASAP with the updates ok? Cheers! :D

Hao Jiu Bu Jian! (Long time no see)

2004-05-20T15:29:00.000+08:00

Hee hey all. It's been a really long time, hasn't it? Haha yups. Well, now I'm like in bytz and the people all around are like playing little fighter. Actually I could have gone home but I feel that I can only really do some research and study when I'm in school, so yea.. Hee

Ytd was sports day in NJ. At first Aqua house was so damn lousy on the cheering, but when the cheerleaders came out right, we just cheered our lungs out. Yup. Aqua may have lost to Aerius for the sports meet, but we are the champion house for everything else. I think aqua is a really commendable house. We excel at like everything. It was an aqua team that won the inter-class debate and our sports was like 2nd to aerius so overall i'd say we're good. Aqua also won third for the cheerleading competition. On the whole, aqua rocks. Yup.

Right now I'm actually supposed to be rushing my research for the history term paper that's due tomorrow.. Mannnn.... it's tough k... My first time doing research for HISTORY.. omg... I dunno how I'm gonna do it.. Prolly gonna die halfway. Arghs. So much homework piling up. Let's make a count thingy.

1)GP Comprehension (rmb to bring gp book home)
2)History Term paper
3)History research presentation on Cold War Middle eastern theatre

That's already a lot k.. And there's still math that I don't know what is the homework exactly.. Anyways, tomorrow I'll be leaving on a cruise!!! whoopee! *does tribal dance of celebration* Can't wait.. Hahaha yups.

And erm.. Last Saturday was NJC College day.. Yups. In the days before the big day, me and wenci could often be found at her house poring over a large pot of jelly mix and trying to achieve the right consistency and making sure that there were no lumps in the mix.They(the jellies) turned out very nicely, by the way, in case you were doubting my ability to cook stuff. Then on that day itself, I offered my services to the class and found myself running around the school, up and down the f*cking horrendous stairs, dubiously attacking the leaves of certain banana trees behind the TA block with a penknife, running around trying to get the OM to open my classroom door and get the banners needed for the decoration of the stall. Then ran to IP room (where nobody knew where it was but it was the FIRST place i went) to collect the utensils (which i had ALREADY collected FIRST THING that day). I was frustrated, agitated, totally upset and raving mad. But things got better after that. Went with shu-en to mel's house to bring the hamburger boxes to the food prep commitee. Then stood there in the kitched skewering some kebabs for them (kopiing food on the way) and peeling hard boiled eggs. Then went back to school where we awaited orders and guests.

The best thing that day was that Mich, Eunice and sitong came and I could meet them again. It had been a long time since I last saw them and boy do I miss them! Yeps so we like, ate together, took some photos.. Basically hung out together. It was good hanging out time. Yups.

Then after college day, my very bad tempered father drove me to the restaurant where my cousin was having his birthday dinner. It was cool, food was good and stuff. Played with cousin's cousins and my own cousins especially Yang yang! Yups.. Pretty pleasant.

Hmm... what else is there to say?? Loads but seriously, I haven't got the time to tell all now.. Gotta research and manage my lemonade stand at www.lemonadegame.com .... Hahaha yups...

My father got me a laptop to put in my room so that's why I don't have to use the main computer in my house to type my work and essays out anymore, so I can't go online and blog and stuff as often, coz the laptop has no internet connection..=( =( So yups.. Bear with my absence..

PS ANYONE OUT HERE HAS CONTACTS WITH PEOPLE WHO WORK IN ISPS OR STUFF LIKE THAT?
I need some contacts for my pw la.. Yups.. Help k? Haha..

And ps: the stuff abt joining singidol was just a passing thought!!!

*note to self: bring measure for measure!!

Jiang Hu... * so cool!!*

2004-05-12T20:52:00.000+08:00

Well....... How do I begin? There's so much I could tell you, but not much room to express myself... Well let me begin by saying that erm... Hmm.. watched Jiang hu.. Very awesome film, cool mafia flick. I really liked it, not to mention that Shawn Yue and Edison Chen were SO BLOODY GOOD LOOKING!!!! OMG OMG OMG i tell ya, during the whole movie I was like, gushing over them and Benita and Sherry (who were watching d show with moi) were like, chill.. Sherry was crazy too, though... Only this Benita arh.. Must be crooked one la... Hahaha.. Awesome show, but I advise you to watch it only if you can understand shows with very metaphorical plots and you catch on really fast.. Benita was so slow that even in the end she didn't quite get what was going on.. Sherry was halfway there.. You need to be quick on the uptake to be able to understand that show.. Yup!

Hahaha.. going out with them, plus a note that I received from the-very-cool Peishan a few days ago reminds me of the fact that I really miss the good times we(xinyi, xuemei, sherry, benita, me and peishan)had together... I miss that old bunch of people so bad man... Haiz..

Yups... I'm really irritated today when I got home.... Turns out my uncle........ ARGH nvm... just know tt I'm really pissed. How nosey some people can get, I'll never know...

Dang, now doing the flyer thingy for food fair.. Dunno what to write lor! Then later got to do ECONS hw and GP hw... Want to die la.... What the hell.... Why the fooku is there so much homework.. ARGHS.

Anyways, just got off the phone with Irene(Tan).. She was updating me abt StudentCouncil stuff in YJ.. Hahaha... Well i hope Amrit, Ling Fang, Arh Ben, Michelle and all those I know and support do well ok? Hahaha yups..

Hmm.. Should I join Singapore Idol? DON'T LAUGH LA... Hahaha funny...

I think I'll go now.... Bye bye!:D

Don't have leh...

2004-05-10T14:21:00.000+08:00

Hey all! Long time no see, thought you mati! I'mma at BYTZ now.. Hahaha yeps.... Hai... Supposed to be rushing homework, but slacker me.. WILL DIE coz STACY TAN SPECIFICALLY WANTED THE HOMEWORK (including last week's) BY TODAY and I've not even written my name for either!!! ARGH!!!!!! HELP

Hahaha lala I feel like singing.. Eh! Feel like writing a poem right now!

Projection of my voice
Expulsion of my thoughts
Emotions are my feelings
Dejection how I feel today

Gesticulation to get ideas across
Enunciation to voice them out
Sensations I've never felt before
Procrastination the devil within me

Applause for trying your best
Encouragement so you don't give up
Liberation is what I need
Nourishment for my soul

DAMN! It's so so so weird! Arghs.. Hahahah.. Yeps.. I've been singing all day.. So happy coz I burned a new cd full of the songs I love! TOO LOST IN YOU, TAKE MY BREATH AWAY.. they're old songs but they're really good songs! Nice to sing too! And OMG OMG THE WAY by clay aiken i sjust so good!!! WAAAAAHOOOOOOOOOO hahaha yeps... But I'd like to draw your attention to this song today

Why are there so many songs about rainbows
And what's on the other side?
Rainbows are visions, but only illusions
And rainbows have nothing to hide

So we've been told and some choose to believe it
I know they're wrong, wait and see

Someday we'll find it, the Rainbow Connection
The lovers, the dreamers, and me

Who said that every wish would be heard and answered
When wished on the morning star?
Somebody thought of that and someone believed it
Look what it's done so far

What's so amazing that keeps us star gazing
What do we think we might see?

(repeat chorus)

All of us under its spell
We know that it's probably magic

Have you been half-asleep and have you heard voices?
I hear them calling my name
Is this the sweet sound that calls the young sailors?
They may be one and the same

I've heard it too many times to ignore it
It's something that I'm s'posed to be

(repeat chorus)

La la la la la la la
La la la la la la la la
Yeah

It's The Rainbow Connection by who else but Kermit the Frog? Kermit the frog, to me, is the perfect 'person' to sing this song, because as a frog who's always trying to educate the public on not to destroy the earth on the greatest show Sesame Street.. Well anyways.... Just wanted you guys to know that this is my song of the moment! Hee. Yups.

Oh and we got our lockers today!!! Ours (me, val, wenci) is at the perfect height, just chest level... Shumin and Meis' are at the bottom!!! Wahahahahahahaha *evil maniacal laugh* Yups and they are FILTHY!!! But xue mei and shumin were seen dumping their rubbish in anyway... Hahahhaha so funny!

Okays now.. see you guys soon! I"LL BE BACK *muacks*

Oh what is Life?

2004-05-08T11:20:00.000+08:00

For what is my existence
That I struggle to live
Why is living such a pain
What else must I give?

For is love really what it is?
I do not understand
But to me, Love has lost its meaning
I have no hope, my heart won't mend

The only things I cling to now
Are slowly giving way
My will has lost all bits of strength
When will death come my way?

What future is it
When all things look bleak
I give up all hope
Please let me go home

Hahaha now at bytz.. Dying.. Hee. Ok ok gtg now.. Will be seeing sitong eunice and jonathan later.. For movie:D bb! Ciao!

Long long time...

2004-05-04T13:11:00.000+08:00

Hey all, 's been a long long time hasn't it? Sorry I haven't been able to update much... Computer was attacked by a virus and now the internet ain't safe. I'm so proud of myself, though, for having cleared the virus from my computer:D Of course, thanks to Edmund's instructions yea? Love ya thanks!

Hahahaha you guys should really go take a look at val's blog and read the stuff on the chatterbox.. It's really hilarious, the stuff those stupid poster write. Hahaha really wacky! Hahaha. Oh ya btw, now we're in BYTZ yea? Hahaha well I don't think I'm gona be able to update much.. Not in the mood la.. Homework hanging over my head like a stormy cloud.. Yeps. So sad right? Hahaha so I have to rush away after this.

Yesterday went to TP LJS to meet the husband and wife to be. Hahaha ok la.. Was not an AWESOME meeting but still, fun. I always have fun when I'm with them. Yea? Hahahhaha

Ok gtg now.. Just wanna say that the keyboard here is really nice to type with! I love this keyboard it so rocks!! Hahahah yeps. And oh BE CAREFUL EVERYONE! DON'T CATCH VIRUSES ON YOUR COMP NOW AND DL MCAFEE!!!

Utter humiliation

2004-04-27T16:16:00.000+08:00

In Bytz now... Hahhaa sharon phua just walked past, instilling fear in all the people in here.. Hahahaha utter bedlam.. Just went for "compere" audition today.. Think I did ok la.. Hope I made it:D Mr Whitby's nice:D

Ok.. I'm now waiting for econs make-up lect to start yea.. Hahah can't believe I'm so guai.. Hai! Speaking of econs arh! Wah.. I completely and utterly humiliated myself during econs ytd man! It's like... We were in our focus groups.. Supposed to explain some questions to earn points la.. Then our group is like, falling behind and we had like, 0!!!! Oh man! So yea I attempted explaining this question that I had no idea about and completely didn't understand and yea........... Utter humiliation. Dang.

Hahaha.. So today.. something similar happened but not so bad la... Haiz.. Hahaha Erm... what to do..? yah... What else happened arh? Dunno la.. Shall blog again later.. Like a few days later:D

Ta~ta ciao!! X=.=X

Holla! Howdy over there!

2004-04-26T21:44:00.000+08:00

Hello people!!!! How're you guys? Miss me? wahahaha I'm sure you do la hor? EVERYbody does:D Ok ok...
Overdose of BHBness doesn't work yea? Hahaha don't puke all over the computer monitor hor:D Alrighties so anyways, I'm sure you're here for d daily dose of my life! Yeps.

So wells, Saturday came and went. It was an eventful day. Very very interesting. Started off with a great start to the morning but I shan't elaborate too much for now.. Wait till Thursday comes and goes k? Hahaha so then after *ahem* something happened in the afternoon, (since andy was sick and we couldn't go out) me and jac went to city hall, she had to meet her friends I had to meet eunice la. So it's like, with my bursting bladder i left the school and me and jac (jac periodically screamin JIAYOU... internal joke) then we talked on the bus to city hall.. Then yea, after meeting eunice, we went our separate ways la. So me and eunice went walking around Raffles City shopping centre la.. Shopping for fun stuff.. Then after that left for PS.. Yah and at the MRT station, met lynn and angelina and vivek and their friends... They were going out. NEVER ASK ME! WAH LIAO!

Hahahahah so anyways, me and eunice took the train towards dhoby gaut mrt la.. But then direction-senseless me got off at some ulu ulu mrt station.. But we made it a fruitful mistake so... Ya.. Then we finally got to PS la.. And we met sitong and jonathan and stuff... Decided to watch "Win a date with Tad Hamilton" haha. That show was good. Awesome. Nice plot, the feel-good romantic comedy type. Topher Grace is SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO GOOD LOOKIN!!! Yepyeps.. So after that we went out of the theatres la... Me and sitong were like gushing over topher grace... I was like saying he looks better with specs and she was like arguin that he looked better without. Yeps. Then like, on my way down the escalator... Saw kaiwei and wee lai and a bunch of NYJC people. Yeps... So me, with two huge bottles of coke in hand, flew down the steps of the escalator and rushed into kaiwei's arms for a big hug! She was, by the way, a bit intimidated by the cokes. Wahahaha oh and the cokes were there because throughout the show, the four of us took a grand total of 15 sips from the cups and like, WOW obviously we couldn't finish it... Yea... And the cups were so freakin cold too! I almost froze to death! Wahahaha alrighties then...

So yea, then after meeting kaiwei we walked off la... Decided to go home.. At the train station, some hanky panky resulted in my and eunice being separated from sitong and jonathan la.. Eunice was prolly jealous:P (that we left sitong with a predator!) Hahahah oh and eunice's new phone, the JAY CHOU one.. It's so cool! It's now like chock full of our pictures... And pics of me lookin really stupid (crossed eye, tongue out) Hahaha ouchies I miss being with them! But at least we meet up so very often:D Hee.
So that was about it for Saturday, except that when the three of them got off at toa payoh, eunic eand jonathan followed sitong to watch her cut her hair..

Anyways, then came Sunday.. a really FUN day!!! Awesome awesome great fun! Hahaha. Well first it started with me waking up late so I had to wolf down lunch and then quickly get prepared and rush to eunice's house where we were supposed to prepare Cheryl's present la.. So yea.. Took the train there (against all temptation to take a taxi) and yeps.. Reached TP mrt interchange, boarded d bus... Lynn came up halfway (she was going home from church..) and we had a quick chat! Yeps.. I think me and lynn have some kinda fate mannn.... It's like, partners for the last part of our Secondary School life in SC... Then posted to YJC together and having loads of fun there.. Then meeting each other at all major interchanges... Waahahah coz there's like a lot of times I saw lynn out of school and not agreed upon one.. (bu yue er tong) Yeps... Anyways, halfway there got a call from Mich tellin me to hurry coz the fiance and fiancee were doin somethin weird on the bed.. Wahahaha as they were pretty liable to do nowadays... So disgusting!!

Hahahaha anyways, yah so we had some catching up done there... Did the prez... And then michelle was like grumbling that I wasn't dressed in the same colour as her and sitong (light blue.. like i OWN any shirt of that color.. I only have black... or dark blue.. or brown, red, green, white..).. And we tried to get eunice in a decent set of clothes.. Yah then eunice's father sent us to Cheryl's place.. (For those non-4GY people.. Cheryl is that really rich person.. Rich daughter of really rich hairmakerownerslimmingbeautycentreowner person.. JY)

When we reached there right, it was like.. We all got out of the car as professionally as we could.. And michelle, SOOO professional was she that she left the door open, expecting someone to close it after her.. Then it's like, eunice's father drove off.. We had to scream after him man! Wah liao.. Hahahaha yah so after that, we stood at the driveway stoning.. Feelin really awkward coz Cheryl wasn't there to receive us and stuff.. It was really quite weird.. Then finally she came out and told us that viv and huiyu were already there.. Then we were like, dared to venture in.. Yah so we chatted for awhile, catching up on old times while people from 4GY started streaming in again.. It was sooooooooooooooooooooo good to see all those people again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You dunno how good it feels unless you were there yourself. It was such a great reunion, we were only short of the classroom and the heat! But sadly enough only half the class turned up la... Coz Cheryl couldn't contact everyone and quite some people couldn't make it la.. :( sobs.. Yah so then while chatting, I was like, giving out invitation cards to the wedding of Sitong and Eunice and everyone was like, so amazed and stuff... It was like... So cool! Another reunion comin up:D Hee. So yea.. And IRENE TAN utterly humiliated herself.. She said she REJECTED A GUY (which caused me to choke on my saliva) when in fact, she got the definition of rejecting someone wrong.. In fact, SHE was the one rejected by the guy.. Then she said she had a stalker... When actually, the "stalker" was just someone trying to copy her homework. I mean wtf? I shall try to get a good dictionary for irene for her birthday..

Then we had dinner, everyone sat at tables.. Trying to get Irene out of our table... But hahaha Irene'a a good maid la... Can steal her food when she's not lookin and stuff, and also can ask her go barbecue stuff for us. Hahaha irene, thanks:D Hahahaha. Yah then throughout the day right, Huijuan had this fetish with the swimming pool and wanted to dunk lynn... So it's like, me sam and huijuan were part of the conspiracy... And reena was the cameraman (WAHAHAHAHA and a lousy one at that). After dinner, lynn was still sitting at the table talking.. So, after doing a brief intro to the camera, I went to lynn and said in a really very serioius tone, "Lynn can u come for awhile.. I have something I need to tell you.."

So i pulled her to the pullside and distracted her until Huijuan and Sam, who were poised for action at another end, came over and pushed her HARD. BUT my choice of location was bad and lynn grabbed hard onto the pole and she didn't drop fully in! Then it's like, we were like, pushing her in and she was struggling to get out and it was such a bloody comical scene! Then finally Huijuan gave her an almighty push and with a LOUD KERSPLASH she finally fell in..

A couple of seconds later her slipper floated to the surface. Hahahah so funny.. She was like, fuck you fuck you! And so, after apologies and all, all's well that ends well.. I lent her a shirt to change into la.

After the dunking incident, we went into Cheryl's studio, which was damn cool, and played around with the drumset, the guitar and the acoustic guitar.. Yah so nice! Yah then we just hung out for awhile, chatting and doing mad rock impersonations, and just having tons of laughs.. Yah then it's like, we went to her HUMONGOUS living room and sung karaoke... Her karaoke system is damn good and she's got the damn cool cordless mikes with the damn cool sponge covers! Ahh! Hahaha yea! And we tinkered around with her grand piano too. So coool! Yea. Then we had to leave la.. Kaiwei and huiyu left with me.. My poppa dropped them off..

But I'll never forget that night. It was a reunion, that's what made it so memorable. I've realised that when you're with true friends, you can have loads of fun just by doing the simplest of things..
So people, enjoy yourself while you can:D Ta~ta!

Feverishly into it

2004-04-23T22:38:00.000+08:00

Hey! So yea, yesterday was the day of our NAPFA.. In the morning we ran 2.4 .. It was like weird... I can't run long distance for nuts.. Really... So i ran like ok la.. then run then walk then run then stop.. Last round peishan came to help *waves frantically* THANKS PEISHAN!! *muacks* Hahahaha

Then in the day erm.... We had i think quite an ok day right.. Did we? Hmm... I only vaguely remember trying to rush homework.. Oh.. GP.. with our spinster teacher who takes out her singlehood on us. She gave us a comprehension to do with so little time (slightly over an hour) and then on top of it, gave us homework to do by Monday. There were like, 2 parts to the homework (as in, two different homeworks), and we asked that she changed the deadline for one of them to be like, Wednesday coz we had NAPFA and stuff... She refused, and kept saying the work was really easy.. Oh man... Biatch.

Erm, then i think the other lessons went quite ok right? I can't quite remember, really.. I need my timetable.. Should have blogged yesterday.. I was thinking I was gonna have a good day to blog abt yesterday... Anyways, so yesterday, after the last lesson(which ended at 3pm), we, the people who didn't have higher chinese, had 2 hours plus to kill so me val and wenci went to far east to take neoprints. Yea. I looked horrendous so I'm not showing them. So anyways, yea then we came back and YJC was playing against AJC!! (Soccer la...) So many schools were there, NYJC, SAJC, AJC, YJC, some CJCians and some HCJCians.. It was the zone competition for soccer i think... So after comin back we went to the extreme left side of the grandstand to sit and watch and wait la.. Because it happened to be empty, and the only place with seats left. So we were like, sitting in the midst of so many AJ supporters right... And the AJ supporters were like, so on, they were like beating drums and stuff... It was great spirit, and I thought they were like, gonna win..

Then after that, like, suddenly some whistle screeched out of nowhere right, and suddenly the YJC soccer players were ilke running around and cheering and I was like, WOAH YJC WON ARH!!!!!!!! WAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! Yes yes yes yes yes yes!!! Wahahaha I was like, jumping la.. And then I think some AJ people noticed, val and wenci had to say, cherlynn chill you're surrounded by the aj people..

Wahahah but I was really so happy for YJ, but at the same time sad for them.. It was like, there were so many supporters for and from AJ and like, YJ had a miserly few supporters... Me and the other girl who was from YJ first three months were like, we wanna cheer for YJ! But then we looked down, at the grey uniforms we were wearing and... Arghs.. But guys, I'm proud of you! I love ya forever!

Yea so then after that was our NAPFA 5 items (since we were from the Aqua house).. It started at 545.. I think it was generally ok... I got 2As, 2Bs and 1C.. Then my 2.4 amassed in the morn was a whopping D (supposed to be C, but 'honest' or more like blur me told teacher a much slower time argh). We started with shuttle run.. I got an A for that... Was happy and surprised! Then went for sit-ups.. Missed by 2 to A... so got B yea? Hahaha and then supposed to go for standing broad jump(me forte) but waited like 1 and a half hours for our class's turn.. Only then did I realise actually girls are really quite lousy at standing broad jump yea.. Shall not comment on it too much. I jumped a 17+ at my first try coz my left foot was behind my right foot by i think 10cm.. Then second try the left leg also behind right leg but less la, so was at 195.. New personal record:D Very happy. Then sit and reach... Got B!!! Happy. Then IPU got C!! Happy! Hahaha

But what I enjoyed most about the NAPFA five items was seeing the people in our class cheer hard for each other. When the guys were doing their IPUs the girls were like cheering and cheering and cheering for them. We counted out loud for them, squealed when they were going to give up and basically, ya. Stuff like that yea? And boy, the guys in our class are damn fit. All of them got like just about As for everything... Mannnn

And it was the first time in NJC that I actually felt support from the class.. I mean c'mon, the day before yesterday, when me val and samuel went for debate, it's like, I don't think anyone even noticed lor. Only when we won then we told ruiping who congratulated us and stuff and was really sweet about it.. Then shiwei while passing by us conferring at the toilet said "Eh, good job" And that was about it. Prolly ignorance is what led to this lack of support, I'll give everything the benefit of the doubt. But it was no help for our morale when the supporters for our opposing class actually turned up and we were like, down there with no support and even the reserve disappeared. OMG

So anyways, yea we all cheered hard for each other, especially at IPU, sit and reach and standing broad jump. Shuttle run also. The girls did most of the cheering though.. I felt tt the guys cheered rather selectively...*dubious looks* But jAc doesn't think so, soooooo......... Yea...

One thing sad was that NAPFA ended so damn late... 8 plus.. The first time I stayed back in school till so late for legitimate reasons backed by the school.. Hahahahah pretty cool really.. It was a day of highs and lows... More highs of course, and that's better yea? Hahaha

Ooops i think i shouldn't be saying it was yesterday... It's passed midnight already.. Hee *sheepish grin*

So then today(yesterday), in the morning right, we had two straight hours of Maths.. One hour tutorial one hour lecture. The lecturer is like damn funny.. She speaks weird.. And she reminds me of Mrs Li in ACS(i) music..I wonder if they're like, sisters or were taught by the same person. The way they speak is like exactly the same! They even LOOK the same! Wahahaha.

Okies then after that right, we went to the hall to sit for 5 hours of electorial speeches by the 96 student leader wannabes. Some of them were like, just plain corny... Some couldn't show us how outstanding and sincere they were... But one thing is that I admire all of them for their guts. It really takes quite a lot of courage to stand up there and speak to so many people, many of them older and wiser than you too! And I felt so sad for my friend, KWC who made an awfully short speech that wasn't impactful enough and got flamed by the debater-questioner at the Q&A time.

Speaking of the Q&A thingy.. WoAH those people ask questions with a vengeance man! Very harsh questions that are really cutting and stuff. I wouldn't want to be placed under that kind of scrutiny and stress man. There was a guy who was scolding the IP candidate, saying "What IP dream and J1 dream and J2 dream? It's the SCHOOL dream. We are a SCHOOL. No division" and blah blah. I was impressed. That guy was good! Then another guy who impressed me was the guy who knew the whole school crest/flag by heart and what every single thing meant. Great!

But one thing this student council thing taught me was that the people running for elections aren't what we think them to be. They aren't the popular types. In fact, they're the ones who basically didn't accomplish much during their secondary school lives and want to do more in JC life. The really popular ones who can really make a difference and do us some good can't really be bothered to go through all the elections and campaigning to get into the council.

Another thing.. These wannabes keep talking about spicing up the life in NJC.. Which led me to pondering.. The candidates in the previous years must have promised this too right, since the reputation of NJC being a mugger school and a dead school has been around for quite some time. So then why hasn't anything been done about the reputation? I hence conclude that what these wannabes are doing is just making empty promises. No matter how much they claim that they don't make empty promises.

Of course there were some very memorable ones.. NOTE: Indian guys usually have great senses of humor and tend to be very popular.. Bubbly lively girls also popular and make more impact

Anyways, then today(yesterday) we found out that our team, by miracle of miracles, made it into the TOP 2 for debate finals! Yea so me is now FEVERISHLY(look at title) doin research. Jac and Val came over to my house to research and we had dinner at my house and stuff. Quite cools. Before that had talk with Jac. I like talking heart to heart with people. I feel it draws us closer. Of course I may be wrong:D

Hahahah so anyways, here's a shoutout to EUNICE who reads my blog everyday. Thanks! And PS GREAT PAL on my blog. who u? Hee. Ok ok gtg le.. Mother scolding. See ya all and all take care!

To live out my life as Cherlynn, for now and forever, is my dream. Arduous though the journey may be, I will push on.:D
Nite(Morning)!!

Oh my goodness:D

2004-04-21T17:10:00.000+08:00

Hee hey guess what... My class won the inter-class debate against S10 by half a mark!!! OMG I feel so happy coz we were like, totally unprepared and stuff... Wahahahahahahaha omg I'm still shivering from the adrenaline running through my body... Wahahaha mannn... I am SO SO SO happy... Arghs... I feel so so sooooo accomplished. This is the first time I actually feel good in NJC!!! Wahahahaha yay strike one for the CCA points:D Hee. Great!

Lol but reflecting on it... OMG I sucked.. Guess what I got the lousiest speaker score for my team. Samuel was the best speaker for my team and the best overall was Val's friend from the other team, Chris. Hahaha that guy is funny.. Mannnn it was an interesting debate.. The judging teacher was this cute indian lady who was laughin at us. So cute hahahahaha i was like trembling and shivering and basically I delivered a lousy performance... Luckily didn't cause my team to lose leh! Hahaha wahahahahahahahah i think I'm mad le...

So now, my team is in the running for top 2 teams.. Basing on score la.... Hahaha hope we make it yea? Then go for finals and let Jacque take over.. :D:D I happy. I feel so exhilarated! So different from what I've been feeling for the past few days. Wahhaha

Ok ok am in bytz now... Shall go le.. No privacy..:( Hee ok ok bb tc

A flash of inspiration, to grab hold of me

2004-04-20T21:10:00.000+08:00

Here's a song I wrote(chinese song, easier to write) in honor of SC:

verse 1
回忆是思念之路的起点,
思念着过了好久的童年,
思念着小时候的荡秋千,
孤单的日子充满着思念.
interlude
不知不觉眼泪掉了下来,
思念着过去会让人害怕未来...
Chorus
过去的一切依然那么完美,
未来会怎样真的无法体会.
带着回忆在路上走得好累,
只希望回忆与梦想能双素双飞!

I haven't written the second verse and the bridge yet.. But I've got a nice melody already though..:D

Anyways, here's a big *WAVE* to all of you reading this. I love you all coz I know you're reading this coz you care yea? I love you... And I'll love you a lot more if you tag the board to let me know you're reading this:D:D Hee.. Ok here comes a poem.. Doing it on the spot yea?

A flash of inspiration,
To grab hold of me,
To steer my reins?
Or to set me free?

A harsh hacking cough,
To wake me up,
To bring me down,
To smash my cup?

A dream of bliss,
For enlightenment,
For encouragement
Or for consolation?

A day in my life,
Isolation?
Desolation?
No, Imprisonment.

Hahaha guai guai de.. Nice not? Hahaha ok ok I'm weird. Anyways, the student council campaigning in NJ going on like fire like tea. (ru huo ru tu) So since we're given around 7-12 votes, I've decided to vote for all 6 SC girls running for the election... And who else, I dunno yet. No one from my class, A03, is running. Wahahah slacker class with slacker teacher.

Then today in econs lect, me wenci and val rated d guys in our class. Wahahaha Huihua was adamant about a certain *ahem* yea.. Hahahaha scandalous arh she.. Heard she kissed (was forced to, a dare, a forfeit thingy) some guy arh? (I know who, I just dun wanna mention)... Hahaha.. Anyways, A03 getting more and more scandalous arh, what with yifang <-->shuwei <--> cheryl and sweepeng<--ahboy and samuel-->val and huihua(pinky)<-->gordon... A lot la.. Hahahaha not bad not bad.. Then today me stayed back for some remedial econs tutorial thingy.. So cool rite? Mich heard and said how come suddenly i become so guai. Mannn thanks for d reminder Mich, I shall be a bit less guai yessa? hahaha actually no la.. I've become something of a HORROR to my friends.. They'll be like, cherlynn.... did you do homework?? Wahahaha I'm like... all guilty... What homework?

Damn.. better go do homework soon. Hahaha note the word soon. Yea.. *ahem* sooooon... ;) Anyways, I'mma gonna represent the class for interclass debate.. Imma gonna die. Imma sure gonna die. Yikes. Hope the other class walks over.. Must go research now.. Tat~a all! Ciao amigo!

Note to self: Try not to succumb to temptation and eat nasi briyani. It's TOO HOT TO HANDLE.Wahahaha

To have and to hold

2004-04-20T16:31:00.000+08:00

Oh I wish I could turn back the time and go back to SC to be her student again. I wish to once again bask in my alma mater's glory and just sit there, as the days go by. Why did I cry that night? Well, it FINALLY dawned upon me, that night, that there was no way I could go back to SC to be a student of her hallowed halls again. I wish so much I can go back there to study!

I miss everything about SC. The food, the bell(however loud and painful), the compounds(oh beloved tiled floors), the classrooms(french windows!!), the food(ah zek's meepok, yong tao foo..), the teachers(OH I LOVE THEM SOOOO), even the bad things like having to do homework, getting sent out of class for not doing tys, getting caught for playing bridge by Miss Chiam, avoiding people around corridors, getting back tests I'd failed... But most of all, I miss the PEOPLE, and the TIME I was able to spend with those wonderful, rockin people! We were able to spend all that time together, enjoying the company of each other, well, actually, not quite, at that time, but at least we were together in an altogether friendly environment.

Only upon lookin back on it do I realise that being together in the same class with some of the most fun people in the world is SUCH fortunate bliss... Why do I only realise it now? If only we could go back to times like that again, I would definitely cherish it... I miss being together with the whole gang. I know I can't keep living in the past, I can't live in the shadows of the past either, but while I'm at it, let me immerse myself fully in the desolate misery of not being able to return to those wonderfuly times..

I cried again Sunday night. On the phone with sitong. We miss being in the same class so much! Why must the world tear me apart like this? Why pull me away from my very elements, from where I belong? I need to be back in SC, back in 4GY.

After I die, I would want heaven to be modelled after 4GY. I'd want everyone from 4GY there(i mean, after they die). If after I die I should go to hell, then I'd want hell to be like 4GY too!

That's it. I, here, firmly resolve to think up of ways and means to briing 4GY back together again. Aaaand SC. Aaaand library. God give me strength. Amen

PS ALL GUYS SUCK. ALL GUYS ARE JERKS
PPS Usher rocks!(he's not a guy) Eminem rocks!(neither is he)

Last night, I cried...

2004-04-18T16:51:00.000+08:00

The title above, I hope, leads you to wonder what happened. Of course if you don't I can't blame you, since you are obviously an uncaring freak. Anyways, last night, solitude and loneliness engulfed me and I plunged headfirst into the abyss of unhappiness. My tears were spontaneous.

Yesterday was, on the whole, a dreary day. IT club in the morning.. Angering andy.. It all surmounted to a sense of impending unhappiness. After IT club, went to Cine to meet sitong and eunice. The inital plan was to watch Starsky and Hutch, the movie I've been waiting forever to watch. But of course, situations change and the two lovers wanted to play bowling instead and me, being the magnanimous bitch I am, gave in and sat at the alley watching them bowl(after lunch at Pastamania, where we met several ex-sc girls from our cohort). Then after that had a very very brief shopping spree (which included me running into cheers and buying sweets, then running into Guardian after tt to buy wipes) then went home.
Was upsetting. Got scolded by mother for getting home late. Went to Fortune House for dinner. Nice dinner. Then when reached home, quarrel between mother, father and brother escalated into weird climax where brother walked out of house. Wasn't fun.

Felt really bad the whole night and started thinking about the good old times in SC where my friends and I were together all the time. We went everywhere together, did everything together.. It was so good. Miss my class where everyone was close with everyone, where I could speak loudly during lessons, goof around, being the class joker is also something I miss.

Anyways I think I'll elaborate more laters... MOTHER FUCKING MOTHER is nagging. F*ck her.

Quickie!

2004-04-14T15:15:00.000+08:00

Gotta make this quick. Okies. Now am at home, left school early coz KILLER CRAMPS attacked and well... My savior, the pills had run out and my only other box was at home. The pain just took over. Couldn't walk, couldn't concentrate and stuff. BLEAH. So yea, took cab home. Thanks to Val and Sherry for being there, helping me out with the stuffs ya? Thanks. Appreciate it:D At home, Mother made lunch. Helped quite a bit. Of course savior pills saved the day again so I'mma feelin better now. Yea

YTD went back to SC to meet up with Ms Lee and library juniors (Mainly Melody). Met melia at last! That babe.. So CHIO! Yea ahahaha ok ok on the way up saw Ms Goh at staff room. Took on roles of ancestors at Library meeting *was uber-fun* prodded Melody's committee into rebellion! Against the ugly library-tee of course. LOL felt real good to be somewhere in charge again MWAHAHA *evil control streak showing*

Then went to talk to Miss Goh again and terrorised Ms Chua (by screaming loudly CAI LAO SHIIIII!!!! whenever I saw her) Had good talk, then left with Melia, getting the usual ride from her to the bus stop.

Oh yea. Spent last hour making new layout at SOLILOQUY and I kinda like it, though the extreme right side is like, damn messy. Side scrollin layout! Go look k, especially Eunice! Hee

Oooh what else? Hmm. Dunno... Nothin much's been happenin... OH OH OH OH OH OH OHHHHHH massive blackout ytd last night! I was like using d computer and POOM! Blackout! Wow. Apparently was a large blackout, many areas in Singapore affected. Dearie me.. Shall elaborate laters, gtg now! :D:D

Ze Monday blues...

2004-04-12T14:13:00.000+08:00

First up. Helloooooooooooo long time no see peoples.. Me is high after a bout of MOCHA ICE BLENDED from the wonderful NJC CANTEEN. Note: wonderful NJC Canteen, not wonderful NJC... Totally different characters alrighties? Yea.

So anyways. hee. Had a really incredible week. Incredible as in, incredibly forgettable.. I totally forgot what the hell i've been doing over the week..or was it weeks? yea. Em... Hmm... Most memorable would most probably be the visit(s) to Eunice's house at Toa Payoh.. Lalalala hahahah the first visit was really quite fun.. We hung out for awhile, then me and sitong decided to cook up a storm (literally) in eunice's kitchen. Eunice was like, living literally alone.. Like an adult. I mean, if you knew me and sitong well enough you'd know of our plans to move out of our parents' houses as soon as we could and get a house outside and live together. *note: NOT cohabiting alrighties... we are DEFINITELY STRAIGHT. So yea when me and sitong realised eunice was living the life we craved after, we were like, GREEN WITH ENVY yea.. It's so the independent lifetstyle we want!! But then eunice complains that it gets really scary.. At night, all alone.. But you see, me and sitong wouldn't be alone! We'd have each other righties? Hee.

So anyways, back to cooking up a storm. Hahaha yea me and sitong decided to teach eunice a thing or two about cooking so that she would be able to survive on her own if there was nothing left in her house but rice, eggs, condiments and spices.. We decided to cook FRIED RICE!!! Yea actually y'know... I'm talking like we, we did this, we did that... The major cooking bits were done by me.. I shall go on to elaborate yea?

So here's our little instruction manual on how to cook fried rice (very simple and basic fried rice at that, but not bad tasting:P)
So first, you need to have rice.. Most of the time people use leftover rice because it's dry, hard and cool(if not cold). But at that time we didn't have any left over rice so we decided to cook our own. Here's a step by step on how to cook your own rice

Measure out the grains of rice you want. I told sitong to measure one and a half cups... sufficient for about 4 small eaters and 3 normal eaters. Yea then pour it into the rice cooking pot ( you get that from the rice cooker), then i washed it thoroughly... carefully too, so that not all the rice falls out. Yea so after washing, you need to fill it up with water until the water covers the rice (laid out flat) about one cm above the rice level(you can use your finger to measure). Then put in the rice cooker and set it to cook! (Most rice cookers are automatic, but us, being the stupid fools we are(actually me la), kept opening the thingy to check.

So anyways, while the rice was cooking, me and sitong chopped garlic and onion to make the rice fragrant.. While eunice stood by watching helplessly. Yea. Hahaha then I cracked two eggs after which sitong beat them. Eunice was like, SUCH A FAILURE!! She didn't even know where her bowls and spoons and knifes were like kept! So we had such a hard time... yea.. Anyways, then we decided which condiments to use (they were adamant against some sauces) then we poured the oil into eunice's amazing nonstick frying pan. Then the rice was cooked (a bit wet though) and we decided to start. Eunice started the fire (being useful at last) and i started fryin away! First pour the garlic in then fry the onion together until the onion turns transparentish. Then pour the rice in and push it around a bit. Then pour in the eggs at selected prime locations and mix the egg with the rice and push around a bit more. Then start adding condiments in adequate amounts.. Yea.. Sitong was disastrous.. She poured in such an enormous amount of pepper into the rice that we had to scoop it out! Wahahaha

Anyways, miracle of miracles we managed to cook the rice, escaping unscathed. We put them in two plates, leaving one plate for eunice's mom. Then we shared the other plate and yea.. It was quite good, at least. Hahaha then we left la..

Anyways, now i'm like in bytz.. There's like this free period between just now's hist tutorial and the econs tutorial later. My friends are like, they've learnt their lesson. NEVER ASK CHERLYNN WHETHER SHE"S DONE HOMEWORK unless you wanna feel better about yourself having done it. Coz cherlynn almost NEVER does homework and NEVER realises that there is homework unless it's something exciting. They were like, Cherlynn did you do econs? Cherlynn was like " Huh? Econs? What econs?" Same went for GP and Maths... But God is watching on Cherlynn and blessed her so that the Maths teacher didn't turn up for tutorial so she escaped that and thus had time to try to fake something up. Then GP teacher checked everyone's homework but completely ignored cherlynn's existence and the possibility of cherlynn not doing homework (seeing as cherlynn was a picture of model excellence) GP teacher even commented that this was a GOOD gp class, everyone does their homework and stuff. WAHAHAHAH I thank you Lord, from the bottom of my heart.

Yea.. Then another visit to eunice's house last week was preceded by an EXTREEEEEEEEEEMELY boring morning at IT CLUB. OH WHY. WHY MUST THEY TORTURE ME LIKE THAT? WHY? I am seriously seriously considering quitting IT Club.. Blasted... Why can't it club just be a bit more fun? Haiz.... Dunno.. shall see what happens before i make my moce yea? Wahahaha. So after IT club ( i left early.. family affair *ahem*), went to meet sitong and eunice at orchard MRT.. Bloody stupid direction-sense-less me took 170 and went ALL THE WAY TO LITTLE INDIA... On the way as the bus passed SC, Miss Beh and Mr Koh the lab tech aboarded. Luckily, when Mr Koh alighted, Miss Beh asked me where I wanted to go and hurriedly told me I was on the wrong bus and told me (in very kind terms) to scram off the bus and take the train from little india to orchard. Anyways, yea so after meeting sitong and eunice, took neoprints. Had loads of fun! It was really funny and stupid.. Shall post the pics fer ya to see nx time.

Anyways, then went for brief shopping spree (15 mins) then headed for eunice's house.. Where we had fun recording songs and stuff. Yea.

Hmm.. What else happened? Good Friday, of course... The day of suffering.. Fasted and wow... I sure had discipline.. So many times I was tempted to eat... I mean, parents not at home, no one to watch me but God above and everything.. Yea.. Hahah but I resisted!!! And I abstained from using the computer too! Wahaha I'm so proud of myself. Then at night, to break fast, we had this disgusting vegetable and porridge meal.. I SO suffered... Wahahah but well. What's my little suffering compared to Jesus, who sacrificed himself so that our sins could be forgiven? Thank you Lord, for giving us salvation by your sufference and sacrificing of yourself.

Um... what else? Oh... wanted to watch movie but then no time to go.. Bleahhh... OH! Spent a lot of time on GPRS downloading cool stuff for my phone! Dreamer is indeed a really cool WAP site! Hee. If you can, use your phone to go visit http://wap.dream3r.com It's indeed good!:D:D

Erm... What else? Peishan's beside me and she's suffering the Monday Blues thus I titled my blog that way.. Hee. Erm overall today was hmmm an okay day, considering the fact that I managed to evade certain calamities... Oh.. Will be trying Touch Rug tomorrow... I'm not the sporty person... But I need a fun CCA!!! Library, dead as it may sound, was entirely fun and interesting! My secondary school life was all-rounded thanks to Library as a wonderful cca. Then dance in YJ, with my good friends there with me, was even more fun! Cools to see what we could do, groovin to music yea? Hee. Oh I miss yj so bad... Shouldn't have let my family influence me into coming to nj.. I am dying! Will somebody come save me??

Life is a journey with ups and downs,
You choose to journey with either smiles or frowns.
But in a journey where nothing fun happens,
You can't blame me for always being saddened.

In a journey when you make a wrong turn,
You can backtrack and make a return.
But in Life, this great big metaphorical journey,
There is no way I can go back, regrets have to be.

In my journey I have made a mistake
Of letting my family (not me) decide my fate
In doing so I have bound myself
To suffer in silence for eternity in hell.

WAHHHHH I WANT YJC!! Wahaha ok ok i shall stop lamenting.. See ya and take care.. LATERS!!~

I'm alive

2004-04-08T21:49:00.000+08:00

Popping in to let you guys know i still exist.. Just haven't been online and stuff. But now got no time to blog.. Irene's on d phone! (tan) yea so gtg! see ya!

The peak of highness. I so miss it

2004-04-03T17:29:00.002+08:00

So yesterday after we finished History lecture, me, xinyi, benita and sherry went to cine to meet peishan.. Was dismal and raining.. Gloomy.. Didn't do much to aid our gloomy moods. Yea so we went to pastamania to wait for peishan and they decided to watch a movie.. I had to leave coz I was goin back to yjc and had to meet lynn at orchard mrt first. Then on the way down, saw sabrina in her acjc uniform.. Had a quick chat.. Almost couldn't recognise her liao. Wahaha :P nice chat though. Miss her!

So after that I left, in the rain, feeling more than a bit dismal.. Then went to somerset, took a train to orchard and waited for pretty damn long for lynn and her friends to turn up. The 3 CJCians and I, an NJCian,
looked really odd. And we(me and lynn) were catching up on old SC gossip, aimee chipping in at times and the other guy (dunno his name), being a guy, didn't really take part.. Yea.. So then we were like, making noise and saying what, we miss yjc and stuff and complaining about our respective jcs... Me and lynn missed SC so so so bad!! Wahahah

Yea then we finally arrived at Yishun MRT and made our way towards old beloved YJ. Then when we entered they were havin dinner break so it was like, quite a good time. There was so much noise and we were like, wow.. They're like so high! So we went in and trala began the going around lookin for people you know and hugging and catching up and stuff. I met angelina, es, arh ben, rachel and shuling our dance seniors, js, benson, marzuka, lingfang, jeremy, amrit, andy, zhongyi, qiren, irene, marie, jessica, farhan and mr woo, ms phua, ms lee while walking around waiting for jam n hop to begin! It was such great fun! I even chatted with the chicken rice sellers, who, by a miracle of miracles, remembered me!!! Wahahahahahahha yea!

So after all that running about, we retreated to our old hangout -- the piano!! Wahahaha yea and I suanned zhongyi quite abit, about him playing (or rather, trying to learn how to play) the same song from first intake till now. Wahahahha yea then andy came and me and andy went a bit crazy taking photos. Wahaha I'll show some later. Yea and then ms phua came and we hugged and talked and took photos.. Amrit came and played some hindi tune on the piano with his fractured wrist and stuff... It was a lot of fun, I tell ya.

Then we went downstairs, the rest of the 2nd intake cohort had gone to the hall to start the cheering. It was kinda high. Not very, but not bad y'know? So then we went to the hall to wait for the dance to begin.. But then we walked back to the canteen to dump our stuff... Then we went back to the hall and got some light sticks from arh ben, the wonderful ogl...and after quite a short period of waiting, the mass dance started!!!! So we were like, dancing and having fun, all of us. There were so many 1st intakers who came back and we were like huggin and dancing and boogieing. It was so fun!! We just danced and danced and got high and stuff.. Then we formed a train, the 1st intakers who didn't belong with some of our friends who were 2nd intakers plus retainees and stuff, and ran up the stage and ran around the hall screaming to the music! It was so fun! Then the non-mass-dance part of the dance nite started, They played so much great groovily good music!We just boogied and grooved! After like fifteen minutes we changed into the yjc tshirt coz it was just so hot and we were all like, stinky and sweaty! So yea then we went back in and boogied and boogied and boogied!! It was all so impromptu, we formed trains, circles and danced and grooved.. Me, lynn and Irene started the SC school cheer in the midst of it all with angelina joining in the sc-OW part.. Wahahah it was just so high! The dj was so great too he was like, people can you SCREEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAM and we all screamed our lungs out! It was so uberly high I was going to faint!

Y'know, it's only when you're having fun that you can discover things about yourself.. I discovered I could dance quite fine impromptu (though some would disagree la -- lynn) AAAAND I could do the backbend thing inpromptu! It was so fun! And we all screamed and stuff and it was just so high I couldn't stop having fun y'know? It was like, so much sweat and stuff but still, it was uberly awesome! We went to the centre and throbbed and stuff!

Then after awhile this prissy teacher came and said you're not second intakers, sorry you'll have to go and we left the hall but then we went to the field (next to the hall, so we could still hear the music) and grooved! It was fun but we only did it for awhile coz it was getting late and the things were ending. I had to go home too!

So then we went back to the canteen where our stuffs was and sat and talked for awhile till the talk was over. (while dancing, saw favian hanging around and said *screamed* hi) Amrit came over and showed us how high he was (squeezed sweat out of his shirt.. DISGUSTING! It could fill up a bucket!!).. Amrit was groovin onstage, being one of the ogls, and boy was he movin! Cools mann! Wahahah with his wrist in a cast that guy could still groove! Oh yea and while walking around, saw faviano, weiliang and someone else... Said hi. Yea. Then after everything was over we gathered and talked and were discussing where to go for dinner and as we left the school, we were singing

Students of Yishun Junior College
Gather round your alma mater

Yea. It was so cool! Then we started screaming impromptu like, SCGS ROCKS, TJ ROCKS, RJ rocks! RGS Rocks! NJ rocks! (some other people screamed that, not me.) Yea and then everyone was like, YJ ROCKS!!! Wahahahaha YEA! We were awesomely high. Ok I should chill now.. Here are some photos.. Though there's like none of us dancing, coz we were busy dancing duh.

Got more la but then.. hee. ok ok will go now see ya ciao!

Or I won't sleep!! Wahaha BOOYAH!

2004-04-02T11:35:00.000+08:00

Hello all... I'm currently in BYTZ in NJC... It's this student computer lounge thingy.. Cools innit? Yea... it was kinda a last resort kinda thing... Like, we were all too bored already so we decided to come up here.. Yea so me and benita are now playing bridge... Wahahaha we are like, CHEATING BABY... Yea.. Orangutan bleah

Lalalala the day before yesterday me wanted to blog.. But then.. brother came in. WTF that jerk! He's an ass! Who the hell does he think he is?? Wahahahah Yea. Anyways... I just wanted to tell you guys that my dedication was read out by Carrie Chong on the Late Night Show the night before that night! Like yea... She played my song, (Chingy's 1 call away, no less) and then said "That one's going out for you, Cherlynn! You said it's for me! I guess that's the way to get your song played on the Perfect Ten yes? And you say you won't sleep unless you hear this song, so.. Well your dedication's going out to SCGS coz you guys rock and to 4GY'03 coz you guys rock the bestest! Yep...etc.." But what I actually sent was.. :

hey carrie u MUST MUST play me chingy's 1call away coz it's for YOOOOUU!! Or I won't sleep! Yea! Heh. PS SCGS rocks n 4GY'03 rocks the bestest!

Yea... So anyways... Yea. i'm like SOOOOOOOOOo bored! I am definitely dying here in NJC... Bleah!! So anyways, later imma gonna go back to YJC to join in the orientation! And at last have some fun! Wahahah yeppers baby! Can't wait. Oh yea.

Yesterday our class went out to PS to eat. And in long john's we played ZONGJIMIMA... With dares and all.. Wahahahaha yea... unlucky me gennaed one of the dares... Which was to ring the bloody bell at long john's thrice and after that, scream "I LOVE LONG JOHN's" then punch the air with my fist.. Accompanied by a loud WHOOSH! *benita's beside me right now, giggling her head off* Argh it was SO embarassing.. BLEAHBLEAH Yea and *benita adds* somemore when I rang the bell thrice, the other customers eating in there were like, "SSSHHHH" I mean WTF I was showing my love and supoprt of LJS!!! Wahahaha bleah

LOL anyways... (just came back from playing graffiti) then after that I went back to NJC to meet up with Michelle and *ahem* someone.. And yea.. It was like, a sort of "catching up" session where we chatted for all of *gasps galore* about HALF AN HOUR!! WOW! What quality quantity time! Wahahaa ok ok I'm laming. So i found out what classes we were posted to and stuf.. I'm remaining in 04A03.. Yea.. But sadly, benita and xinyi were posted to A02 and so I accompanied them to appeal.. To get back into A03.. It was a really sad and sordid affair.. Horrible, to say the least.. The end of this wholething is tha I just wanna say to you two, "TAKE CARE alrighties... It's not the end of the world and I'm sure we can still stay together, hang out together.. Y'know.. Have fun together.."

Yea...
GTG BRB

One call away.. i am a call away

2004-03-30T21:51:00.000+08:00

Am still doing econs.. Sorry for rushed exit yesterday.. Brother came out of room to check on me. Anyways, forgot to mention that there was a very very very very very very (you get the drift) lame performance by the njc dancers during assembly yesterday morn and this morn too! haha. It was a skit thingy... LOL uber-uber-lame!

Anyways, back to yesterday. So after the uberly lame cheers, which I shall not elaborate on... (for want of time) we danced... As in, attempted to learn the mass dance.. Just know that I made a horrendous mess of the dance.. twirled when supposed to swing, swung when supposed to twirl. BLEAHH i pity my partner... The poor guy was like, "No! You twirl! No! You don't do this now! No! Wrong direction! OUCH!!!!!!" waahahahhaa.... mann...... Hahahah oh and before dancing we learnt the college anthem and college song. Both have nice melodies though I MUST say that the college song is indeed much nicer than the anthem, which is in malay. Wahahahah the college anthem is SOO reminiscent of d national anthem, MAJULAH SINGAPURA... There's like, so many citas and kitas and it ends off with "Rakyat Singapura!!" Wahahhaha. Yea

Anyways, after that was games, but naughty me didn't go... (hope no authority really reads this) Me and bunch of friends (shall not mention names for safety's sake) went to Far East to take neoprint.. Nice mann.. All the chiobus.. I felt so out of place, being the only non-chiobu.. Haiii.... We had loads and loads of fun in the kfc after that, where firstly me and 3 others we shared a meal (buddy meal) and we looked like we were some really poor kids who couldn't afford a meal.. Then we played the ALL-TIME-MOST-WONDERFUL game, ZONGJIMIMA!! Whahahahaha we came up with some really outrageous forfeits, which included saying loudly to the lifeless dummy of Colonel Kentucky that stood outside the shop, "Hey I like your chicken man!" accompanied with surfer dude hand actions... Also had this one where someone had to go up to abovementioned dummy and say "Hey pal!!!" and then wrap said dummy in warm embrace.. Another one was to go to the mirrors in the middle of the restaurant and say really loudly with a shocked expression "Oh my goodness! I see myself there!! I see myself!!" and there was also one where the person had to go to a table of angmohs and say "Hi welcome to Singapore!" Wahahahhaa what manic fun! LMAO ROFL

Yea then we got all bored and stuff... Coz we ran out of stuff to do so we went our separate ways, to meet our other friends. So I went to Toa Payoh to meet up with Eunice, Sitong and Michelle.. Wahahahah it was so weird seeing them in all their uniforms... Wahahahah I must say, it's a shock to see all my good friends in different uniforms from myself.. I've been so used to seeing them in the SC uniform, ít's hard to imagine them in anything else! wtf.. LOL. Yea we sat at McDonald's and had loads of fun chatting chatting chatting.. Catching up on old times and what each of us had missed out.. I really missed being able to do this idle lazy chatting all the time back when we were still in sc... I can't wait till I'm out of JC and go to either UNI or go to work... It would definitely make me freer and more able to catch up with them..

Days in NJC are endless and long and tiresome and weary... Pardon my endless lamenting, but y'know... My friends feel that 2nd intakers are ostracised in njc.. Bleah.. I agree to a very very small extent..:P

Anyways, I'd like to take this chance to shout out to some people.
SITONG coz she's my bf and I know she reads this from time to time even though she needn't coz well, she'll hear this from me personally sooner or later.. Yea.. LOL But still I've got to mention her first, or else she'd be jealous... LOL

Eunice coz she's so cool! Hahaha and she reads my blog even though she's heard it at least 3 times already.. I'm bad at this and I tend to tell a lot of people about my life, and I repeat it again and again but I always forget who I've already told it to so I end up telling some people the same thing, the same joke, again and again, more often than not. LOL. But well. Eunice rocks my world she's so cool and a great companion to take the train home with! YOU ROCK EUNICE LOH!! WAHAHAHA. yea shan't say more in case her wife gets jealous. :D:D *dun kill me!*

MICHELLE coz she's so nice... Reads my blog whenever I have a new entry! It's so hard to keep up with this girl arh and so I have to read her blog all the time which, sadly, i always fail to do.. Bleah, but at least y'know, I talk to her ya? Hahaha yea.. And this girl is so chio and full of suitors... I get jealous. Wahahah actually no since I've already decided to become a nun rite. LOL. And michelle has this deep sexy voice which more often than not turns OFF rather than ON yea? LOL j/k j/k I am SO going to get beaten up after this man...LOL. Just it's so great to talk to this girl.. At least face to face she doesn't keep saying "Heyz gal..." wahahha that's like her trademark on msn... And also her trademark in real life is "I chio you act chio arh!" whahah ok shall stop talking abt her.. later her daughter get angry! Wahaha

Reena coz she reads my blog and sends me those nice little motivational smses.. She rocks lor! Wahahaha yeppers. I LOVE YOU REENA!!! *pls dun get jealous hor bf* Reena's got an awesome sense of humor and wtf lor she got secret admirer!!! ARGH! Oh this reminds me... EUNICE has an ex lor!!! WTH!!!!!!!!! Wahahah yea.. dun kill me you guys.. Hahaha

MELIA!! coz she just totally rocks and I miss her so bad and I'm talking to her on msn now! You rock melia i hope you know it! It was great being in library with ya i miss u so bad!!!!! AHHHHHH!! We must definitely meet up when u come back ok? Keep in touch my dear friend!! Oh and PS i read your blog, just tt it's troublesome to comment on ur entries!

Liwen coz she reads my blog and is such a great friend from HNL! I love ya! Lame people just click, noisy people just click so we click in more ways than one! That's cause for celebration yknow? Wahahah I shall NEVER forget downloading polyphonic ringtones in Lot 1 with ya. Whahahahah ok ok that's lame..! Whahaha Love ya, girly!

IRENE LIM!! Sorry, had to make this differentiation coz there's another Irene whom we SC girls know about ya? Hahaha anyways, this Irene arh, this rgs girl.. She's so caring and sweet and supportive i really thank God for letting us get to know each other! I love ya matey! Take care always ok! big wet kiss! hahaha again, bf dun get jealous..

Shannon(hanhan) my dearest cousin coz she rocks! Hahahaha yea LOL i like having someone I can talk to in the family, and y'know, take care of... Plus! Her school's right beside NJC! Hahahah yeppers shannon rocks coz she's so intelligent I'm gonna try and get you a boyfriend hon! Hahaha!

Tiffany! coz I miss you so bad you MG girl! Yea we used to be so hyper together in P24 and in computing lessons! I miss you AND computing lessons! Wahahaha yea. Can't wait till we see each other again!

Angelina coz this bimbo is one smart chick! And she's sweet too y'know... AT TIMES LA hor.. hahaha. You take care babe! Have fun in SA!

YJC P24 People coz you guys rock and made my life fun and memorable in yj!

YJC OGT9 People especially es, carolyn, arh ben, qiren, zhongyi, elaine, angelinasoh, xx and zhaomingcoz you guys made me look forward to going to YJ everyday during those first 3 months i miss you guys so bad! We must go out more often k??!! Yeppers!

NJC temporary 04A03 People like xinyi, xuemei, sherry, benita, peishan, wenci, valerie, yixin, fangwei and etc!! You guys kinda liven up the dead deadness of njc so yea! Take care all!

LAST BUT MOST IMPORTANT... 4GY OF SCGS 2003!!!!!! coz we're the best class ever and we'll live on in SCGS legacies!!!

And anyone else I've missed out.. Wait till next time ya? Wahahaha. GTG see ya! Hee. *muacks*

Song(s)of the moment:

Eminem feat D12- My band
Usher - Yeah!!
Beyoncé - Naughty Girl
OutKast - Roses
Maroon 5 - Roses
Chingy - ONE CALL AWAY!!!

I am dying... someone save me!

2004-03-29T22:19:00.000+08:00

LOL. Kk I am doing econs right now.. BRB

Rightos... Haven't exactly finished, but have at least completed one question, feel better about it. :D Yeppers. Today was a lousy day. Actually it wasn't all that bad.. just that I found myself so tired out at the end of it all. Today was *drumroll* the long awaited ORIENTATION2 in NJC!! *cue patronizing laughter* Yea if you get what i mean... Life is so dead there. It started off with TALKS can you believe it, LONG BORING TALKS. Yeppers. Brrr... So anyways, after that we got on to cheers, which was.... BRRRRR! They were good for y'know, boosting morales and stuff, but wow were the cheers lame... The most memorable one was the one that comes in 4 languages... We have red (clap clap) We have white(clap clap) We have stripes(clap clap) We have the LION on our side! Wo men you hong(clap clap) Wo men you bai(clap clap) Wo men you xian(clap clap)

GTG

But you say I'm just a friend

2004-03-27T16:23:00.000+08:00

LALALALALA howdy doodle do everyone out there. As always, I am in a crappy mood and tralala i shall hereby attempt some highly dangerous ballet moves! Bleahhhhh I'm not really that excited after all..

Just finished a LOVE COMPATABILITY TEST sent to me by (and I quote the thingy) "a secret friend"... Like wow. Please own up, whoever you are. Of course, the compatability results were (and I quote again) "HIGH" ... Like yea.. I could have a high compatability rate with a girl y'know.. (Not that I would mind)

Oooooh weee the thunder is like so damn loud... Threatening to crash my com and the lightning threatening to strike me down. Yea. How I wish it would though... Life (or the absence of it) would be so much more bearable. Aikes...

So yea... Yesterday... Some LOVE MATTERS TALK. Hey what a surprise.. Love Matters talk followed by a mysteriously annonymously sent LOVE COMPATABILITY TEST.. I'm beginning to suspect a conspiracy by njcian. Previously i was suspecting a conspiracy mingled with a prank from any scgsian.. So back to the workshop. (Hark i hear my mom complaining)

FUCK MY MOTHER. Will someone please help me get rid of her. Like wth is her problem she is ALWAYS complaining. ABOUT ME. Isn't making it into her dream jc enough? Confounded! Dang.

Anyways, back to the LOVE MATTER WORKSHOP. It was all-around an intriguing workshop. Yea. Notice the word I used was intriguing. Not interesting or informative. Just intriguing. Yea. I can finally have proof and substantial proof at that, that males are sex-driven creatures. Yea! And they suck too! Wahaha. yea..
We watched a snippet from BLUE LAGOON which was so sexually and erotically sensual that I can swear half the guys were having er**tions.. Then we watched a video clip (after an uber-boring talk about nuptial meaning of the body)about abortion.. It was horrible. I was crying and my limbs were shivering after I watched it (but I managed to collect myself during the moment of darkness and silence we observed after that). It was horrendous! How could people want to kill those babies that they've created? Babies are God's gift from Heaven! Gosh.. Who knows what those mentally retarded (i mean it in a mean way) people are thinking..

Anyways, we then split up and went to classes for discussions about online relationships. The teacher asked questions, we discussed and then we presented our thoughts. LOL.

Question: What are your views about online relationships (MIRC etc)
From the girls: Dangerous, perverted people, insecure, can widen social circle, release stress, emotional release...
From the guys: mainly same as girls, but especially memorable was what they said about tempted to become predators, and about them possibly falling prey to homosexual perverted old men... LOL!
Question: What do you look for in an ideal partner of the opposite sex?A whole large assortment so... No elaboration here..

There were, of course, more questions but I can't quite be bothered so..

Anyways, yea then after that we had a panel.. thingy... where you write questions on slips of paper, pass them to the oh-so-experienced-and-all-knowing-teachers who will proceed to answer your questions a~lã aunt agonies... Bleah.

After the workshop, which finished at about 1245pm, i went back to sc, met eunice and sitong. We slacked in the library(oh i miss that place so bad) and then had a quick chat with low&goh and i finally saw miss chua again and I just kept having hyperventilating screaming fits when i saw her and she was like, laughing and stuff and we hugged and stuff and the teachers were shocked to see I was in nj. Wahahahah wtf. Thank God Mrs Low had faith in me, telling me that I would sooner or later be somewhere above in nj. *muacks* I love ya Mrs LOW!! Heh.

Yea then we left sc about an hour later, met jonathan and proceeded to watch Scooby-Doo 2 at Lido. Wanted to watch My Girl but then.. Certain chauvinistic pigs wanted to watch SD2 so... Good movie though.. Had me in stitches (partly because me and sitong were having so much fun... we got high on popcorn)... Yea..

Were supposed to watch My Girl today but me had some problems.. So...

ARGH!!!! Our class listings are out! Xinyi's not in my class!!! ARGH ARGH WTF! And she said sherry's in her class so tt means sherry's not in my class!!! ARGH WTF?! 2 of the most dynamic and fun people are not gonna be in my class?? ARGH NOOOOOOOOO do NOT do this to me!! :'( *bawls her heart out*

Anyways, downloaded Puzzle Bobble on handphone.. Addicted to it and have been playing it non-stop.. (almost)... Yea.. so hmm..

So ciao people.. See you again soon! *muacks*

PS Will the person who sent me that test PLEASE own up because I am gonna delete it from my comp!!!

like, bleah.........................

2004-03-26T22:16:00.000+08:00

Hoo haa hoo ha! *makes tribal wardance moves* Yeeehagoogooga! Yea... now let's make an informed estimation of exactly how bored I am. Your guess? Very? WOW!!! You're not even close. I am extremely, superlatively, vulgarly, supercallifragillisticexpiallidociously bored! And that's like, bad! Yea...

My existence in NJ has been reduced to one that submits to cliqueyfied behaviour. I hate that. I miss the times in SC when I was able to talk to everysinglebeing in class(GY)... And almost everysinglebeing in school including the teacher and the cleaning aunties and the hawkers and stuff.. Argh. I feel so self-conscious in NJ and I'm DEFINITE it's NOT because of guys. I'm really used to having guys around already so if you assume my self-consciousness is because of the presence of Bombastic Ogling Youthful Students... You've got it wrong. Anyways, I just feel very self-conscious in NJC and it really isn't all good. :( :( Can't help it..

Anyways, today was relatively ok.. Had some LOVE MATTERS workshop. I really shall elaborate later.. Mother naggin at me to go zzz.. And watched SD2 at Lido. With sitong eunice n jonathan. Will also elaborate later. GTG ciao!

Life is like, sad..?

2004-03-23T21:58:00.000+08:00

Damn. It. NJC is not what it's all fucked up to be. Actually, i've got some nice friends from my class as i've mentioned earlier, like xinyi, xuemei, benita, sherry, (the 2nd intakers) and the class we're with right now is quite nice too, though I don't know the 1st intakers well enough... But they all seem nice:D Haha. Just that I don't feel comfortable enough with them to be my wacko self...

Somehow I find myself missing yj.. BADLY.. Where I could go as mad as I wanted... Oh wells... gtg. Will update again later.. Ciao!!

New beginning... But faces I see are so........... omg

2004-03-22T21:55:00.000+08:00

Hello and howdy do! How are all of you? Well the first day of school has started in the ultimate GREY school, NJC.NJC In case you didn't get it, I'm in NJC. The 3rd best Junior College in Singapore.

Why do I have to mention this so emphatically? Because today, all the sc girls who saw me had the same Jaw-dropping action before a sheepish wave when they saw me. WTF. Stop looking down on me people, face it. I made it just like you guys did ok. So stop giving me that "What is she doing here?" face.

And damn. I thought it'd be fun to be in nj... With so many scgs girls... But... Then it turns out the bimbotic people are here! DAMN! But happily enough, the nice people from SE are here to, like old friends from Sec 2, Janice and Alina.. Then there's chia yee and yunru... AND REALLY GOOD FRIEND SING YING!!! OH GIRL I MISSED YOU SO MUCH! Was great seeing you here! *kiss kiss* Hee

Then friends from other schools whom I knew before going there... Like junyi, my bgf(bestguyfriend)... Jim... Yi Hern.. Erm can't quite remember who else.. Yea.. I saw d 3 of you la... So yea.. Was great meeting up again.

Then made some new friends... From the E2 stream (arts).. Like Xinyi, Xue Mei, Sherry, Benita, Wendy, Shi lei, Shi Le and so on... Hahahah was fun knowing you guys

Then after that, accompanied Junyi to HC so that he can talk to some teacher abt his appeal... Then we went to Coronation... Walked here and there till we finally settled on getting drinks from Caltex... Then I went to Causeway Point and watched "Gospel of John" with my momma. Hahah great show. WIll talk abt it later.LOL

The day was mainly LAME. So lame that I shall spare you the details. Alrighties gtg. Night.
Oh and eunice.. Had fun reading this? wahahah see you.:D

Posting results are OUT

2004-03-20T17:20:00.000+08:00

Yay. I can finally heave a sigh of relief and stop worrying. I'm not gonna mention where I was posted to though.

Anyways, where was I? Oh and BIG BIG BIG SORRY for not updating for like SOOOO long! Heh. Haven't had the time, been out everyday LOL.

Movies
Watched Haunted Mansion and The Eye 2. Watched Resident Evil on TV last night. The former was awesome as aforementioned. The latter was well, not too bad. Yea. Watched it with Eunice. Yea. And resident evil was creepy. VERY creepy. LOL

Books
Have since finished Trading Up by Candace Bushnell, bought a new book The Party Season by Sarah Mason, and borrowed 2 books from the Library. Finished The Party Season within a day of buying it. It was too good to put down. Witty and hilarious, I loved it.:D Then read the books from the Library within the next day so yea... LOOKING FOR BOOKS TO BUY!!! :D

Purchases
Erm... Hmm.. Hershey's Kisses... A packet of the cookies and cream one. And erm.. A cashcard? Hahaha

day-by-day lowdown about the march hols
Starting Monday. Went out with Liwen on that day.. Yea. Mentioned previously.
Tuesday. Went to Sitong's house with eunice. Recorded songs. Also mentioned previously.
Wednesday. YJT9 Og outing. Was fun. We went to a really really sucky place for bowling since XP said it was cheap. Apparently price was all that mattered. Then we went to PS Arcade. And had fun. Played mainly Time Crisis II and Bisha bisha champ and table hockey.. oh and WORDHUNT and PHOTOHUNT! Woohoo! ahaha Then they left to play billiards at Selegie and I was just too tired so went to times at PS and bought The Party Season and then bought a drink and aforementioned Hersheys' Kisses from Carrefour and yea. Went home to be a good girl.
Thursday.Ermm... Lemme think... What did I do? Argh! Where did I go!? Someone refresh my memory! Ohhhhh I watched The Eye 2 with Eunice. And before that we went to the arcade and played, then after that we walked around getting cashcard and coins and then went to the nokia shop to download new games for my phone. OH! I dled this game called "Project Boyfriend" and it's soooo cool! Wahahahah yea. Been playing it the past few days.:D
Friday. Went to play Badminton at AMK with Eunice, Sitong and Jonathan. Me and Jonathan played most of the time.. Then i managed to pull sitong and eunice in to playing doubles. Wasn't an entirely friendly affair, but I got my exercise!! Yippee!! Hee. Then after that, me sitong and eunice went kbox again!! LOL. Yea.

So there you have it! A blow-by-blow of my week. YIPPEe! Hee. Oh and I got a $10 raise on my allowance. LOL. Very happy now. :D Managed to convince my father that my expenses have gone up since JC. Here's how it went:

ME: (very whinily)Daaaaaad... **bucks(i wouldn't mention my allowance here) is just not enough for survival....
Dad: Why?
M: You see arh, firstly right, in JC, you have sooooooooooo many free period, then every free period you feel this urge to go down and buy sth to eat. Then comes LUNCH when you JUST HAVE TO eat again. And then you also need to buy sweets from the bookshop to keep yourself awake during lectures so that you pay attention and all. Then after school you need to eat AGAIN, plus go out and have fun!

Dad: I'll see where you're posted to first.

So yea. I got the raise. Not hard to guess where I got posted to right. :D haha. My dad gave me the raise for (and I quote him) "doing the family proud". So yea... Happy.

All right tata and ciao! *muacksss*

YO YO YO

2004-03-16T16:57:00.000+08:00

Wahahahaha elephant loh is standing behind me right now... Wahahahahaha yea so guess where the hell/ on earth am i???? Wahahahaha I am at my bf's house... BF=Best friend la... How many times do I have to say that? Wahahaha Yea yea.. So anyways, cut the crap... Erm... You know what... I really can't think with Elephant standing behind me... Yea... *turns around and gives a stern glare*

Wahahaha that was stupid... The only effect was her breaking out in laughter.... High trilling laughter and there was (just a split second ago) AN EXPLOSIVE "WHAT???!!" Waahahahaha now she's begging me to delete what I said.. I mean, wth. Wahahahahahahah Ok ok i admit it I'm like, high. Wahahaha ok ok I shall keep you(and this means elephant) out of my blogging ok? Will that do? *turns behind to look at her for approval*

Anyways.... Let's see where I stopped at my previous blog entry.... *goes to check* Oh yea... books. And my grandma's birthday.. And michelle forgave me.. Hmm yea.... Anyways, me just went to Liwen's Blog and realised I have to blog about that days' happenings too. That day, equals yesterday. Whahahaha. Yesterday was a really great day. Yip yip.

Well firstly it started out beautifully coz the day before, I found out that Sitong(bf) was not angry at me at all.. So yea. Great revelation. :D Then I was like, so early, so early, what do i do.. I'm too early for the meeting with Liwen later so... Then I got a msg from her telling me that she was too early and that she was already at LOT 1 so yea... Oh at this point, a sort of brief history about the outing is required. It was supposed to be an HNL class outing but then... When I checked one last time about whether all the people were coming... I got all these "sorry I can't make it" messages... I was really kinda pissed, coz it's not as if I didn't inform them 2 weeks in advance that we were going to have an outing on either Monday or Tuesday... So they should have at least kept those days free... Or at least ONE of those days free... I mean... Wtf. I can't help it if they have some official matters cropping up like say, dance practise, or camp or class thingy.. But class outing? I mean... argh. It doesn't help that before that you told me you'd most prolly be free. I mean like, argh. Wtf. That's the last time I organise ANYTHING for our tuition class ok. I mean it isn't easy and I put aside time for all this. I could be going out with OTHER people ok. WTF. And some people had the AUDACITY not to even respond to A SINGLE ONE of my msgs... I mean WHAT THE FUCKING FUCK.

Anyways, if you want a lowdown on what happened on that day, go to Liwen's Blog . Everything of essential importance is there. I'd only have to add that I really had loads of fun. I never thought it could be fun on an outing with just two people in kbox. I mean... Yea. It was whacko. Lame people just well... Have fun when they're put together. :D Hee. And Haunted Mansion was awesome. It was fantabulous. It had all the essential ingredients mixed together in perfectly suitable and adequate amounts. No one can fathom the beauty of it all. Just the right amounts of fun, fear and family in it. Another fabulous work by Disney. To be applauded!! :D May I also add that it was indeed really quite scary at certain parts... (Liwen and I were crouching up in our seats, desperately clinging to each other's fingers... Screaming when the scary parts happened. The rest of the people in the cinema, comprising mostly or pre-teens and tweens and their families, screamed along with us.) It was a roller coaster ride! Awesome! YAHOOOO!

Hee. Ok and now, I'm at sitong's house. LOL We just spent like, the past abt 8 hrs doing weird stuff. Shall elaborate more later... gtg home... :D:D See ya! BYE BYE Will talk more later..

LOL

2004-03-13T17:51:00.000+08:00

This is so funny... You won't believe what my mom is trying to teach me... She's trying to teach me how to ward off evil!!! Wahahahaha actually, that's to put it in a figurative manner. I shan't dwelve into details here as I've to leave really really soon for my grandma's birthday dinner.

So anyways, michelle has forgiven me.:D *jumps around the room and claps for joy* Yea. But now... SITONG is pissed at me. WTF. What's wrong with me that I'm always pissing the elements off. :D

So yea. And yea. I've finished the book "What men think about sex" Very good book. Hilarious! And the surprise ending.. well.. :D:D very good.

Now I'm on Candace Bushnell's Trading Up... Fast running out of books to read! Help! Hee. Went to times at PS today and saw so many gorgeous books I wanna read. GIMME MONEY FAST! LOL. Yea so well.. shall go now. I've only got 5 mins to change!!! See ya gtg!

事情都过去了,何必再埋怨呢?

2004-03-12T10:59:00.000+08:00

嗨! 大家好! 今日本小姐心情虽不是说很好, 但可称得上特别开朗...索性再次用华语于大家沟通..也想借此时刻向我的朋友道个大大的歉...她就是Michelle Cher谢婉于...对不起啦,你还要我作什么...我已经道歉好多次了, 你还是不肯原谅我...嗨...我看就算了,别提了...

好啦,现在就有件事erm..不是,是有个东西想给大家看, 请大家去参观参观一下... Well here goes!

I am a SAINT

2004-03-11T16:25:00.000+08:00

LOL nahh. Just needed some self-glorification after helping out Honx, Tiff and Sharadha with their blogs. It pays to know and understand HTML you know.. Anyways, hee life is fun. I'm in a good mood.:D

continue later.. have to help sharadha

done! Oh and also have upped layout for http://dontfallinlove.net go and take a look! Yea hehehe.

Anyways, I wanted to tell you guys this long long ago. I finished reading the novel Shanghai baby quite awhile ago. That book is a really good book, I can't believe the setting of all the happenings is really China. I mean.. Yea. It'd be the last place I'd expect all those things to happen. Oh and the book, gets really disgusting at some parts... Sexually explicit.. LOL yea. Disgusting, really. Oh and I am now reading a really interesting book called "What men think about sex". Shall tell you more about it later.:D

hee ok will go now Mom's screaming. Oh and yea I've realised my blog's a bit boring.. No pics and everything. Here's a little image... what is on http://spankyfacade.com right now.. Oh have I mentioned I bought 2 new domains? No right. Hahah yea i bought 2 new domains, http://dontfallinlove.net and http://spankyfacade.com. Yea. Go see for yourself yea. Haha Ciao!

bye!

传说中的神仙是否真的那么完美无暇?

2004-03-11T14:29:00.000+08:00

hello everyone. if you were one of the people talking to me the night before last night on MSN, you'd have realised that something freaking hell f*cking unlucky, irritating, aggravating happened to me that night. To those who don't already know.. I spent like, half a lifetime trying to type out a blog entry in chinese... completely in chinese, and when I clicked the stupid blogger button that says "Preview your Post" (since blogger fucking doesn't allow you to publish at once now..) , POOF. IE crashed on me. Like WTF. WTF WTF WTF (here, wtf does not equate to "where the frog?" as P24 lingo makes it)

And of all nights for that to happen, it had to happen when I'd just suffered a crushing blow. (I shall not elaborate on that crushing blow) I'd just have to say that you wouldn't know how it feels unless you've been through it yourself before. And so yeppers.

First up. I'd like to offer my most sincere apologies to JOHN for hearing me out that night and trying to console me and for tolerating all my shit. Thanks. And really really really really really sorry yea..

fuck. will someone just tell my mother to fuck off?

she's such a biatch! coming in and seeing what I'm doing. I mean WHAT THE FUCK! Does she BLOODYHELL know what on earth is PRIVACY. And LIKE WHAT THE FUCK she GOES THROUGH MY CUPBOARDS, DRAWERS AND SHELVES AND READS THROUGH MY THINGS WITHOUT MY FUCKING PERMISSION. I MEAN FUCK! FUCK! FUCK!

OH. MY. GOD. I absolutely DO NOT believe this. I just went to check out my blog and guess what. THERE SITS MY ENTRY THAT I WROTE IN CHINESE! Like OH MY GOD. I am in shock.

在这天下大乱之时, 尘嚣之间我孤独地在一旁哭泣...

2004-03-09T23:06:00.000+08:00

大家好... 本小姐刘佳敏今日想用华语来表达心里纳闷的心情... 刚才本小姐在MSN的nickname也是用华语写的.它就是: [问世间, 情为何物] [[我会选择放弃你,是因为我太爱你]]. 哈哈! 好动人吧.. 我心里也是这样想的.. 我的心真的好痛..我不想这样下去了..这样下去会把我逼死的!PS: IF UP UNTIL NOW YOU CAN'T READ OR UNDERSTAND ANYTHING.. TOO BAD.. TRY UNDERSTANDING CHINESE OR GET A COMPUTER THAT CAN READ CHINESE. Yeps.来,我们继续吧.其实我认为身为一个华人, 我们应该感到自豪.我最看不下的就是那些自称根本不懂得华文的华人..他们根本就是败类..这种人我最憎恨了!好了, 别说了, 越说我越气. 虽然说我是很高兴不必再修读华语了, 但是我还会多多跟华文接触..我始终都是华最令我引以为荣的就是我是个广东人.哈哈我为何会出此言呢?因为我最近正迷着一部广东电视剧...封神邦!!!真好看!!

哈哈我说了那么多,只不过是想叫大家去欣赏欣赏这部好戏.你们不伶情就算了..话回原提...我心碎了,心寒了,心死了...我在也不可以去想他了...从此我也再也不会提起他了.呵呵.我笑得很勉强..好啦..夜已深了..本小姐也该睡时短情长, 余言再叙, 就此搁笔.再见了.:D

But.. b~but.. why?

2004-03-07T09:18:00.000+08:00

Hey people, don't ask me where I get my titles from.. They just jump out ok. Hee. Most of the time they're kinda unrelated to what they blog update is talking about so just ignore it. Anyways.. I'm now mixing something really cool:D hee. Thanks to Elephant for being so patient yesterday and teaching me how the bloody freaking hell to mix. Hee. And also for lending me her room, mike and laptop to record *ahem* sounds.. Yea. LOL. I promise ya, Elephant and Sitong.. Once I finish mixing you guys can hear it ok? Hee.

Anyways, I'd like to take this chance to say a beeg beeg beeg

SORRY

to Michelle... Hey girl... Please don't be so upset la... We really didn't mean it... It was a "spur of the moment" thing. Forgive us ok? Or at least forgive me, since I'm the one apologizing.. Please la girl... I owe you icecream k? Don't so easily fan lian bu ren ren la... And it's not entirely my fault y'know... I was just the facilitator, sitong was d mastermind.. Haha ok i sound like I'm pushing the blame but then y'know.. When you really come to think of it... Argh. Just don't be upset at me la.. I'll feel very guilty and unhappy leh...

Okies. Now where did I stop? *goes to check* Oh yea.. Release of results.. I shall continue here and make it really really short. In the end when we went up to collect our results slips, since Michelle was register number 2, she was one of the earliest to get her results slip and so everyone was like crowding around the tables and stuff, and I grabbed her slip and I was like "Michelle! You did so well!!! You got like, mostly As and Bs and only 1 C!! So good!!!" Then I think she said like she got *i shall not reveal* __ and I was like "That's DAMN GOOD! WOW!" So I remember thinking to myself.. I did worse than Michelle in the prelims plus I'm a lousier student than her so.. I can safely hope for maybe even a 15? So when my turn came, I looked at Miss Goh's face, which was fixed at that "Heh heh heh i dunno how you did but I'm determined to frighten you with my expression" expression and I got so bloody worried! So with trembling hands I signed the list and obtained my papers from Mrs Chua Poh Leng.. Who looked like the Angel of Death herself..

So once I got the papers I plastered them onto my stomach.. Refusing to look at my results. So I went straight to sitong, stuck my results slip right in front of her face and asked her the most important thing.. "DID I GET MY A1 FOR ENGLISH?" Then she said like "Yah.." and before she could have a closer look, Michelle grabbed the paper and she was like "Wahhh! You got so many so many As!! And you don't have a single B!" I was so delighted I just had to see my results slip... Then Sitong grabbed my Form A and tore it apart.. Well, figuratively la.. Hee. She was like, "where do you see the L1R5? Where?" So I peeked at the paper. It was a mess of numbers and figures and then I looked. This magical moment.. "L1R5-10". I was like, OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The rest, like they say, is history. I broke down in tears, and sobbed and sobbed. Well at first after the shock I couldn't cry. My eyes were surprisingly dry. I went up to Mrs Low and Miss Goh and scolded them for scaring me like that. I was like, ""Mrs Low!! You scared me half to death!!!" and she smiled benignly and said "You scared yourself la, I didn't know how you did! So how did you do?" And I told her and she, being my english teacher, peeked at my English score and nodded approvingly. So I was uberly happy for awhile after that, laughing maniacally that I couldn't believe my fortune. Then I turned around and saw my most beloved junior Julianne!!! . So she was like, "How did you do? How did you do?" We hugged this big bear hug and I was like, "I got ten! I got ten!!" We tore apart and she was like, "Oh my goodness you did so well!" It was at this point that I was so overwhelmed that I broke down crying. Julianne was like, don't cry girl, you did well you did well! I was like yea I love you. Haha. So then I
walked on a bit further and saw SUFERN!!! I mean sufern, the girl I've missed since Sec 4.. She was standing there with her gorgeous smile and usual pose. I was just so happy to see her.

So, crying uncontrollably and all, I called my mother. So when she picked up the phone and heard me crying my ass off, she was like, "What happened?" and I was like, "I just got back my results *sobbing uncontrollably still* " and guess what my kind, loving, generous and oh-so-not-sarcastic mother said.. "You must have done very badly right." I mean, THANKS FOR THE VOTE OF CONFIDENCE, MOM!

Anyway, I don't wish to elaborate on that. After hanging around in the hall for awhile longer, scaring people for they saw me crying and they thought I did so badly *winks at weechiew* and finding out how others did, going around hugging people, catching up with old friends... We (me, eunice, michelle, sitong) went out to kbox. Yea. We were supposed to meet Jonathan la. So anyway, yea, we went to the kbox at Cineleisure and had a helluva fun time singing and screaming our lungs out. It was really brilliantly fun. Yea.

Went home after that and my parents didn't seem too happy, but turns out they were really happy and stuff... So yea.. Hee. Then we had a talk about the JCs I should go for.. Horrible traumatic experience.. Don't want to talk about it.:D

So anyway, after that, my parents were really relatively happy so you could say I regained my freedom. I could go almost everywhere and plus I got this reward from my dad. Won't mention how much $$ it was but yea. Reward. :D So yea.. Went out after that, as in, on Saturday...(Release of results was on Friday) Treated Sitong and Michelle to movie.. Big Fish, no less. And to the popcorn combo too, though sitong paid for the nachos. The nachos got really disgusting and soft and all after awhile.. YUCK! Then throughout the movie, me, sitong and michelle were like snuggling/cuddling up against each other for warmth coz the bloody theatre is bloody freaking cold! So to quote Michelle... MORAL OF THE STORY: ALWAYS BRING JACKET WHEN WATCHING MOVIE. Yeaaa... Either that or bring a boyfriend who is perpetually warm always.. LOL *winks*

Yea so the rest of the days were very fun, not memorable but.. Fun. I was contemplating about what schools to choose la, over the first few days... Spoke to a lot of people.. On Sunday went to my Uncle's house and my whole family was like, first they were like congrats congrats, then after that they came to me one by one (it turns out that my mother complained about my decision of what school to choose) to advice me to go to NJ. May I add here, that I am a very easily influenced person. I am definitely not stubborn and I am open to constructive advice, especially when it is put forth to me in a ver calm manner, not like how my mom does it, "YOU BLOODY HELL BETTER GO TO NJ AND NOT MAKE BLOODY STUPID CHOICES! YOU WILL BLOODY DIE IN YJ AND..."

Yea... there she just went again... "I SAY STOP THE COMPUTER ARH!" Wtf. what did I ever do to her man. Gtg. will continue later. Ciao!

Boing!

2004-03-03T22:24:00.000+08:00

Damn... On msn now.. I'm pissing everyone off!... Ok gtg it's too late and my momma wants me off. Will elaborate later...

Choices made.. Is there no turning back?

2004-03-02T09:38:00.000+08:00

Sighhhh..... I've just registered for my schools.... I realise I made a really wrong and bad choice. I didn't put AJC in one of my choices... Dammit.. :( Now all I can do is cross my finger and hope and pray really hard that I can make it into NJC.. If not I'll be going ACJC y'know... Sheesh. Vivek made me put acjc as third choice... Argh. And I wasted my second choice by putting HCJC. Damn... Hee.

So now I've been completely brainwashed into thinking that NJC is the place for me but then those people who know me better tell me that the school is a mugger school and is really really dead. Some even told me I might die of stress there... Damn. I dunno who to listen to now... I dunno whether I want to make it into NJ or not! And if I go to ac, I'm sure I will not survive. Argh!

How I wish there was a turning back. How I wish MOE just set FIXED cut-off points for the schools. Why can't it be that way? It would be a more definite thing, no more "Game of Chance" . Argh. Life just ain't fair... It just ain't.

Argh.. The bell just rang. I've been in school for about three hours now... Doing nothing but using the computer... Hee. Dunno what I'm doing here. But I'll be going to BodyWorlds later. Hee. Wanted to go for very very very long le... Heehee. Finally I'm gonna be able to go see it for myself. :D Yay.

School is dismal nowadays... Damn.. No one is turning up... :( Bleah.. Were supposed to take photos today... I only managed to snap some shots of d people who turned up today using jeremy's digicam. JEREMY IF YOU'RE READING THIS RIGHT, REMEMBER TO SEND TO ME K. Hee. Now in library and have used the computer for like 3 hrs? I have been working on this blog entry for heaven knows how long. LOL. Hee. Andy keeps disturbing me. He's writing this testimonial for me on friendster and guess what he just said? "She has long hair.... Pubic hair...." OMG. CATFIGHT!!! Wahahaha yea. Idiotic la he. LOL.

I suppose computer is my soul..:D I really really really badly want to pursue a career in the computing industry. Hee:D Aaaanyways... I might just go and continue the blow by blow eh? Hee. I shall attend computing tutorial later.... Then I shall escape from lecture!!! Yea baby yea. Hee. Okie dokes I dunno what to say now... so well.. bye bye!

The impossible happened

2004-03-01T21:42:00.000+08:00

I am still in shock. How on earth did I manage to get ten points for my Os? That's 6 distinctions! And I didn't fail a single subject! Wtf!

Anyway, with doing well comes the tough decision of which JC to choose now. I really really really really really really really wanted to stay in Yishun JC, but my parents and the rest of my EXTENDED family and some of my friends too, have managed to brainwash me into thinking that National JC is better for me. I suppose so. They did talk a whole lot of sense of which I didn't retain much of the content though.

SCGS, my wonderful beautiful absolutely heavenly alma mater, did wonderfully well. Our cohort's Mean Something Grade was a 11-year-record-breaking 2.14!!! It's not all that good, but well... It's considered something to be proud of.:D Y'know.. I really really really love SCGS. Everything about her. I'm so absolutely proud to be an true blue SCGS girl, a kim gek, a woman of character and relevance. This feeling absolutely envelopes and overwhelms me. I am suffocated, but this suffocation is welcome. I feel like a balloon, stretched to the maximum with (no not hot air) my love for SCGS, my wonderful alma mater for a decade. If not for her, I seriously wonder what and/or where I will be now.

SCGS moulded me into what I am and I am sure all SCGS girls will feel the same way. I felt so insulted when the principal of YJC called our school "Singapore Girls' School" and another teacher called us "Chinese Girls' School".. I mean, at least SCGS we are a TOP TEN SCHOOL and we have always been! If you guys don't know our name properly, you are just ignorant fools.

Well.. I will now proceed to give another blow by blow of what I did from where I stopped.. Which was... Well I don't quite remember.. I shall hereby proceed to describe more significant events..

Well.. As the day of the release of the results drew near, less and less people went to school. It was such a blatant trend that you would think somehow a graph could link the rates of the two together. LOL. Anyway, wednesday was a sad day.. Dance was dismal and bleak and we ended off being let off early. Oh and I remember one day I decided not to go for Chinese. Yea. Those memories of pre-release-of-o-level-results days are really very vague and hazy. Hee. So shall we just forward to Friday, the day of the release? Yes indeedy we shall:D

So I shall begin in the morning. So I was supposed to crash NYJC coz my bf wanted me there. So I was supposed to meet her at bishan mrt at like, 640? And I reached there at like, 7? We were like so f*cking late we had to take a cab. So we went to the taxi stand at the mrt station and there was not a taxi in sight. We waited for what seemed like eternity (which was, in actual fact, 10mins) and no empty taxi in sight. So we walked off like, 100m from the queue, and ZOOM two empty cabs went past us. We were like, WTF. So we decided to walk more and then we made some turns. Everytime we turned, there would appear 2 empty cabs on the street that we just turned from... How infuriating! :D

So when we finally got onto a cab, we told the driver, "Nanyang Junior College" and he didn't know where it was, so we told him Serangoon Ave 3. He was like "Ohhhhh yea avenue 3, avenue 3.. I see I see." Then he went on to talk a whole lot of crap in almost totally incomprehensible english about how he was only educated up till Primary 2(like I couldn't tell) and how he knows the whole of Singapore by road name. He even told me how to tell other cabbies how to drive to my house! Then in the end, we ended up at.... *drumroll please* "SERANGOON JC!!!!" Me and sitong got this bloody shock. We were so uberly late, stuck with some crappy extremely talkative driver who drove us to "UPPER SERANGOON" because apparently that's what he heard. So we had to repeat like extremely loudly "SERANGOOOON AAAAVENUUEE THREEEEEEE" before he like, understood. Argh.

So when we finally arrived, Sitong and I had to make this one big round to look like we were coming from the canteen and not from the front gate and so apparently it would look like we weren't late. Then we went in and had to go looking for her GP class because she didn't know which classroom they were in, so we climbed up four stories, then realised her class was waiting for us on the third floor, so we went down to join them, said hi and everything, then climbed down ALL THE WAY to the first floor, made out way over the hill to the canteen and sat there, because her GP teacher wanted BREAKFAST. Her friend Jonathan (he's my friend too la) insisted on treating me. But ended up treating me to banana milkshake when i wanted to try the cookies and cream smoothie. LOL. Nvm... the fun only came later when everyone decided we wanted to play Captain's Ball! Yay. So yea. to cut a really really really long and elaborate story short, we played cool games, with my teams always winning. Apparently I'm a good catcher:D. And I fell trying to intercept the ball from Cheryl Wong, and also got whacked by the ball when Jonathan swung it or sth. So yea I was bruised and stuff all over. So I thought it was a bad omen for my results yknow... That I kept getting beaten up. Oh and then we started worrying for our results after the games. We just sat there and freaked out and freaked out and freaked out. Oh have I mentioned that there is this really cute guy in her class? He's very cute! He's called Ron, and he looks like Bryan Wong, he talks like Bryan Wong, walks like Bryan Wong.. blah blah. He's very cute!!! Hahahaha. Do I sound interested? Don't worry I'm not. LOL.

Yea so after that me and sitong went for breakfast at McDonald's and waited for michellecher there. We just sat there and freaked and freaked. Y'know, something is seriously wrong with the singapore education system that singaporean students get so frightened about the release of results... This phenomenon is highly unhealthy! It should be a taboo! Anyway, yea I was like, freaking out and crying and I really didn't know what to do. We just started counting down... "Three hours and 55 more minutes..." and so on..

Then I decided to go to sleep so that I wouldn't feel so horrible. When I woke up, michelle was already there and she and sitong were merrily chatting and freaking out about the results. Then after getting together and freaking out somemore for awhile, we went to SCGS. We were like, "I miss sc, I miss sc, and I'm so freaked out, very scared, what if we caused the school not to get 100% pass, what if, what if..." At this point we turned the corner and saw our Co-Op teacher, MRS LOW. *cue gongs* Our immediate reaction: "AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" Mrs Low, I must say, undoubtedly received the shock of her life. I just collapsed to the floor when I saw her. The stress was so difficult to bear! But she had the brightest of smiles on her face and she strode over with calm composure and said "Hello my beauties!"

So we pressed her on how we did and here are key quotes of what she said:

When asked if we did well -- "Weeell... It depends on who you're talking about.." and she stared at me with this YOU DID BADLY look.
When asked how our class did-- "On the whole, your class didn't do very well.."
When pressed for further details -- "You wouldn't want to know..."

It's not difficult to imagine how I had felt after that terrifying encounter. She IS my favourite teacher though, and many tell me I am her favourite student. But.. She can scare me so much. So it was with much trepidation, fear and anxiety that we spent the next hour. I had this near-emotional-breakdown. Then the time came.. For the moment of truth. My friends were like, chiding me, for I went into the toilet and tore out this extremely long length of toilet paper, to prepare for a flood of tears I was expecting to shed for the demise of my "good" results. At that time I was praying so very hard that I would get 16 points for my L1R5. The toilet paper soon became soggy with sweat. My friends told me it was disgusting and I started making those funeral headgear lookalikes with those toilet paper. Heh.

So it came down to sitting down in the hall, hugging everyone who came back, and freaking out together as a class. It was easier to freak out with more people though.:D Hee.

Yea and then Miss Heng finally came in and announced over the microphone how we did.. But before she could begin, we were freaked out by all the Sec 4s coming in and sitting at the back to witness the event.. It totally freaked us out. Then the teachers started filing in with all the results slips... We were really scared by then y'know... Then yea, Miss Heng started announcing. She said, sth like let's get on with it, and then she announced something like " This year, we achieved 100% passes!" and the whole hall erupted into thunderous applause, cheering and screaming. I was really uberly happy and stuff.. Then she announced the subjects which we got 100% passes in: "English Literature!" *cheers* Then another really memorable moment -- "Geography!" At this point the whole hall erupted into cheers. For me, there was this short period of stunned silence. Then i screamed at the top of my lungs (the people around me would know, like jasin and huitze) . I was like, "I PASSED GEOGRAPHY I PASSED GEOGRAPHY!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" Yea! I was so so so so so so uberly happy y'know! Yea that was an ultra memorable moment.

Then Miss Heng went on to mention a whole other list of subjects with 100% passes and when she named "French, German, Japanese and Music" I was really happy too because I was hoping to pass my music, since I'd screwed up my practical. Then she mentioned all the improvement we'd made... Our MSG, as I'd mentioned earlier, had beaten the 11-year record with a new record of 2.14.. We were so proud of ourselves! Then I remember the percentage of distinctions for Geography was "89.9%!!" and I was like "AHHHHHHHH!!!! So many distinctions! I can have a hope of getting a B4!!!! YIPPEE!!!!!!" And in the end it turned out we all did so much better than expected. Especially my class..
Yea so yea... Memorable day.. Hee.

In the end SCGS did well. I shall not dwelve into details as it is late. I shall elaborate further tomorrow, I suppose. :D Night y'all. Take care and God Bless!

Happy, shalalala...

2004-02-28T10:41:00.000+08:00

I am weirdly uberly happy... I got really unexpectedly good results omg wtf! Thank God Almighty for blessing me. Anyway, gtg now watching movie with my friends... Will tell you more later. Just know that I am VERY happy.

WOW

2004-02-27T23:36:00.000+08:00

Uberly happy, Cherlynn runs in to blogger and types "I AM HAPPY" all over screen!

I AM HAPPY I AM HAPPY I AM HAPPY I AM HAPPY I AM HAPPY I AM HAPPYI AM HAPPY I AM HAPPY I AM HAPPY

oh oh oh yeaaa heh heh heh ;)

2004-02-25T21:05:00.000+08:00

hellooooooooooooo! :D:D haha. Well now everybody how're you doin? Fine? I hope so. Hee. I'm not feelin too happy but well, I'll just have to grin like a fool and bear with it. :) <-- Fool's grin :P

So why am I not happy? My bf is pissed at me. I dunno wanna wash dirty linen in public but argh. I'm not happy when she's not happy with me. Oh and btw, bf stands for best friend. Yea.

And why else am I unhappy? I have a freaking piece of shit for my maternal parent. WTF. Here's all the things she did wrong:

Just because I don't play the piano when she's at home or play anything FOR HER to hear, she's threatening to sell the piano. And how does she threaten? In that bloody freakin irritating way: "I'm getting people to view the piano tomorrow. You don't want to play what! You promised to play it half an hour everyday. I said it umpteen times, just half an hour a day is enough, you don't want to listen to me, blah blah blah." And i just make the slightest squeak of retort and she goes "Fine, you think you're old and smart now, fine I won't say anything coz you think you're smarter than me. You will die a horrible death and your spirit will vanish you'll be a wandering ghost like Nezha!" I MEAN WTF I AM HER DAUGHTER! WTF Why does she do this to me??? WTF WTF!!!!!
NEXT! She invades my privacy! When she uses the computer, she doesn't stick to the general account and uses MINE instead! WTF. Then she goes like, "I told you not to publicise what happens to you on the internet, not to use your real name, you don't listen to me! Y'know a person can stalk you and PREY on you and find out who you are, where you live and everything, and you can get RAPED and KILLED! I told you already you don't want to listen!" WTF What kind of impressionable but clueless and ignorant housewife is she? And I thought the years of education up to A Levels and almost a degree would have done her good. Looks like when you get old, critical thinking and sound analysis just flies out the window. I mean, MAN!
Then my father has to say: "If you get 12 points where can you go? NJ? NJ? NJ?" DO I LOOK LIKE I WANT TO GO TO NJ? WTF I'm like, "NO. YOU NEED 10 points TO GET INTO NJ!" Then he goes "So where can you go with 12 points?" I'm like, "SA? "

But one thing about my father... He takes everything that I say in a tentative term as if it's already happened. Like last year, before posting results were out, he took it for granted that since I said I wanted to go to JJ, I definitely was IN JJ and he was like, everytime he drove past the school he'd be like, "Look look! There's the school your sister is going to be in for the first three months! That's her school!" Then he'll drive 3 rounds around it going 10km/h describing the interior and exterior of the building, what kind of people go there, what he heard about the school from his ALMIGHTY friend Uncle Lim... So when I told him I was aiming for 12 points, he took it for granted that I was DEFINITELY going to get 12. Don't get me wrong, I love my father a lot. I don't like him taking it as if I'm DEFINITELY going to get 12 points because I don't want to break his heart when it turns out I didn't get 12.

Anyway, back to where we were. So I said, with 12 points I could probably go to SA. And my dad was like "But you're going to stay in YJ?" I expressed my affirmation. "Why?" he asked for like the 10000th time... And I replied for the 10000th time "BECAUSE MY SUBJECT COMBINATION IS ONLY OFFERED IN YJ!"

Then my mom comes and says "Yóu've got a BOYFRIEND RIGHT, that's why you're deciding NOT to leave YJ right because your BOYFRIEND is staying in YJ right and you want to stay in YJ because your BOYFRIEND is staying right?" I MEAN WTF She's like, ARGH!!! WTF I just exploded. "I DON"T HAVE A BOYFRIEND! And anyway, EVERYONE in YJ is going to leave after the results are out so.." and before I could finish, my dad said "Everyone but you la" then of course I had to say "no, some of my friends are staying.." coz that was the truth. AND MY B***CH MOTHER HAD TO COME AND SAY "YOUR BOYFRIEND LA" ARGH! I think if life continues like that I'm gonna have a stroke cum heart attack some day.. ARGH.

You know what, there's a lot more I could say but ARGH wtf. I give up. Can you survive if your mother were like that? Well I have, for 16+ years. And I'm gonna have to hang on for a few more years before I can finally move away from her. ARGH.
But I know she means the best for me and well deep deep deep deep down inside I know I love her. I just sometimes let my rebellious hormones get the better of me. Mom, I think sometime soon you'll be readin this. Just know I love you alright. Whatever I said up there was in a moment of anger and well, I really love you though I don't show it. It's hard to love you when you're screamin at me, naggin at me but. You're my mom. I love you. I love you I love you I love you. And I know you love me too. I'll have to keep reminding myself. And I love Daddy too. I love him a whole lot. Sometimes he irritates me but Daddy loves me and I love him too. I just don't love Calvin. Why did you give birth to him? Wasn't I enough? I'm sorry but I can't bring myself to love that brother of mine. Hope you'll understand why ok. Love you guys:D

Alrighties... I feel better already. Though I hope sitong will forgive me.. OH SHE'S ONLINE! She JUST SIGNED IN! :D:D YAY!
Oh but wait. She's still pissed at me. Argh. I'll see what I can do. For now, tralalala and ciao!

Alrighty yea...

2004-02-25T13:01:00.000+08:00

Heh heh heh... I'm in computing right now yea baby:D Hee. Yknow, computing is probably the best science practical around..

Oh and yea... I feel really bad now, coz my friends came to yj to look for me and I have to stay for prac till like 1:25pm and they have to be back at nyjc by 2pm and it's like i dunno, they haven't seen me yet.. We were supposed to go for lunch together before I came back for dance and stuff. We even wanted to go watch a movie... I think sitong's angry with me for like being so slipshod about this... Damn I don't like donig this... Argh. Ok I'll now go and update that little story there! *points down*

[edited about ten minutes later]
DONE!! Story is ready for you to read down there![/edit]

This is a story...

2004-02-23T23:41:00.000+08:00

Hahaha.... Didn't expect I'd get the chance to use the computer yesterday... Heh heh heh... Right now it is February the 24th so yea.. Haha. I'm in computing now, trying to blog..

On Sunday, there was like, a gathering at my auntie's place.. It was her birthday! Happy Birthday Auntie Angie!!:D
So so so anyway.. Sunday night me and sitong spoke on the phone till late late late at night and in the end I only had like 3 hours of sleep.. We talked about a whole load of crap. Damn. Anyway Ill continue later..

Whatever is below was written yesterday:D
>>>
Today I wanna tell you a story.

There was once a girl, who lost all hope in love after many disappointments.. So in the days leading to Valentine's Day 2004, she made a resolution. If nothing magically romantic happened to her by Valentine's Day that year, she would take a solemn vow, give up on the guy she's liked for very long, resolve to stay single forever and condemn herself forever.

Valentine's Day came and went. The girl had to bear the horrible emptiness of not having someone love her on Valentine's Day. She did consider herself quite lucky though, to have some girls give her gifts. But of course, as those of you who've felt like this before, it isn't quite the same as getting it from a member of the opp. sex (or in the new society, the sex that you are interested in romantically)... The day before Valentine's Day, the girl accompanied a guy and her friend out to buy some gifts for another girl that the guy liked. The girl and her best friend were deeply touched and at the same time saddened. This incident further hardened the girl's resolve to take the oath.

The girl gave it time.. She gave it till 11:50pm on Valentine's Day, in case something miraculous was going to happen..

Will continue later...

[edited on February the 25th, Wednesday at 1:13pm]

So yea lemme continue!:D So on this fateful day, the girl waited in vain for ANY member of the opposite sex to acknowledge her presence on this piece of shit called Earth and well, it never happened. Her friends tried to tell her not to do it, as they, the lucky people, still believed in love because there were guys out there who appreciated them. Not for the girl. No member of the opposite sex liked her enough. (The girl, by the way, is a heterosexual;)) SO on that fateful day, the girl made a decision that would probably change her life forever. She gave up. On the guy she liked AND on Love. She resolved never to believe that a guy can like her anymore.

Yet as days passed, the girl realised how difficult it was to live without love. The girl realised that she had some precious friends who loved her for who she was. The girl had an emotional breakdown. The girl was unhappy with her parents. The girl just led life trying not to think about the guy she liked, for fear that she would start loving him again. Then the girl realised there are some really nice guys in her school. As in, REALLY nice... The type you could really LIKE... And the girl thinks "Don't think about it [name of girl].. Don't even think about it."

The girl is very determined to remain single forevermore, but then, the girl has decided that if there is ANY guy out there who actually likes her, she will start believing in Love again. Till then, the girl will wallow in lovelessness.:D

And oh yea. The girl is NOT me. Haha (right...)
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Sometimes I run, Sometimes I hide...

2004-02-22T13:27:00.000+08:00

Forgot to tell you guys... Yesterday our OG outing was really kinda fun. Yea. I'll blog more about it later k. See ya!

I know nobody's reading this, but...

2004-02-22T12:05:00.000+08:00

Y'know.. I miss having a life. I miss SC.. I miss my old friends siying, fah khe, reena, jasin (whom I'm talking to now on msn), sabrina, phil, natalie, ANNE QUEK!!!, tab, vivien, huiyu and basically all you people of GY! And friends from Music O Levels at ACSI... Like kok, lai, pimp, isaacchanzhiyang, sam, darryl(whom I'm talking to now on msn), yihern, ningru, yingliang(oh yes miss HIM too, odd as it sounds)! I miss being under the prestigious name of SCGS Girl... I miss Uncle's Mee Pok.. There are so many things I miss..But you know.. someone(myself) once said "Why cling on to the past when what you can change is in the future?" I can't cling on to the past, I know... But reminiscing is something I always do. It's like a part of me; it's what I do when I'm bored and all alone on the bus or on the train. I brood, in other words.

There's just so much a person can brood about. I used to keep brooding about Mr. XXX. Now I just brood. Aimlessly... I look at people walking by and I think about what they're doing and then I brood about it. I brood about what just went on in class... Oh and yea. I think I've been brooding too much. I keep getting these dizzy spells nowadays. The dizzy spells can come at anytime. There was once a spell came when I was climbing the stairs! I almost lost my balance and would have fallen all the way down if not for someone behind me.. Whew. Close shave. But sometimes I wonder what it's like to die. I can just leave this world, leave all my troubles behind. Who cares that I've never done so many things that I should have done? Nobody cares about me. I repeat: NOBODY cares about me. If anyone did, it isn't obvious at all. Well maybe reena does. I LOVE YOU REENA. And maybe sitong does, coz whenever I talk about killing myself she says she'll kill herself before letting me kill myself. Or maybe jonathan does, coz he just refused to let me take the vow on Valentine's day because he probably didn't want me to be lonely all my life. And maybe Junyi does, seeing as he's the only person who's using my tagboard and he's my best guy buddy.

Apart from abovementioned people, I think no one really cares about me, whether I live, whether I'm sick, whether I'm moody.... blah blah blah. It's not fair! Some people have so many people caring for them. If you care, you'd better TAG THE BOARD. Yeps. But anyway I doubt anyone actually reads this:(

But y'know...Do i care that no one cares? NOOOOOOOOOOO... As long as I care for myself, I can be the most loved person in all the world.

I don't need your love
I don't need you to care
I don't give a damn
Even if you're not there

Though of course I'd appreciate it
If you appreciated my being
I know not what I'm saying here
I think i'm just rambling

I think I might need someone to love me
I think I'd need someone's care
I want to be important to someone
I want for someone to be there.

Yea. Oh well. See you all someday.

I'd appreciate it if someone appreciated me.

2004-02-21T11:30:00.000+08:00

Howdy! Lookit at the title of this blog entry! :D I may have given up on love, but that doesn't mean I'll stop people from loving me. LOL. Oh and y'know what I said about my parents? Well, at least they only scolded me once about the bill and left it at that. My dad's going to continue paying for the bill but if the bill continues to escalate then I'd have to say bye to my phone on Tuesdays, Thursdays and Saturdays... LOL. Anyhow.

I realised that I've really really really managed to give up on the guy I used to like. *runs around in tribal celebatory dance* Yeaaaa. Haha. How do I know? I can now look at his messages in my phone and my heartbeat will not jump to 4 times of normal speed:D But nowadays I keep thinking of what we did together(not much, really) and I'm afraid I might fall in love with him all over again. It's not as if he's that great, but well....... Heh heh heh.

Well... Lemme continue from where I stopped..

Tuesday was a day which left me feeling very guilty. Go see the entry for tuesdayhere and you'll know what I mean.. LOL don't wish to repeat everything here.:D

Wednesday... I can't quite remember what happened though.. Lalala it was a short day and then my dance pals and I decided not to go for dance because Esther forgot her pants and Arh Ben was not in the mood for dance but for playing pool. So we went to play pool. Yea. Though when we reached Paradigm, there were no tables left. Met Edna at paradigm and had a nice time talking and meeting HER friends. Yea. So since we couldn't pool, we went to PS to just walk and talk and stuff. Had a nice time checking out books at Times yea.. LOL. Then we went home and we were all falling asleep. Ben was nodding off and his head almost fell on me but hahaha he was consciously stopping himself from doing it. WAHAHAHAHA. Yea. Lynn was too short for me to put my head on, and so was Carolyna and they told me to put my head on Ben. I'm like, WHAT?? are you guys MAD?? Wahahaha. Yea. So I slept rather uncomfortably with me head on the window screen of the train. Awkward position, I tell ya.

Thursday. We found out that someone told on us at dance and we heard that Cornelius, the dance president, was hopping mad. Yea. Some weird guy. And on Thursday... Erm... I think that's all I can remember. Haha. OH. I HAD A LOUSY DAY thursday. Or was it Wednesday. Hmm. I think it was Thursday. MY PERIOD CAME WTF. And I was SO SO SO unprepared for it. The cramps just started attacking me WTH. It was so uberly painful I couldn't enjoy my computing practical! Darn it. And then I was like kinda moody and down, coz I mean c'mon. How can you be cheerful and lively when you have this terrible stomach cramp like every five seconds? I downed 2 panadols and only after like a few hours did their effect show. Hahaha but this has made me realise that I'm a very noisy person in class. I just kept quiet for like 2 hours? and that night John messaged me asking if I was alright coz I didn't seem happy in class that day. I must say that was very sweet of him. Thanks john!! :D So I shall try to keep a lower profile nowadays. LOL As IF that's achievable for me. Wahaha.

Friday. Yesterday. Great day! Coz my GP project WON FIRST PRIZE IN THE WHOLE LEVEL! We won by a landslide of 100 votes! I'm uberly happy and y'know, the feeling was great when I was at the notice board and classes just came down to vote and everything... Most of the classes voted unanimously for my group's ad and I felt sooooo good at it! Coz I mean, most of the work was done by me (the graphic designing bit, the wording, the tagline, were all my brainchildren). Jeremy did the black blurs near the bottom of the page and gave me the Sentosa Hotline to put in. Hongcheng just... erm... quarrelled with Jeremy. Though I suppose he must have done something constructive. Hmm. I know he did something. I just don't know what. LOL Marzuka found pictures for us but we didn't quite make use of them so... This is like, deja vu, of my tourism project last year.. I mean, that project was also ENTIRELY done by me and for that project we won second in the whole level so yea... Hmm. Haha. I dunno WHAT to say :D

So yea. A blow by blow of my week:D Ciao and see ya soon!

Love's gone. A void remains, waiting to be filled

2004-02-16T23:50:00.000+08:00

Today, right now, I am crying. I am crying because I am touched. I shall elaborate further later on.

I shall start from where I stopped. Wednesday was a great day during CCA. We were tasked to choreograph our own dance steps (4 sets of 8 counts) and we had fun choreographing and dancing to HOT IN HERE. WOOOwee! wahaha. Yea Lynn and Anshika are HOT dancers man... *wolfwhistle* Anyway, we had great fun and I trudged along, feeling extremely ungraceful with them. But I learnt how to do the back bend thing! It was pretty cool! The magic words were (said to me by Carolyn) "Open your legs!" and voila! Backbends at your beck and call! ;D

Thursdayuneventful. SO uneventful that I can't remember what went on.

Friday... Was an ok day. If I'm not wrong Friday was the day John fractured his arm. Yea.. The poor guy. Anyway, Friday I met Sitong and her classmate Jonathan (who now happens to be my friend) to go out and help him pick out some Valentine's Day gift for a girl he likes (who is his and sitong's classmate). It was really sweet what he did for her. He spent about $50 buying the best of stuffs for her. He got her some Perlini's Silver thing, some Merci chocolate, and 3 roses in a bouquet which were helluva expensive. How sweet. Some girls have all the luck y'know. Argh. Yea... Friday was happy coz I'd made a new friend :D

Saturday. The big day. Vday, this year, had an ambiguosity to it. It meant Valentine's day as well as Values Day. Well, that meant I got to have some funfair like thingy. It was the first time I could organize something like that and invite my friends over! The feeling was uberly cool. LOL. And of course Valentine's Day was a sad day for me. Seeing couples hand in hand, in love... I of course wasn't very happy about it. Many of my friends knew of my plan to take a poisonous oath that day to give up on the guy I loved AND on love completely. (I must hereby say that I have done so) Anyway. I didn't get anything from guys if you were wondering. But i did get some gifts from my girl-friends so in that sense, yea. I don't like Valentine's Day. Never did. Don't think I ever will until.. Well i think you'll know what I mean. Dinner that night was at my house. Saw all my cousins again. My cousins saw me in my wild state with spray painted hair (silver and purple!) and henna-tattooed right hand with nail art on fingernails lookin like what the wildcat dragged in. LOL. Yea I must admit it was fun seeing their shock coz all along they all thought I was the demure sort. Hah. ME. The demure sort. Who're you kiddin. Hahaha. Oh and yea. Took the vow despite several warnings and pleadings.

Sunday was moderate. Watched HZGGII on channel 8 in the morn. Pretty cool show actually LOL. Then did some work while brother hogged computer. Have uneasy feeling someone is avoiding me as many msgs have not been replied. Anyway. Don't like sunday. Watched tv, did work, watched tv, did work. Oh and did I mention that my earphone for my discman is spoilt? *extreme sobs* But it still works, just that there's a livewire hanging out and I've taped that with *cue magical music* INVISITAPE! Lol. Yea. Me is high coz it's late at night dear. Haha. Then anyway, sunday night we went to my Third Aunt's house for some meeting then we went to Lavender Food Market for dinner. Which was a good dinner with good chinese fare:D Plus I got to see my toddler cousin Yang Yang! He's awesomely uber-cute! :D:D *ogles* oops that was disgusting. Heh.

Monday. Today. Heh. Quite an ok day just that I got insulted by Amritpal Singh Sidhu, who said I was a Zeldian. (which refers to an uberly bad girl who is bitchy, bimbotic and acts cute all at once.)And TAY HONG CHENG seconded it. I mean wtf what did I do to those guys I can never understand. JOHN! You promised to help me break their limbs man.I'll hold u to it! Wahaha. Yea. *ahem.. regains composure* Anyway, I was feeling kinda down, coz yea well, I was dealing with life without love and I just got scolded by my uberly-uncool parents over my handphone bill. Which sucks coz I thought at least I could rely on kinly love then I realized that I hated them all. Bloody ****s. Why does my life always end up in such a mess? Oh. I haven't been to church in 2 weeks. Dang. So I thought dammit without that love of the opposite sex and love of my kin, what more is there to love? Where is the love? Then up came Reena on msn and she told me some of the most beautiful words I've ever heard. She moved me to tears. I convulsed into sobs. Damn. Reena and all you my friends out there, including sitong, michelle, siying, vivien, huiyu, reena, eunice, weechiew, serene, jewel, edwin, junyi, shuhui, liwen, irene(lim), daphne, felicia, denise(kok), sarah(lai), zhiyang, shane, darryl, tiffany, esther, carolyn, angelina(chew), arh ben, qiren, jennifer, shirin, ling fang, john, jeremy, julianne, sufern etc...all of you my friends... I LOVE YOU! YOU PEOPLE HAVE LEFT ME TO BELIEVE IN A LOVE THAT IS UNIQUE AND SPECIAL THAT IS NOT PREDETERMINED BY FATE! I LOVE YOU GUYS BY CHOICE ! GTG bye

Amazing stuff

2004-02-11T12:54:00.000+08:00

We are like. in computing now. I love computing practicals, you can just do what you want on the computer. Anyway, I need to get back to brooding. Yeps. That's the reason for this blog. Haha. But I'm high right now. Can't get broody. Hmm

Literature was fun. We were talking about limericks. Really cool stuff man. Yippee.

Anyway... I'm going to programme my stuff now. Computing and C++ is uberly fun! :D:D Yippee. See ya later!:D

The First One

2004-02-10T22:18:00.000+08:00

There's this new craze about BLOGSPOT blogs. In my school, at least. So I thought, why keep up with manual bloggin? Hahaha. Anyway, my personal blog will still go on.. At the old location, and you can ask me for the url at babybluz@silence-everafter.org

Anyway. I'm not really seeing the merits of blogging via a hosted thingy. One: No versatility. Two: The ADS. Three: Erm. ONE AND TWO ARE ENOUGH!

Heh. So anyway, I thought I'd start a blog here to show that I actually DO have a quiet brooding side. So the blog entries you see here would be of me brooding and brooding and more brooding. Heh. Yeps.

So anyway, my nick on msn right now is: [cherlynn] [[If you like me, tell me now. For you will not get another chance]]. Everyone thinks I sound desperate. Doesn't ANYONE see the underlying resolution? I've resolved to remain single forever more after this year's Valentine's Day. That's because I've totally given up on Love. Argh. Aphrodites, you can just go to hell. Cupid has never struck me or anyone I wanted him to. Damn. Maybe this is to be. I'm not supposed to be loved by any member of the opposite sex. Well, at least not one that I actually like. Argh.

So after this Valentine's Day, I'd have more to brood about. So thus this blog comes in really handy. I shall call it my brooody blog. Wahahaha alliteration! :D

So anyway, here's a little muse:

What are you going to do,
When the future is in your hands.
Will you make good use of it
And prevent disaster where you can

Or will you abuse it
And trash the garbage man (I have no idea why i said that)
The immense power you are given
Is at your disposal for good or for bad

So tell me, what will you do
Will you let your conscience waver
Tell me how you will handle things
When Life delivers tomorrow's papers.

See ya!